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because we're starting to realise we are all human?

Once you have an awakening experience, you'll see the point of life is to live a life you want. Not a life others want. You'll see there's no other but yourself, and waking up means facing your fears, choosing God's wants over society's wants, and honouring those wants. Its to live a life you're truly happy with. 99% of people are living a life others want: what their boss wants, what their friends want, what their partner wants, what their family wants, what their society wants. Go look up the biggest regret elderly people have before death: its regretting doing the things everyone else wanted, and not doing the thing they truly wanted. If you're serious, and inspect deeply, you don't want 99% of men. God's telling you not to be with 99% of men. There's so much to life in the form of mystical experiences and self development, that 99% of men are a distraction. They aren't good enough for you and you're not giving yourself enough credit and love if you think you're only worthy for 50% of men. Are you really going to spend time with them when you could be giving time to God? Or one of the top 1% of men? And that's ok for the world, because 99% of women are at the same level of 99% of men. They'll find a match. But by choosing to be on this path, you've chosen to believe in, and to serve that inner godly voice. You've chosen to aim higher than 99% of the population when it comes to happiness, love and wisdom. You've chosen to do things and be things and face fears that 99% of the population wont, and with that comes the need to date the top 1%, because the other 99% are so disconnected with this stuff, don't care about it, and wont give you a meaningful time.

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Hey guys, I've had 2 relationships in my life(1 for 3 months during 2nd yr of college and another for 3 yrs after the first one(2 yrs apart)) the first one was a eurasian. She was a very chilled, artsy, submissive, very feminine, soft spoken, introverted INFP type. She took weed. The next was a highly dominant, horny, extroverted, highly scientific(was a doctor) latin american. She was also much more masculine than the first one. I'm naturally very laid back, chilled, less thoughts in my head then average, dont over think much, easy going, and naturally artistic and philosophical and impractical. I dont care about money and just care about experiencing the world, mystical experiences and scientific inquiry. I've had sex with both. The first one loved sex with me(I broke up with her because we went to different states), she said she felt a deep spiritual connection with me during sex(back then i was an athiest and thought she was a freak for saying the s word(s = spirituality)) she cried during sex, it lasted at least an hour, and we both thought we healed wounds and grew deeper with the sex. The 2nd one liked sex much less with me. The 2nd one complained that I wasn't masculine enough during sex, I took forever during foreplay( spending 30 minutes during foreplay is important to me) and complained that I traumatized her because I didnt suck her pussy(oral sex is not a super important thing to me tbh. I dont care either way). So i said ok, I artifically tried to be 100x more masculine with her and I gave her oral sex. She said it was better, but still not masculine enough. She wanted me to pick her up and throw her or some shit. She wanted me to be super wild and super dirty. So i kept trying to please her and just tried to be more and more horny, but it wasnt enough for her. It also made me feel like shit, because while she was getting more satisfied, I wasn't. I was getting less. It didn't feel natural to me and it wasn't what I desired. I also felt uncomfortable with how dominant she was. She couldn't surrender a great deal and this made me feel uncomfortable. I spoke about all these things but she wasnt willing to change. After we broke up, I reflected on the sex we had and the sex i had with my first girlfriend, and how they were so different. What I'm aware of is most guys are actually what my 2nd girlfriend wanted. The are usually super dirty, love oral sex and super horny and masculine. Most girls want this too. But I'm different. I tend to value intimacy, spiritual connection, emotional connection, love, romance, caringness, "experiencing her soul", etc. During sex. I like to take things super slow, super relaxed and chilled, super deep emotionally, make her cry, make her feel really loved, make her feel really cared for. And the pleasure adds to that. My favourite part of the porn section is the 'romantic' section. The dirty section turns me off. It doesnt feel right to try and be more horny, dirty, if its not who I authentically am. yet at the same time most of society are horny and dirty and not like me. So how do I go about satisfying the general population? Given 'the cards I've been dealt with', I'm gonna ask the age old question, how do I fit in when it comes to sex?

Mooji has his ways

He would say books are evil and we shouldn't be reading them, then shit his pants when he sees the internet.

Yeah that's what it was like with my first gf. Yet at the same time she wanted it, and had the maturity to receive it and be ok with me being a bit feminine and intimate and loving. yep, I've got no issues with being dirty. Too much of it really doesn't fit my character and comes off as inauthentic. Because I don't get much gratification from it, the part I look forward to and get excited about is the emotional connection and love (in a sexual, physical way). I'm slightly concerned that this means I'm a bit feminine and a bit of a woman, which I would imagine is a turn off, but I am what I am and no pretending will change that. Yep that's good advice, find someone for you rather than try to fit with someone else, even if it means many more dates, trials, etc. Gonna have to do the hard work.

Actually I don't take that position. But in the grand scheme of things, egoic consciousness is a mechanism to allow us to 'wake up'. Its not the truth. Its not the ultimate destination, and its not even leading up to the ultimate destination. Its a dead end part of the maze which you'll run around in for a while before getting back on track. I'm not saying a dead end is inferior or unimportant, in the grand scheme of things its allowing you to get to the end of the maze, but running around in it too much is needless suffering, and its got nothing to do with truth or getting to the truth. You'll get to the truth once you realise these projections are not important, are distractions and are not leading you to truth.

I notice within myself that stress really affects more horniness levels. If im stressed from work, I can not fap for a week and get by. Diet too, if you have IBS, that can reduce horniness. I also find that going to the gym increases horniness, and if you sit on your ass all day with no exercise, your horniness reduces significantly. Meditation work does reduce horniness for a period of time, but then it comes back after you've integrated what you've learnt into your life. In other words riding the ox

I can imagine enjoying it with someone I feel a deep connection with, and if that person is highly feminine and vulnerable in bed, because seeing someone I have feelings for enjoying themselves turns me on, but if its a stranger (like in porn) Its not something I enjoy. I wasn't that attracted to her in bed because of how dominant and bossy she was. It was more of a choir than something I looked forward to. I got more gratification from porn then sex with her. I liked her for things other than sex and that's why I stuck around. Possibly, others have told me that, yet if I don't masturbate once a day, I can't concentrate, so I'm not sure. Yeah as long as I can be who I truly am, and not hold myself up to some ideals I don't connect with, getting more masculine aint a problem I reckon. I think I need to somehow get more masculine but do it in my own unique way, to balance what I want and what others want. @Onemanwolfpac I liked her for things other than sex lol.

that sounds like egoic projection onto a bunch of mystical experiences. There's no such thing as 'prisoner' or being 'stuck', those are ego mind constructions. There's no such thing as 'boredom' or 'loneliness', etc.

I was a philosophical nerd in 1st yr of college and started looking at philosophies like skepticism, idealism, Christianity, and stoicism. I fell in love with stoicism, and started reading books like the obstacle is the way. I then stumbled upon this video: That was a great explanation of stoicism, then went to his more spiritual videos and started falling in love with experience, insight and mystical experiences.

@mandyjw yep good insight, awesome. @Roy I think in the 2nd relationship I didnt focus enough on expressing what I wanted, and so when I tried to please her and do what she wanted I wasn't really passionate about it. Like it would have been impossible for me to sincerely eat her pussy like it was the last meal on earth, because I wasn't really enjoying myself.

Yep let the thoughts of normal go sure. Just be you sure. Not sure if that q was rhetorical but trying to avoid negative experiences of the past. Im not sure if just being myself and being authentic will guarantee a good experience. It didnt in the past. But of course I can always see what happens... I think what I'm looking for is ehancing what I already authentically am so that I dont have the negative experiences of the past.

Lol that's one of the biggest loads of bullshit that humanity has ever dreampt up. "opposites attract" stops outside the bedroom

We were about to approach after 8 years planning, but then suddenly freaked out over the possibility of having a successful mission. We then postponed the mission for another 4 years to give us time to watch Leo's video on how to have sex, and practice it in a simulator.

Survival and reproduction are true lies and yet here you, and enlightened teachers are eating, sleeping and fucking.

“Trust in God, but tie your camel. Because Allah has no other hands than yours”

Maybe because what's a dickhead is relative. A dickhead for you is a cool guy for me, and a cool guy for me is a dickhead for you. There are clearly differences between people's interests, values and inclinations. Introversion vs extroversion, interested in science or art, leading people or being lead, are real differences you can actually spot. What's a cool guy for you is an Elon Musk smoking bong out of his ass, what's a cool guy for someone else is a shakespear or poet or famous athlete like ian thorpe. Just because you're a cool guy at the end of it doesn't mean its bullshit. Maybe everybody is a cool guy in truth? Maybe athletes are cool, poets are cool, scientists are cool, politicians are cool, everyone is cool, and the reason you don't think they're cool is because you have judgments and hatred towards those groups that you don't resonate with. The fact that you're a cool guy at the end of it means the MBTI is accurate, not the opposite. We resonate with who we truly are, because we love ourselves beyond belief. That's why we strive for truth, honesty, love and being 'right' or 'just', because we love our true selves. The 'cool guy' ness at the end of it is just a 'hint' from God that you're discovering something deep and valuable about yourself and that you're on the right track. The problem with the MBTI, along with every concept, is getting dogmatic about it and taking it as the gospel. The MBTI is wrong in a lot of areas, the truth is covered in nuggets of shit, yet the truth in the MBTI is valuable and useful to use.

Replace the people in wall street with people of mainly green values. What decisions would they make? What deals would they propose? What would their goals be?

let me rephrase that: “lol that’s literally me intp (virgin) and my superior intj cofounder (pretends not to be a virgin who fucks girls every night but is actually a virgin) at our company”

Yep that's right What's practical and not practical is relative to your beliefs and who you are. I find MBTI and enneagram far more effective at describing a person's behaviour than SD. You wont because its a model, you also wont see the distinctions SD, 10 ox herdings, concepts leo introduces make either if you look closely enough.

Criticising and deconstructing STEM is important, but do it fairly and justly. Saying that mathematicians are making research that reinforces anti-black racism, or technologists are creating technology that are "routinely weaponized against black people" is an extreme exaggeration at best, and a vicious lie at worst. You're not going to get STEM professionals on board and sympathetic of your position by telling them that the job they love, the job they've spent years and thousands of dollars on to take, a job they believe is impacting the world, is 'weaponized' against black people without them even realising it. They wont buy it, and all it will do is make them hostile and angry against your movement; and rightly so, because as far as I'm concerned, rarely do I see technology researchers in university contributing to the discrimination of black people through their work, let alone intentionally. Neither do I see mathematical theorems that when released through the press, contribute to anti-black racism. Mathematical research should not even be mentioned in this movement if you care about being fair and just. Mathematical departments as a constitution... another story, but that's not what's #shutdownstem are talking about. Liberal arts students can criticise or deconstruct science on a metaphysical level, but they need to understand that telling scientists who have dedicated their life, 60+ hours a week and a load of criticism, pandering to authority and years of low pay, that their scientific foundations are shoddy, is not a nice way of deconstructing science. Its careless, reckless and disrespectful of the people they are talking to. Especially when humanities researchers put their own agenda into it, such as feminism or anti-black racism. If you want to go deconstruct science, go for it, but don't push your deconstructions onto other researchers. Allow the right researchers to come to you. And don't politicise it, or skew it with your own agenda. Be fair to everyone. @Leo Gura I don't have an attachment to STEM, or care whether it exists or not, but what I see is people in STEM being unfairly criticised for stuff they aren't doing, and being conflated with the politics of anti-black racism. The black lives matter movement have consistently, and repeatedly conflated and included groups and organisations within their criticism who don't deserve it, and you see it just leads to collateral damage, like the responses in the videos above. I'm all for changing the world and making it more just, and that's actually why I'm pissed with their conflation, because I see that they are shooting themselves in the foot and just regressing their vision.