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You just got into a lot of fights as a teenager You won all of the battles of course... ohh the battle against me of course. If you don't feel like fooling around and feel like saying something more serious, what's wrong with honesty? Isn't being a deeply masculine man about having the courage to tell the horrible truths about you without flinching? All these men go to the gym, use toxic tactics to hide deep insecurities about themselves... not you though, you just tell your horrible truths straight up, if the girl doesn't appreciate that, then she's got a problem with Truth and what a real man is. Don't have to say it in a pathetic way, say it in an assertive way "yeah I use to harm myself because I had issues." That's it. No explanation or excuses or rationale for why you did it, you just fucken did it. That's the truth. You're so masculine that you don't think you need to rationale, you're too amazing for that. And if she wants more explanation because she's genuinely worried, then give it to her "Nah I don't do it anymore, got over my issues". Simple.

What alien tongue is this? Wtf is a goodest boy and this french cryptic message

That's why lots of girls actually like it when you get protective and jealous of other guys taking her away from you. Not every girl is looking for a killer per say. You can get away with just being driven/ambitious/trying to change the world even in a healthy loving way for a lot of girls. The girls I hang out with in hippy groups actually get turned off from a guy being a killer. And IMO its more sustainable to target those sort of girls, the killer mentality gets toxic real fast. If a guy is willing to be a killer with others, as soon as you do something he doesn't like, or as soon as a hotter girl comes along, he'll have no issue being a killer to you.

Look at it from a survival POV. if your family didn't fuck people, you wouldn't be here and your race wouldn't be around. There's nothing wrong with humans not being around. There are plenty of potentially beautiful species and animals that could have existed now but don't because they didn't survive. And there are plenty of animals that have gone extinct. The human race will go extinct one day too. Its just a matter of time. All of this human survival is just a tiny skit in the entire universe, an advertisement in a movie. So all these thoughts are literally just a side effect of the fact that you exist as a human right now. They aren't important. They aren't special. They don't mean anything other then a byproduct of your existence through to survival. What you want is not survival, what you want is happiness, because you're smart enough to realize that survival is a loosing game because you will die one day. These thoughts are all about survival and evolution, not happiness. They have no relevance to what you want. Focus on the thoughts and stuff that makes you happy, rather than survive, because that's what you want. Focus on what woman you want, how you want to make her feel, what a great date looks like for her and you. There's plenty of survival stuff involved in her too, she's also going to reject you or act in ways that are a byproduct of survival, but again you're better then that. It doesn't matter that you're an incel because incel is just survivalness. You're aiming above that, focus on that.

how can you feel like you're dying when death is as real as a unicorn? That's like saying unless you feel like your unicorn is being stabbed to death by a hundred demons you haven't realized unicorns are imaginary.

There is such a thing as vulnerability without stories and thoughts. Try just expression how you feel without the stories of why, when, where and who they came from

Well I doubt you'd care about terms like "high conscious" and "huge breakthrough" and "awake" if you were "awake"

If others of my gender have the same poor levels of neediness as I have, then there's definitely a correlation.

You can be expressive without being a psycho. The problem isnt really what moods you go through or how you feel, its whether you react to your emotions with awareness, detachment and clear expression or whether you hold onto those emotions, keep them bottled in, and then release in big bursts. Handling emotions is like handling women. You gotta make them feel like they are being listened to, otherwise they turn into monsters.

What you mean like a SD hunger games? If societies can build structures to support psychologically ill patients, elderly, prisoners coming back to society, surely there are structures that can be developed for bridging individuals with different cultural backgrounds and sociological levels of development into society. The whole reason why yellows are cool is because they can build structures to get the other stages working well with each other. If you limit what stages come in, thats lame.

We had a trade agreement with china too Long story short, agreements of any sorts can always be manipulated to suit a unique country's interest, beyond that of the original intention of the agreement. Just like the bible and Quaran. Its not agreements that hold agreements together, its mutual interests and exchanges. Australia's contribution to wars with the US is of course to keep the military alliance going, but what plays an even bigger role IMO is the legacy of the US's saviour of Australia during world war 2.

The problem is the US doesn't really have an interest in maintaining Asia's international order beyond the US's direct interests such as maintaining military prevalence and securing its influence over countries in the Asia Pacific such as Australia, the Philippines and Japan. The US largely isn't good for Australia in Asia. The US is much more determined to get Australia to do shit that harms Australia's interests purely for US interests, and the US will use its bigger economy and dominance to make that happen. Australia can't keep highly dependent on the US or China, and I think they've finally noticed that because they have been signing deals with middle powers like Japan and the UK. Russia can go fuck itself. The the US's problem, Russia aint anywhere near Australia. All that post is doing is getting the lefties and hippies more angry over China, so that the right and the left are on the same side when it comes to judgement against China. I doubt that will cause military conflict. What's more likely to cause military conflict is China's military presence in areas that the US and Australia are operating in. Not really IMO, the US isn't as stringent as that. It will only help Australia if it sees value in doing so, and even then it will only help Australia in ways that benefits it. Yep that's where the Middle East conflict came from Yep including multiple freedom protests and 13.6 M covid cases

I think the chances of conventional warfare with Australia and china within the next decade is about 10% or less. I think the chances of a war(either economically, politically or less likely through conventional warfare) between China and Taiwan is about 50% or more in the next decade. I don't really see Australia having any interest in securing the South China Sea on a military front beyond pleasing the US. There's just too much risk and not enough reward for Australia to get involved that way. I can see Australia increasing its military defense to protect the Timor Sea though. Also Australia's culture is very much anti military and anti war, Australia is just too laid back to start anything ambitious military wise, and the Labor political party is largely against standing up to China diplomatically, let alone through military conflict. I think that Australia and China's trade relationship isn't going to get much better in the future. Definitely Australia and China will remained significantly decoupled compared to other nations in Asia. The biggest thing for Australia I think is how it will restructure its diplomacy to compensate for better trade with other nations now that China is a loosing battle. I also don't think other Asian nations that have a say in the south china sea really have a strong interest or capability to counter China's rise in the South China Sea. Malaysia, Philippines, Vietnam, are all deeply tied to China economically, much more then Australia, and risk economic tariffs and sanctions as what was done to Australia if they question China's rise. And the US did reduce their presence in Asia so I think China's rise is inevitable, without much military conflict beyond taking Taiwan.

What you've got now is the consciousness of an ant, and always will be, because how high you can go never ends. Ants are deeply awake from a cell's POV, yet are deeply asleep from Trump's POV.

Insight For the past few months I've been working in a job that I use to love but don't anymore, and haven't been able to leave it. You could describe it a little bit like an eternal hell, a hell where I can't get out of it till I take the lesson that I'm stupidly not seeing. The lesson finally came to me... what you want isn't to achieve a goal, physical manifestation, change of environment, or state, or obtaining knowledge, or obtaining a state of consciousness, but rather what you want is to rest in the release of suffering. And resting in any other place (like visions for the future about any sort of manifestations) distracts you from the resting of release of suffering. If you're suffering from cleaning the house, just rest in cleaning the house. That's way more fulfilling then working towards some goal like some mystical state of consciousness or a big house or whatever tickles ya fancy. For me personally, my desire to have something other then the now was causing suffering. And it was also the cause of procrastination. By submitting to whatever is now, I returned to peace. So if I'm doing work and hoping that the work is good enough to satisfy my boss, that hoping is the cause of suffering and procrastination. Once I accepted that my boss might like or hate what I did, and also accept the fact that even though what I'm doing now sucks and I want to be meditating right now instead, and just suck it up, I was in peace and the procrastination subsided. Chasing happiness and running away from suffering doesn't really make sense to me anymore... or to truly chase happiness requires me to not chase happiness but to rest in the release of suffering. There's really nothing else to do but sacrifice your wants and needs to help someone else get their wants and needs. Or in other words, kill yourself to repay others' sins. Which is sort of the same as altruism, sacrificing something you have to give it to someone else. So in other words, if there are 2 places in the world, the peasant and the king, and there are 2 embryos that will go into either place, pick the peasant so that the other can be the king. And this is actually the most fulfilling decision because its true freedom. There's nothing to loose. The king will spend his entire life addicted to material possession, while the peasant spends his entire life in hell so that the king can have those possessions. The peasant spends his entire life in default altruism (by sacrificing his place as a king to the other embryo) and because its altruism its permanence, giving instead of taking, love instead of hate, letting go and detachment over attachment and holding on, spiritual rather than anti spiritual. What's been making me feel really really good lately has been the idea that whenever I suffer, I'm taking a place of suffering so that others don't have to go through it. I'm sacrificing my comfy life so that others can have a comfy life. This wouldn't make sense to a normie in a materialist paradigm, but makes sense from a non dual, infinite perspective because god IS infinity, and so you must be every situation, and by me taking the hellish one, I allow another reincarnation to take the comfy one. This is a much more effective form of alturism, much more effective then donation or any worldly stuff, as the latter relies on delusional ideas of duality, the 3D world, etc. And also psychedelic trips are not limited to substances. The universe as a whole is a psychedelic trip, and psychedelic plants and substances are 1 part of the psychedelic experience.

I took some salvia extract (20x) the other day, and unlike most people's trips, I felt a deep deep sense of familiarity. To approximate the experience, the physical avatar was recognized as a bottle of coke that someone was drinking. My memories supported that of a bottle of coke (remember birth as a bottle of coke, and my life as a bottle of coke). It deepened my understanding of pain, as it showed me that identification with any object can lead to pain because the morphing of that object is what causes the pain if you're attached to that object's form. Yet I reacted a bit differently to most people, and that's what this post is mainly about. I didn't experience much terror, and I wasn't that attached to either the human or bottle form. And the main reason is because I've been able to get high off salvia sober all my human life without realizing it (on a relative level). I remember as a kid dissociating into objects, for example one time I was doing an exam in school, and I was concentrating so hard in the exam that my human memories morphed into the paper exam and I was the exam paper for a few minutes. So I did some research and found out that there are people who do this, and they are people with 'dissociation disorder'. And I resonate a lot with the descriptions, yet I wouldn't consider it purely unhealthy. I tend to get quite dissociated when doing spiritual practice. Its not uncommon for me to get amnesia type symptoms when meditating or doing contemplation, and it is uncomfortable. Its also not uncommon for me to feel like my eyes turn to cockroach feelers so to speak, because I introspect so deeply that my sensory field looses its focus and I just go into pure perception mode, and that's when the conditions are ripe for amnesia and morphing into different objects, or just pure formlessness. Rarely am I in the sensory mode these days, its mainly just perception, its like I don't have eyes, or I'm not supervising the eyes, I trust the eyes can do its survival stuff while I rest in perception. The downside of dissociation is you can feel very very lost, especially if minor amounts of amnesia kicks in for a few moments. After contemplating sometimes I don't know who was contemplating, what object it was, sometimes I'm scrambling to remember whether the object was a bottle, computer, human, plant or animal. I don't know what form I came from, or whether I actually came from a form. This can feel uncomfortable too. What are people's attitudes of dissociation on the path? Do people just sit with it, do they try and avoid it (in what ways can they do this), is it inevitable on the path, or is it an anomaly. If people feel deeply dissociated what's your method for getting associated again?

oh ok, salvia must have been ketamine for me then.

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I mean thats all just social conditioning. At the absolute level, Trump is literally love. So if you're calling trump something other then that, you're getting it from somewhere.

But we're just not following trump because you and our teachers and university and our other new agey peeps said he's bad. Just like what Don Beck is doing.

I'm not sure what makes me feel more awkward, my pants accidentally coming down in the shops, or watching this dude represent my reputation around the world "If each cat consumes 180 animals a year... probably more, probably 180 animals a month" very precise range there.

Well not entirely, because people born in privileged countries were so privileged, most of them were spoilt and never got to go through harsh realities that someone in a war torn country and did go through first hand. Lots of kids in privileged countries dont know what its like to be alive, unlike their worn torn immigrant colleagues. Yet then again lots of people in war torn countries are quite delusional and attached to their ideologies too. Although if you were from a war torn country and came to a privileged country, IMO this would be very self actualizing, way more then someone born in a privileged country. Not many on here are from new zealand. Many on here are from northern Europe and croatia. Northern europe seems like the best place to actualize, decriminalized psychedelics in some parts, and higher SD tier then new zealand.

I developed a really bad rash yesterday. Felt extremely sick. I had work to do on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and... I did literally nothing throughout each of those days. Absolutely no work. When I touched the keyboard to type, I felt like I was developing a fever and I was about to vomit. My body was severely resisting working. I had been very unproductive for the past 3-5 months on all fronts, from spirituality, to my career to my relationships to my friendships and to spending time with my family. And I was feeling extremely disappointed in myself for allowing that to happen. So to make up for the work I missed, I decided to do work on Saturday... but Saturday was the day I developed an extremely bad rash, went to the doctors and they said it was a stress rash and that I had to rest. I have a bunch of good psychedelic friends that I hang out with occasionally and I went with them for a picnic on Sunday to try and destress. Hanging out with them really inspires my dreamboard. Living with a community like them is the sort of people I'd love to have as neighbors, work with, have relationships with and hang out with. Deeply generous, deeply open minded and accepting to who you are, sees the significance in getting along, cooperating, not fighting, respecting and working with everyones' views, deeply generous. They gathered in a sunset close to a lake within a Royal Botanical Park(forest reserve), one of the guys is a deeply wise psychonaut whose been at psychedelics for the past 30-40 years, lived and worked with people in the amazon, etc. He brought over psychedelics plants for us to take home and grow ourselves. Another one has lots of experience in chemistry and gave us some books to borrow about extractions and cultivation techniques. Another one is deeply into shamanism and was demonstrating and teaching us different ways of evoking spirit animals and using it for healing. Another is a deeply motivated magick practitioner around the same age as me (23) who quit uni himself and started his own company just doing magick and making a living off it. And there are a few others who also have really cool characters. The experienced psychonaut brought rape over with an excited grin because rape always makes people scrunch their faces in weird ways when ingesting it. The first was the magick practitioner who was taking it for the first time. The experienced psychonaut blew a huge dose up his nose with a mischievous, playful look. The magick practitioner looked like he was about turn into the hulk but eventually settled down. The others all had a go of it and had similar expressions, just a basket of scrunched up, hulk turning faces. Then as I watched them all, the experienced psychonaut proudly popped in front of me and strongly insisted to give this thing a go. I hesitantly agreed, and then the rape was blowing up my brains in a matter of seconds, and my fate of scrunching up my face like I was turning into the hulk had met itself like the others. The magick guy got up and ran straight for the lake to check it out with his new visuals and buzzing state. Another one lied down in the ground in ecstasy as the buzzing kicked in, and the others sat around talking about how cool their experience was, and how beautiful the day was. A several of them are into spirituality and wanted my advice for adviata vedanta because they wanted to know what truth is. I sat with them and helped them question their beliefs as they were on rape which is always fun for me because I love arguing about this stuff. They always seem super fascinated about what its like to go deep on the spiritual path and get lots of epiphanies in real time which I love seeing. I went over to the psychonaut expert to talk about trichos because I love his cactuses. He puts so much care into growing them and always gives us some when we meet him. His trichos have these beautiful wavy patterns on them, you can trip just by looking at them. His trichos are bright green, and have a vibrant aura to them. You can feel its personality. And he constructed a family tree that traces each tricho back to the amazon so that he knows which part of the amazon it comes from. Its truly beautiful to see all the history. The rape kicked mildly intensely. For me, somehow no matter what psychedelic I take, they are all the same flavour, same style. Mescaline/trichos = ayahuasca = LSD = rape. The rape deepened the Oneness and increased the bliss felt throughout the day. And in that instant, the rape's message kicked in too. At the forefront of experience is movement to expand consciousness, change our careers to make it more fulfilling, achieve dating and relationship goals, its just movement, movement, so much so that ironically, while you may think you're moving forward and changing and growing, you're actually just stuck in movement. Just constantly in a sea of change, yet never appreciated or respected what the result of that sea of change is. Is that what your life on your deathbed will amount to? Just a sea of movement, from birth to death, and missing all of the beauty inbetween, which was the point of the movement anyway. There's a need to change careers, learn relationship techniques, learn new meditation protocols. Yet if you just move, without just sitting and appreciating and doing the opposite of movement. How will you appreciate and love the pearls and roses that arose on the journey that you took. You might think that the road has a holy grail of an ending, but really the holy grail was all the little gems that you saw and appreciated in awe as the journey unfolded and changed. Its the experience of being there through the journey that gives you the holy grail. When you're moving without appreciating, its like you're going through the levels of mario without picking up the coins. You end the game with nothing. Even though you thought the end of the game itself was everything. There's literally no hell, the rape said. Its all just love. The worst stuff like poverty and robbery and murder is just love, and yet you're still pushing towards some goal. Where are you going? I'm just in the movement out of habit. It can't get any better then just love everywhere. Every goal I have promises love. And love is now. Its a goal that leads back to where it started. Movement can also be stagnation. Movement can also be stuckness. Movement can also be going nowhere or being stuck in a rut. Its not just not doing anything that can be those things, its also doing stuff constantly without relief or appreciation or gratefulness. The attitude of being hardcore and always achieving stuff and "doing the work" is great, yet limited when "doing the work" misses "appreciating the work's end". Because if you don't do that, then you're arriving at the exact same cul de sac that no work and being lazy ends up with. And what are you really achieving if you're stuck in movement? The end goal is love, are you really getting love by just immersing yourself in movement constantly? What if there was a counter intuitive truth that movement without appreciation and relief achieved as much as no movement? You got no closer to what you wanted then doing nothing. The group I was with really honed in this "insight". I was wanting to change my life and make it better, yet I already was involved with the exact community I was seeking. I already had it. Here they were. I dont need to chase after such a community, because they are already here. The whole reason why I even got this insight in the first place is because I already had the community I wanted. Ironically I then got heaps of business insights on how I could change my career to make it more in align with what I wanted - just by accepting and appreciating I already had what I was seeking. And the girl I liked there liked me back, and what's the go with all this movement to achieve pickup goals when the girl you like is already in the community you wanted? This was a very counter intuitive lesson on how LOA works. I didn't realize LOA required appreciating what it had already given you, and that once you did that, it goes into overdrive on showing you what you need to do. Appreciation isn't just something you do to feel good or to adhere to values of respect. Appreciation and gratitude is actually a necessary element of living life. Its a mechanism for allowing you to see what's truly there. Appreciation is looking at the truth head on. Its a pause from looking at the dream, a moment to look at the pure absolute. Without appreciation you cannot know the truth. Because without appreciation you're not looking at it. And without looking at the truth, LOA cannot work its magic to align your wants with the truth, because you're just feeding LOA movement which isn't truth and therefore LOA wont manifest for you more alignment with truth. Overall the rape was a great experience, and I'd recommend rape to anyone whose ok with a covid swab style administration.

gotta try everything, can't leave any stone unturned. oooooo would love that, bet in Florida you have all sorts of stuff being close to mexico and south america. subtle duality LOL. I recommend rape, especially if you get blown as hard as I did. I'm sorry for disappointing you. welcome ? @Someone here welcome ?

Nah i didnt see any wrongness of it, but of course applying skepticism and not taking anything at face value is just a normal process that i (and i think its good for others too) to follow.