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@Preety_India Hm?

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Yo, so, I was always fascinated by these "mastermind" type characters. I was always watching them with awe and aspired to be like them. All of the positive traits of them are fascinating to me, like intelligence, strategic thinking, analytical mind, etc. But there is one thing, that subconsciously is sabotaging my growth, which is that these characters are also "evil". Examples of them might be Madara Uchiha, Walter White, Tommy Shelby, Yagami Light, etc. Damn, I love these guys. My question is: do you know any "positively polarized" masterminds? Positive characters, that also have all of these traits? The only one that comes to my mind is Sherlock Holmes, but he's not that inspiring for me. I really need some new role models, to get rid of these subconscious beliefs. Thank you!

@AmItheone Classic solipsism trap mate. You are God, but not as your character, but as the whole Universe, that contains your character. You can become conscious of that, then solipsism is true, and only then. Of course, you created us, forum, Leo, etc, but we are all parts of the same reality. Imagine being paralyzed for your whole life and only feeling your one finger. For all your life you thought that you are only that finger and it's all you are and will ever be. Then you somehow got healed and become conscious, that you can also feel your hand. WOAH, that's amazing - AM I A GOD NOW? No mate, you are more than that, you are the whole body, you are the entire Universe (if you follow my metaphor). The character is just a point of view, the center of one from infinite miniverses. You are also a witness of yourself, being conscious of yourself, tricking yourself, that you are not the only one, and asking yourself if you are the only one here. You watch yourself answering yourself that yes, indeed, there is only you, but yet, at the same time you are divided into an infinite amount of little yous. Comprende?

@mmKay Yeah, you're right fuck'em, but still - who would be a mastermind type character that is worth following, looking up to? When I think about these types of people I think about Peter Ralston and Leo, but Ralston is too "ordinary" for me, and Leo is too introverted and I don't know, a lot of things about Leo I don't like, he's too closed-minded and "political" for me (can't find a better word, he is too square headed for me, that's all). I like Joe Rogan for being open-minded for example, I like Frank Yang, Kanye West for being creative, open-minded, crafty, all-around gifted, but I lack a person that I would admire for being motherfucking mastermind.

@Osaid L died and lost, so..

What do you guys think about this video? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xUhykPHgkc Have any of you experienced it? I did, and here are my thoughts about that topic: It was my heroic psilocybin dried mushrooms trip (11-12g). The first part of it was just pure bliss, ecstasy, gratitude that I can experience everything, that I can sense, feel, hear, wow, my mouth was opened and I was just crying out of happiness. The second part of my trip was "a little bit worse". I've seen the so-called "the Void". It was horrifying - an endless strange loop, that is stuck with itself, within itself, forever, since always and it can never escape itself because there's no place to run. We, as God are just lying to ourselves, to then convenience ourselves it's not the truth, we are deluding ourselves that we are human, just to escape ourselves, and so on. My question is like this - if (as Leeor says) both of them are true, what is the Truth, really? Is it like - there is just emptiness, the void, the paradox, the loop, the silence, that just amuses and is deluding itself with endless stories, endless realities because it's better than this horrifying Void? Basically - are we living in a fucking Matrix? It's like being conscious of the fact, that we are just a high as fuck dude, that thinks he's a Jesus Christ or something when in reality he's just a deluded high as fuck dude. Greaaaaat, that's what I was looking for my whole life?

@abrakamowse My only question about all of it is this: if the void, the paradox, the endless strange loop, the lonely god is the reality, doesn't that mean, that our reality is just a Matrix? You got me? Does it mean, that our human life, earth existence is just like being a Cypher, eating the steak, knowing it's all an illusion, denying the Truth?

@abrakamowse This is the best description, I can't even use words to describe it: https://i0.wp.com/css-tricks.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/05/yin_yang.gif?ssl=1 I've become conscious, that everything is paradoxical. Like, let's say: "you are everything, but to be everything, you have to be nothing at the same time". And it's true for everything and you directly become conscious of that, the reality is just a paradox trapped within itself. You exist right? You had to create yourself, but how did that happen? There had to be you to create you. Strange loop in a nutshell. So yeah, something really similar.

@abrakamowse Yeah, that's it. @Nahm I did 2.5, 3.5, and 4 g trips before. Then I wanted to try 7 g, but once I was tripping I heard "entities" (not kidding, and you may hear stories like that before) to add some if I really want to experience The Truth, so I did.

@Raze Maybe, still, America is a country that I should've been born in. @Bojan Thank you

@vibv Yeah, I already got a purpose, I completed Leo's LP Course, so no worries, I got this. @seeking_brilliance I can't even imagine how awesome that will be ^^ @vibv That was just "out of inspiration, a lot of emotion, fuaaark I gotta do it someday" kind of post @xxxx Thank you a lot, I will use your advices one day, but for now, first I gotta find a way to move to USA first and also be able to stay here (I'm from Poland). Anyways, thank you and much love <3 @Preety_India Don't know about people there, but USA is like a dream world for everyone in Poland, it's not like in 90's for sure, but still - it's like time travel @Yarco I understand everything that you are saying here, but I was using my rational and logical mind for the most of my life and this "autism" didn't really get me anywhere. Not my intention to offend you here or anything - we are all energy and energy is our guidance system,. When I think about moving to New York the feeling is so strong and I'm so certain of it, like I was never certain of anything in my life. Don't get me wrong - I will probably visit it to check it out first, but I don't think it will ever change my decision. Heart, intuition, call it what you want, but I have to get here. It's my first real big dream in my life. @mandyjw Yeah, it's that magic, that I'm looking for! @UDT Thank you man @AlphaAbundance As I already replied to @Yarco - I will visit it first for sure, but I don't really think it will change my decision in any way.

@vibv I don't give a damn - meaning - I want to live in NYC, end of story, if it will cost me million dollars, I'm still ok with that, it's the only dream I have right now and the only thing keeping me alive, so..

Sooooooooooooooooo It's like the highest level I ever achieved with my life I think in regards to life in general. I'm pretty smart guy, I'm intelligent, whatever, and it's like a state that went back to me after years of fucking around and doing stupid, random shit with my life, that was all just a way to cut off that feeling looks like lol. I've been into psychology, philosophy and all of that stuff already when I was pretty fucking young, like 14-15 maybe and I found out then that it's all fucking nonsense and it all has no sense whatsoever. Then my IQ and life wisdom somehow dropped, or I made it to drop a lot by drinking, smoking weed, cigarretes, playing games etc. Now I got my shit back together, I eat well, exercise, work, etc AND HERE WE GO AGAIN IT'S ALL NONSESNE. Don't get me wrong - I work a lot, I do a lot of things, I keep it positive, I'm a good person, etc. By it's all so fucking nihilistic. I try my best, trust me on that, I work as a motherfucking mule, learn a lot, etc. Yet - let's be fucking honest - world is nonsense, people are fucked up animals, everything is fucked, everyone is fucked lol. Yuuuuuuuuuuuuuk

@seeking_brilliance I don't give a damn

@kbone Yes, I am working on that just right now. I tried to visualised, that I live in NYC right now and how I would feel there. Strong sense of being here and now arose from that, I was observing every detail, I was very aware of everything and everything around me seemed more valuable. I will train that feeling more and more eveyday (to feel better and be more in NOW, and also - feeling gets you in the direction of geting what you want, so, it's a win-win)

Ok, quick update. I found something that REALLY excites me and gives me tears. Moving to NYC. Fuck everything else. I want to move to USA, right now. I have no idea how to do it, but I have to and I will do it. FUUARKKK

I'm from Poland, you should really try it if you want to play the game on the highest difficulty level (it's not Nightmare mode like Korea, Iran, Africa or something, but still - pretty fucking hard imo). I dream about moving to USA one day.

@Origins Damn dude, that's poetry right there. I am getting there, as I said, I currently work on getting into I AM state permamently. @kbone There was a rude awakening at one moment and now I'm constantly removing "bad" things from my life, one after the other after the other, day after day. It's not painful, it's smooth and gentle, awakenings are emotional, they bring tears, releases are coming and going. About trying to get to the state of doing things, it's paradoxical, because to get into that state, I first have to let go of control and it just gets me. I said it's curative because it makes my see my character from distance more and more and to change my image, where before my mind was playing tricks on me, looking for excuses for every negative behaviour.

@Origins Yeah, just today I realized I might be just addicted to playing video games, I mean - I knew that before, I wasted to much time for that shit, but it took a personality shift and changing self-beliefs and self-worth issues to finally break that free. All of the solutions will not help you if you will not collect enough "karma", enough "xp" to level up, and I needed that to get to the next "chapter". Funny that life really works that way, you can call it "rewiring", self-worth, etc, but the reality is just a game and you need to do what you feel is right every day, grind and then you change and your reality changes too.

@kbone Yeah, I thought it will be faster, but it took almost a year and it's not over yet, I mean dark night of the soul and spiritual awakening now (the rebirth part). I'm totally cut off the "Matrix", meaning - the society (my old self was glorifying rappers, watching porn and Twitch. gamers streams, smoking cigarettes, weed, playing video games, and all of these patterns and addictions seem to go away on after the other). I was making myself busy all the time, but it was all very curative and needed. My spiritual awakening was connected to almost a psychosis experience and it triggered PTSD, I got psychopath (a "friend") and whore (a girl) Christ-style treatment (Juda and Mary Magdalene, hello there) to finally wake me up, that was really something. Being busy pulled me away from all of the negative thoughts, purified anger, healed emotions in my body, etc, I really needed that to get off the thinking. I do more and more every day to get into I AM state permanently. About realizing Oneness - IDK how is that different from I AM / flow state, never experienced it, but I think being in a flow is curative and for sure a good thing. I love when somebody triggers something in me, if you break my ego and make me angry, that will for sure motivate me to work harder.

@kbone I have no idea, are there people in the world that just live life, not thinking about all of these things, do not get worried, do not get anxious, etc? These "dumb" people are just living life day to day not thinking about anything and they seem to be happy, I tried that, I deluded myself for years believing in society bullshit, and aye here we go again. I do a lot, I follow Joe Rogan's advice (to basically do stuff all the time) and it's better. @lmfao Yeah, I worked my ass off and improved myself to get to a moment, when I can honestly say to myself "Ok, I'm happy with myself, I have my purpose, I have my shit together" and I think I did all of that. I think it's time to find a girlfriend but I don't want "some girlfriend" and it makes it fucking difficult to do. Never been in love, my standards are pretty high, and finding "the one" is not that simple as I thought it will be

@neutralempty What do you mean then? @fridjonk What are the green stuff that you are mentioning here? You might be right with what you are saying, yet, life doesn't really give a fuck and I am forced to focus on the financial aspect of my life and everyday duties, I'm kinda late to the party with this aspect of life. @Nahm I don't really understand you on this one bro

@PurpleTree People are egotistic, fucked up creatures mostly, not judging, that's just the truth, sadly. I do appreciate things in my life, I practice gratitude, I am as happy as I've ever been, for real. I'm not interested in low-consciousness stuff like fast pleasures (coke and hookers) either. It's just life is so empty, it's paradoxical, but that's how it is and will always be.

@Nahm Yeah, I'm doing that everyday, I never hustled so hard in my life, Jocko Willink and Goggins can smd