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Reall friends stick with you and accept you.These friends you are calling friends maybe they are shit.This process makes an isolation, stick with to the path and real friends and partners will appear in your life.I lost all of my old friends but they were not real friends do not worry you should be happy because life removes people that are not real.If you find your nature you will be completely independent from everyone and everything.Discover your inner self and your problems will disappear.

If you smoke too much cannabis you will have a psychotic episode.If you chose to smoke after 18 stay always away from the skunk strains.If you will be a regular user you would not be able to meditate don't get traped in the delusion you are doing meditation...I was so much in love with this plant i tried everything...I just cant continue smoke this fucking shit....If you stay away from cannabis in your later years after a lot of real meditation you will be able to handle a lsd trip.Don't forget that everyone can have a psychotic episode with psychedelics furthermore i want to advice you not seeking the ego death...i am advanced in my development and i am not sure if i can handle it.If everythink goes right and you are lucky you will experience the paradise but the bigger possibility is that you will not be able to handle it and you will freak out because you will experience death in other words you will experience hell.So i advice you to stay away from weed at least for two more years(if you can remove it from your life you can smoke every 3 months for example and not in your house)as for lsd it will appear in your life when it is the right time.Make sure you do not smoke weed the previous 10 days.People here claim you have to be 21 so i cannot give you another advice i have no experience.For sure i do not suggest taking psychedelics before your brain is fully developed.But you know...in the end you will do whatever you like.

Do not smoke weed either.I was smoking weed in your age and i had brain problems in my later years.Maybe the psychotic behaviour is caused beacause your brain is still in development wait at least till 18 if you want to smoke.It is not a good habit it will destroy you if you abuse it like me.It may even create a psychotic episode.You are too young man you have to understand how many years are waiting you... be patient you have tons of years experiencing new experiences don't waste them all before 20 years old.I took first time lsd before some months i am 23 and i understand that i am very young.Just meditate man and try to stay away from weed because with weed you can not have clear and sharp mind!!!Brain is the most precious organ in your body.It can fix everything alse, don't destroy it with drugs.Everything will happen in the right time.Be careful i love you <3

thats interesting.I had a forced nirvana enlightenment experience.I was in paradise...i saw the truth the love the freedom.But after two years i was fucked i was ready to suicide.So much pain in my heart.Is it attacks or is it just the + and - in life?

That's really sad.But you know...at this point you feel nobody understands you.Suicide is a part in human nature.I believe he tried it.I also believe parents are responsible for that, in every circumstance a young individual commits suicide the parents are responsible.I believe parents are responsible for your 'normal' suffering too.Fuck people that become parents without real self development.In the forum there is so much pain...this is what forces us to change, if we were 'happy' we would not try.The only thing that matters is to stay alive.Its ok to feel pain to become sick but everything can be reversed if you are alive.If you trully believe you can change the situation everything is possible.I wish nobody feel the destructive pain of suicide.Pain can be destructive for the body or for the ego(which is the opossite)

We experience hell right now.We can experience paradise too, but is a big and difficult journey, a rare accomplishment!

I had insane results just by being comfortable.I don't know if they could be more, if I was meditating in "right" postures.

After scary experiences i would suggest to stay low dose.You may panic if you take 200 before the trip even start.I would suggest make it in the house, wait 3-4 more trips before you do it alone in the forest, you will be more experienced then.And if you have the oportunity with an empty house stay there.The forest is always there if your parents are an obstacle to trip whenever you like.

I had a similar experience with Lsd.I just called a friend and not my parents (they would have fucked me in the ass and destroy the trip if they learn I took psychedelics)Your brother was enough I believe.I had take 2 blotters and I was thinking I will suicide or become crazy but when the trip kicked in it was great.These substances are really powerful.Προσεχε

As long you do not suicide is OK.These feelings exist to teach you something.Observe the mechanism of the ego.It is the ego that make you feel that way.Accept everything that happens and feels.Try to isolate yourself from your family if this is possible.When you are getting angry with others your subconscious wins and you are out off control you can not be conscious of your feelings.Its challenging when you live with your family, you can reach a state that you are peaceful though.It is very early to change your feelings 2 weeks is not a lot of time.Continue and you will see results in a month from now maybe 2 or 3 it depends.Keep fighting I wish you the best!!!

It happened again today more powerful and it frightened my ego.i perceived it for 10-15 second and everything was in English hahaha not in my language.

How awesome it would be if you become enlightened in your sleep?I mention this because i had a great and insightfull trip with lsd and after a lot of hours of not sleeping when i finally fell asleep i had a weird experience i almost saw that i do not exist it lasted for some seconds it came first a little bit and after it became stronger i think the intense was for 4 second and 4 the light i felt like air somehow.It wasn't very intense but i really felt it and remember it today.How awesome it would be becoming conscious forever during your sleep?xaxaxa I guess it is possible what do you think?When i had my non drugs enlightenment experience that mainly lasted four days i remember that in my sleep wisdom was working and growing and i was aware of my thoughts even during night sleep.Every morning day by day these four days i was waking from the bed with way more powerful enlightenment characteristics.

I am new to psychedelics.They put me back in the game man.They give you insights that you never imagined you were able to understand at this state just with a pill.The problem is after the trip most of them fade away but for sure something stays and helps.New questions after the trip are coming too.Its a nice tool.Plus as Leo have said normal use does not mess your brain you are able to meditate again the next day as far as my experience with lsd.

There are traumas from your childhood.You can only work with yourself.As you are becoming more aware you will feel power to achieve everything and take full responsibility of your life.The power is within not outside.Fighting outside is a sign that you are a fighter and its the same just you reverse the battle inside you.

We want a tantric sex guide.It is difficult you need a partner to try it i know but it would be great if you add this topic to your videos just in case someday we may find a spiritual partner!!!

OK I got some question about enlightenment.The first one is if enlightened people judge.I am sure enlightened masters don't judge but is it the same with a normal enlightened person?A normal enlightened person does it have internal dialog of thoughts?If you are "basically" enlightened and they give you drugs that lowers you consciousness with regular use like cocaine heroine meth or strong psychotherapy medication can you become egoic again and forget the wisdom you gained?If you had the first permanent enlightenment can psychedelics may help you go deeper and upgrade to the next enlightened level?Does physical pain feels bad for them?We are not enlightened and we can't answer them all but I want your opinion!

I am sure both of them can give you understanding of the self.

We judge the whole time guys.This keeps alive the ego and makes us suffer.You need to be mindful, to watch your thoughts and feelings and oppress the judgement by focus in your external senses.It is difficult it takes time and other stuff that have to be the right time.Keep working it takes at least one year of work it works as Leo said like the snowball effect!!!I judge every 5-10 seconds unconsciously and we all suffer unconsciously too!!!

That is nice.If you want more easy insights you have the psychedelic weapons.I recently tried them and they do serious job during the trip.They also boost creativity and changed me a bit in a good manner to better in everyday life!!!

That's where I want to go.Osho was like that.These people I consider enlightened, they leave in constant nirvana-ecstasy everything is new and art for them with super sharp senses they do not exist and you can't harm them.There is infinite progress.What do you think comes after this state If the enlightenment journey continue further?Are there reasons to continue?Because you are already in heaven!If you achieve these high states are you special?Special is egoistic you understand how I mean it!

You mean enlightened people right?Or just too much practice from a master?Your mindfulness meditation technique is a blessing for being conscious!!

Allright yesterday i decided to take two blotters.It was the first time i was taking two in the same time.I drunk them and i am starting going insane nothing was able to relax me i was panicked so i picked the phone and called my buddy it was 3 in the night and i had 20 minutes before the drugs kick in.I was in panic as i was waited him so i decided to sit in my couch and try to relax.It was the time that just started to be intense and it was great xaxa.He came and after a while i went to my room he stayed in another room to continue sleeping.I started tripping alone i was watching incredible colours, the music had structure and colour every sense was one (touch, music,colors)after a while i was in complete darkness with my eyes open.And i experienced a small part of the fucking infinite.Whaaaat the fuck man, that small piece i was observing was infinite so many layers everything was in layers in infinite layers chaos.It was like in the middle of an fractal world, (you know the pictures of fractals that are chaotic and infinite).And i want to ask the more experienced users.What the fuck was that shit?It was just a thought?It was another dimension?What am i in that hole chaos?I experienced that i was something worthy in this infinite chaos but i don't know what i am!want to mention that lsd have boosted my creativity like a rocket.I started painting after the use(i use to create art through photography) and I was obsessed after the peak finishing my colorful spiral oil paint on canvas.It was hedonic.As I was watching my painting I understood that there was infinite ways to perceive the artwork everytime I was watching the spiral it was different every person perceives it in different ways and there are infinite ways to be perceived.It wasn't only the infinite that I grasped in this trip I understood a lot of things about art too.I experienced the significance of freedom(ΕΛΕΥΘΕΡΙΑ) in human nature.We just want to be free.I also felt the infinity in the sound through high audio quality system and files.But I grasp almost nothing from these important experiences right now, it is really paradoxical that inside the hallucinations you are getting in touch with existence-reality.Also I tried to write what I was experiencing and I understood how limited the language is in comparison with the experience, but also felt the power of the words and language.Acid rocks guys I can't wait to try dmt mescaline and salvia.My previous trips was way worse experiences I had weird feelings with myself.This was my 3rd strong trip and the strongest!

Βy telling object you include everything?even a thought is a form of reality?

Thanks.I guess it is around 160 micrograms because with one blotter i have not visuals.There was times i was re-experiencing this infinity with sound for example.I was listening to Vangelis this guy is like the god of music.It was such a great experience!!!It was completely different from my previous experiences with lsd!