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    1g is too small for a first dose. It'd be like wanting to see what a beer buzz is like and only drinking 3 sips.  :D  I'd go 2.5g for a first trip. Shallow enough that you're still you, but with enough depth that you'll see what they are like. 

    You can eat the mushrooms, but I also like the lemon-tek method. I just grind my mushrooms in a coffee grinder until they are a powder, then put it in a cup along with an ounce or so of lemon juice, add enough water to get it liquidy, let it sit for 20 mins and then chug it. 

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    Geez, this stuff WORKS. 

    Took my first dose on Saturday, which was half of a regular modafinil tablet. What I really enjoyed about it was not being able to tell that I had taken anything until I actually sat down to meditate. I was afraid that I would have other mental symptoms to deal with, but I didn't have any that I noticed. My heart rate was increased a little bit I noticed, but nothing terribly unusual.

    Anyway, so the focus. I sat down to meditate a couple hours after taking it, and in roughly 30 seconds I realized that it was going to be a damn good sit. Strong attention on the breath was so effortless. Like never before.

    Noticing and dissecting out the breath into its component sensations was something I had been getting into, but this was like using the best microscope and scalpel available to science. At about 40 minutes, I realized that I had never seen a real nimitta before, because one developed right before my eyes. Sort of a gold and brightly shimmering hoop of light. It was something I had never seen in my life that I remember, but I knew exactly what it was. It stayed for about 2 minutes, until I started to focus on it a little too much and it went away. 

    Could be my ego coming up with this, but I think I was fairly close to being able to do this on my own, but the modafinil gave me that extra push. Like it shows you what's around the corner for you in your practice if you keep the momentum up. I plan on taking half a tablet a couple times a week, on days where I can spend a few hours meditating. Anyway, if you're on the fence about this drug, I was too but I'm glad I got some. It definitely lives up to the hype. Thanks Leo, for the work and the passion. I've stood on your shoulders a number of times in developing and furthering my practice. I'm in debt to you. Happy 2019 to everyone.   

     

     

  14. Posted

    Unless you live in downtown Detroit or some other violent place, I think it sounds like you're hyper-focused on physical encounters. Where does it come from? Do you watch violent movies or TV shows? Do you play violent video games? You fantasize about fighting for a reason, and you need to find out the reason and then change that aspect(s) of your life. You're unconsciously fanning the very flames that you want extinguished. I used to be like that.....almost exactly how you describe. I don't know if it'll work for you, but my first couple psychedelic trips changed my mind in regard to that issue. I did an absolute 180 turn.

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    @Jordan94   I understand what you're saying. I've done a few things in the past to ramp up the psychological suffering. Before doing my sit, I've put pieces of tape on my face, neck and arms. I've stuffed dry leaves down my shirt. I've put sharp thistle underneath each hand where they rest on my knees. I've put hard objects underneath my butt before I sit. I don't do it much at all anymore. 

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    Sit, close your eyes and focus on your breath. Feel it at the tip of your nose as it comes in. Feel it as it goes out. Notice little things about it, like how it's cooler during the inhale than the exhale. A thought about breakfast comes into your mind....greet the thought silently (hello Mr. Thought!) and then go back to noticing your breath. Try not to control your breath or make it be deeper, etc. Just notice how you can feel the rush of fresh air as it comes into your nostrils. Innnnn and ouuuuut. A motorcycle passes outside and you wonder if it needs a new muffler. You think about a motorcycle that you used to have and wonder if someone still rides it. Oops, you're supposed to be meditating! Congratulate yourself silently for remembering the task at hand as you again go back to your breath. Notice the period of no-breath that lives between the time you exhale and inhale a new breath. Innnn and ouuuut you go, noticing everything about the breath, become fixed on it. Ride along with your breath, like a cork floating on a gently rising and falling sea. You remember that you need to text your brother to see if he can help you move the couch next week. He has that new girlfriend that you don't really care for....what was her name? Gina? Tina? Oh shit, you're meditating! Give yourself a mental high five for remembering and get back to noticing the breath again. Do this until the timer sounds.   See how it works?

    :D There! That's the basic breath-focus technique. It will build concentration and focus. 

    Vipassana does use the breath as its anchor, but it stays with the distraction (breakfast, the motorcycle, your brother and Gina, etc) longer and actually focuses on it for a few seconds or until it stops being at the front of your mind, then you'd go back to the breath afterward. Some people in vipassana put a mental label on the thing that took them away from their breath. Labels like "thinking" or "hearing." There are plenty of YouTube vids on that technique, but I've talked enough for now.