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Holy shit, trapped wind sometimes turns into tornados. Yeah, that might make me break my pose......

I've only done a little over an hour as my max, but it's such an unusual feeling to sit there and notice a burp or a fart as it presents itself and wants out. Not being allowed to willfully contract any muscles means you just have to let them rise and fall, only to bubble up again in a few minutes. It's not uncomfortable, but it's a foreign thing to not give them the usual and almost instinctual help in coming out. Aside from being polite in public and holding it in for a few minutes, I can't say that I have ever experienced the long-term sensation. If they get enough power behind them, they'll come out little by little, without contracting any muscles, but it's a very odd phenomenon when you're simply observing and not participating. Kind of uncouth to talk about, but it's real.

@NoSelfSelf Yes, that's what I mean. When it's harnessed, there's almost limitless potential for growth. But until there's a pill that reliably induces LDs, it's hard to harness.

@student Man, that was a good post. Helped me a good bit.

Aside from a little chicken, I've been doing vegetarian for a month, and I really do feel better. My poops are more solid, which is good.

Darn right. Purge that shit out.

Very few know or care about the origins of Freemasonry. 90%+ are in it just for the social and comradery aspects. I was a FM for a few years. The history, traditions, ceremonies and floorwork are interesting.

@cirkussmile Thank you. I also learned quickly to not chug water beforehand, which gets a lot of air in my stomach. I now drink very intentionally before, being mindful to not swallow air along with the water. Or....just don't drink before I sit.

@Paan I only just got the book, so I haven't really started the practice yet, but a few pages back in this thread, some folks were talking about backing their kriya time down, as it was getting far too intense. I'm sure it varies by person, though. Fascinating stuff, and I'm looking forward to getting some good reading done this weekend so I can sit my butt down and jump into it!!!

There is such huge value in letting go. Little by little it's happening for me, and it's liberating. I'm looking forward to seeing just how much gets let go in this process. You are fine, man. :-)

Wow, I just watched the second half of Leo's video on the importance of real yoga, and to say that he endorsed it is putting it verrrry mildly. I only watched the first half a while back and then got to researching kriya elsewhere. Not that it was boring, man, I'm just jumpy like that when I get extra curious. Anyway yeah, great to know it comes so highly urged.

Edit: I should have watched Leo's Kriya video all the way through the first time around, totally answered every question in this post in the second half of his video.

@Sirius So I have to ask then.....if you know that doing good things helps you feel better, why aren't you out running or doing the things that make you feel better? If going for a run grounds you, why not get out there and show Gump how it's done? Anything to give you an anchor until this storm blows by. Even if you don't feel like doing it, do it. An excerpt from an excellent poem called Desiderata: But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

@starsofclay Thank you, no I haven't read a word about lucid dreaming since I bought Stephen LaBerge's book back in 1996 or something. I always knew there was a huge potential in it as far as a person's psychology goes, but I never pursued it. I may check out the book you suggested. You know something funny? Just reliving/relaying my dream, and talking to you guys like this will hugely increase my chances of having one tonight. It's always worked that way for me.

@NoSelfSelf I've had lucid dreams since I was a kid, unaware that not everyone had them. I haven't had a prolonged one in quite a while, though. Yes, if I'm understanding your question, you can accrue lucid dream memories just as you accrue waking memories. For example, I remember a conversation that I had with a little old woman who was sitting at an outdoor kiosk food cart of some sort on a sunny day with lots of people walking around shopping and such. I asked her about the food she was eating, and then about her life. She didn't speak English very well, but I got the gist of what she was trying to convey. I remember her weathered brown face, her shy smile and her openness. That dream was ~25 years ago. That one was especially memorable, because I would normally, upon becoming lucid, immediately jump into doing impossible or off-limits things like flying, running around squeezing the breasts of every woman in a crowd, punching my perceived enemies, and other things that most young men would like to do in real life, but on a whim that night, I decided to just sit down and talk to someone who looked kind and interesting to me, knowing full well that she and everything I was experiencing was imaginary. I remember deciding as I sat and talked with her not to tell her that she was just a part of my fantasy. It didn't occur to me then, but now I wonder if she was the one with the secret. There are many other memories from lucid dreams I've had, but that one is my favorite. I'm not sure if I even answered the question you were asking, but thanks for listening.

Yes! I had the same thing happen yesterday, and it has happened to me my whole life. Details of forgotten dreams jump out at me, at seemingly random times. You're not alone.

Those glimpses act as catalysts for me and my determination to keep going on the quest to find out what's actually happening behind the curtain. I'm happy you had that experience.

Thank you!!! I haven't been this motivated about anything in my whole life. It's a good feeling, but I want to direct it in the right ways.

@Salvijus It's a Vipassana meditation retreat. Really looking forward to it! It'll be a challenge for me.

Damn, I'm sorry you're hurting so much. You're not crazy, and it's impossible to make some people (even awesome people that we highly esteem) understand the things going on in our minds. That can be frustrating as hell, but realize that wanting someone else's validation isn't being quite true to yourself and your beliefs. I do it too, so don't be hard on yourself. If you haven't tried meditation, it will help you sort your mind out a lot. Make it something that you do every day, not just when you think you need it. Find something healthy that you can do TODAY that improves your mood even one iota, and DO it. Go walk for 45 mins. Buy lunch anonymously for the dude behind you in the drive-thru. Anything. Enjoy feeling happy that you performed an act of kindness to yourself or someone else. Do the same thing tomorrow. This is a game of increments. Today is a beautiful thing, so do something good for yourself. You're fucking worth it, man.

@Erlend K I do have a 7-day silent meditation retreat (my first one) scheduled next month, and it's workable for me to do another retreat later in the year, but at this point I don't feel capable of taking more than 7-10 days off at a time while still being able to maintain my career at its current level. I'm open to the possibility of looking at my career in a less serious way as time goes on, though. I don't feel the same now as I did a year ago, so I can't say how I'll feel in a year's time. I'm open to change.

@Vytas Yep, feels like I'm getting the hang of it. I survived some hornyass days in there, so I'm sure I can do it again!

Haven't checked in for a while, but I'm still going strong. Thankfully my crazy horniness has waned into a much more manageable tension. I'm not thinking about whackin' off all the time now, which is great. Shit, it was tough for a while, and maybe it'll come back, but for now I'm cruising.

I've been on edge for the past 2 days....anxious, thought loops, grumpy, and just feeling bad because of it all. I was trying to figure out why, and it occurred to me that the only thing I've changed in my life recently has been giving up masturbating a couple weeks ago, and I don't currently have a girlfriend, so no intercourse. Do you think it's possible that it's behind my mood? I'd have to rewind my life 20 years to find another time where I went 2 weeks without a sexual release, so it's kind of an uncharted area. I'm finding it hard to not touch myself after I lay down at night. It's almost like torture to masturbate and stop myself before it's too late, but I've done that a couple times. I don't think that's a long-term strategy for success or peace of mind, though. Normal stuff for this stage of no-fap?? Edited to add: I've noticed that my concentration/attention hasn't been very good during my morning meditations, too. Another thing attributed to the stage I'm at with no-fap?

I'm bumping this thread just to see if there are any other opinions of this guy and whether or not he's teaching the real thing. I've watched a couple of his other videos on Kriya philosophy and I can tell for sure that his heart is in it, but that's not everything. I don't know enough about it right now to tell whether or not that's all he has going for him.