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Start reading and don't complicate it too much I read in bed a lot

Dhamma Vipassana 10-day courses. Look into one in your area. dhamma.org

Small steps. You don't have to change all at once. Do something small to improve every day.

I'm so sorry. I'm not a mental health professional so I don't have any medical advice but it may help to rest, watch movies or shows you like, maybe be outside and get some fresh air and exercise if you feel up for it. Message me if you need more support <3

Most of us have anchors of sorts that make us feel OK about life. You will eventually (if you choose) release these particular ones and move onto other reality-coping mechanisms. It's not necessarily "bad" to have these. It's good to recognize that you are doing it. Truth is scary because it shows us there's nothing to hold on to. We can't really accept that as humans so we have these anchors.

Thank you divine masculine for all your beautiful gifts

So everyone knows, in most cases it takes more than psychedelics to heal attachment wounds. More often what happens is the psychedelic will show the way and what is possible and the individual then does the work from there. Some psychedelics do heal like a medicine, particularly when used with trained facilitators. But it’s not like you drop mushrooms and automatically heal

You can google the effects of those meds with different psychedelics, but my advice is to give the psychedelics a little rest while you settle back into reality.

Possibly (and this is just a guess), the meditation is bringing your shyness to the surface in order for it to be released. But meditation alone won't solve the shyness, you gotta get out there and socialize, I believe in you!

If you feel so inclined, I wanted to suggest a book to you: Dear Lover by David Deida. It doesn't deal specifically with commitment but it will help you understand the mind of a man in relationship. Very enlightening.

I would say there are many of us here who have awoken, however the degrees to which we have probably varies.

The universe is showing you what is possible! There will be plenty more and better opportunities.

A good rule of thumb is to look for simplicity and minimal ingredients. I really try to avoid the ingredient "fragrance" as it can be irritating (scents from essential oils are better). Vegetable glycerin, coconut or palm oil and sodium hydroxide are good. Dr. Bronner's or a generic of that is a nice choice. It can be hard to find good bar soap in regular stores but natural grocery stores and farmers markets tend to have better options.

I'm like "aw he's nervous, that's sweet" and then already I feel like I'm more experienced/higher than him. The old me would have been like "guess I'm going to be the one taking control here" but now I just let things fade away because a man who's that afraid won't be leading us anywhere very deep and that's not my place.

I think it's great. Thank god, in fact. We need more men knowing this stuff. Tired of guys being scared of me.

Life’s a trip!

@Thought Art what is your life purpose?

It is! Science can be very awe-inspiring.

Awesome. Care to share what it was like?

Do what you love, whether it’s Quigong or art. Explore both, you don’t need to tie yourself down.

Already on my calendar

My advice is to create something that is all your own. Good job making something, keep it up.

It's always tough when people close to you are suicidal because you think "if I don't do the right thing, they're dead". Reading this I can tell you care a lot about your dad and are really distressed over this. He is lucky to have you. Yes this is all love, AND you have human things to deal with so no need to try and bypass this by saying those things. It's OK to feel that this is hard, it's OK to feel fear and confusion. I don't know what you should do, I just wanted to offer you some support.

Yes!! Happening now

I would say, live up to your values and you will attract people doing the same