Leo Gura

Sounds like you care too much what other people think of you. What does it matter what your facial expressions are when you are tripping?? A lot weirder shit is gonna happen than that. You should be focused on contemplating the nature of reality, not how you look.

@Fountainbleu No one can answer that for you. You have a unique situation which is part of your unique spiritual path. There's no reason to assume that becoming more aware of the Truth will harm you physically. Although any serious spiritual path will churn up psychological trauma and emotional baggage, which can be stressful and painful to deal with, regardless of who you are or what your health. If you sustained brain injury, I highly recommend you research and start doing neurofeedback brain training. See the book about brain training in my book list in the Brain category. It might revolutionize your life. Neurofeedback brain training is especially effective for brain injury. I also highly recommend you visit Dr Amen's brain clinics. He's an expert in reversing brain injury. They can do advanced scans of your brain and tell you what the problem areas and how to train to fix them. https://www.amenclinics.com Brain injury is something to take very seriously, and it's worth investing your time and money to fix it. The great thing about the brain is that it can be healed and repaired remarkably well. Neurofeedback brain training can bring a brain out of a coma.

Back to the self-inquiry salt mines!

@completegraph Your dose was too high. Drop it down to 20mg. The point is to become conscious of the truth, not to barely recollect it after the fact.

Nope. There's an odd sensation for about 20 minutes which goes away and seems to be harmless. Certainly less burn than sorting it. Nope

Nothing odd about it at all. It's simple and effective. Medicine is commonly taken up the butt. It's smooth, gentle, and consistent. It's hard to screw it up, compared to vaping or snorting. You'd want some experience with easier psychedelics first, and at low doses. The longer and smoother the trip, the better. The whole point here is understanding, contemplation, and integration. A 5 minute blast into hyperscape is just not going to integrate well. If there was a way to make 5-MeO last 10 hours, that would be the ideal. Also, you want to minimize the potential for bad trips and trauma. Blasting your brain with smoked 5-MeO isn't ideal. Rectal doses are still extremely potent and deep, beyond what most people can handle.

@Vladimir You are misunderstanding enlightenment. All fear is illusion. You will realize this after you die. You are still clinging to "not suffering". But there can only be suffering so long as you're a you. It's like you're shooting yourself in the foot. A great relief comes when you realize you never existed as a human. Maybe use a psychedelic to get this fear out of your system. Psychedelics are great at pushing you into ego-death. The only way to conquer this fear of death is to face it head-on and actually die (without harming your body). There can be on enlightenment without conquering the fear of death. That is literally what enlightenment is. So start facing up to it as soon as possible. And while you're at it, surrender yourself to the fact that you -- as God -- may indeed experienced every bit of suffering in the entire universe. Along with all the joy. And be okay with that. That is maturity. Let that humble you. You cannot be enlightened while fearing suffering/pain and only wanting joy -- that would be unenlightenment/ the survival paradigm.

@Sukhpaal What if, what if... and what if you get run over by a bus tomorrow? So what? There are no guarantees in life. You just do the best you can. If you care about it so much, put your money where your mouth is and make it happen. And it will happen. Sounds like what you're more afraid of is doing the actual work, thus all this distraction. What you're really afraid of is not unenlightenment, but enlightenment!

Only an unenlightened person would write what Nietzsche wrote. It's quite obvious once you experience a deep enlightenment.

@grrmz Maybe part of your path is to burn through some karma with this love interest? Get it out of your system and learn your lesson. Craving and temptation will arise over and over again on any spiritual path.

Labeling does not enforce any hierarchy. Every sensation stands on its own. All that labeling does is help you discriminate between different kinds of sensations. The labels don't even have an "inner" or "outer" component. Because of course inner/outer is a false duality. When we say inner sights vs outer sights, that's just for convenience, to help you focus on certain domain of sensations like those comprising your mind vs those comprising the "external world". Of course all these dualities will ultimately collapse. The labels are just a pragmatic aid for mindfulness practice. Don't confuse them with being a metaphysical description of reality.

Not even close.

I would like to make a correction. I found out yesterday that my scale was weighing the 5-MeO-DMT wrong. An effective rectal dose isn't 10mg, but more like 20mg. 20mg gives me a pretty deep trip. 24mg is Absolute Infinity for me. Also I learned that 5-MeO-DMT is apparently legal to purchase in Canada. Hooray for Canada! There is also an analogue called 5-MeO-MET which is supposed to be very similar to 5-MeO-DMT, although I have not verified this yet myself. There is also 5-MeO-DALT, which I know even less about, but might be an interesting alternative. My current experience says that 5-MeO-DMT is hands down the best psychedelic for nonduality work. It just blows everything else out of the water. If you can access it, it's really the only one you need. Its clarity is unrivaled. Other psychedelics can be profound and interesting, but 5-MeO-DMT is pure awakening. I have experienced levels of awakening on it so deep that I seriously doubt most enlightenment teachers have accessed such levels of awakening. At these levels, you just become God itself to the point where you cannot even understand how you ever believed you were a human being or that you were even born into the 21th century. I awoken so deep on it I forgot I was born. I forgot there was a past or future. Rectal method is by far the best way to take 5-MeO-DMT. And the sad part is, almost nobody knows about it.

A) You're free to date whoever you want, however you want. How you relate to people is almost entirely dependent on your level of consciousness. B) Stage Green is a certain level of consciousness. You will have to surrender some ego to move into Stage Green. Then you will realize Green is a step above Orange but still has limitations. So you will have to surrender some more ego to move into Yellow. And so on. If you're demonizing any of the stages, you're missing the point, and you certainly will have to drop those demonizations and judgments to evolve to higher stages. Watch out about getting tribal or ideological about all these groups: men, women, academics, postmodernists, feminists, PUAs, liberal, conservative, etc. All of those groups are trap. C) Be careful with over-identifying with Stage Green as you might see it on TV, etc. The key is to read the level's description in the Spiral Dynamics diagrams, and then ask yourself, "Okay, what do I need to do to embody that?" Moving up Spiral Dynamics is not about joining a group or a movement. It's about becoming personally more conscious. Whatever other people are doing, just ignore it and focus on setting your own consciousness straight.

What your ego interprets as anti-male and anti-free speech is really just compassion and concern for beings and perspectives beyond your own. Which to you looks anti-male because the only way you know how to be a male is by grabbing at things in a crude way. Start noticing that your perspective is just one perspective, and that your male agenda is just one agenda. How would you interact with the opposite sex if you actually cared about her well-being? If she wasn't just a means to an end for you? Rather than looking at the world through the lens of: How do I evolve MYSELF? How do I get my male agenda satisfied? Try looking at the world through the lens of: We're all one community, how do I participate in this community in a caring manner? How can I authentically love all people more? How would I act if I didn't see males/females at all, but just people? See, the problem with the pickup paradigm is that it's too much about getting YOUR needs met. That's because people get into pickup for that reason: they are very NEEDY, regardless of how successful or confident they appear on the surface. The most successful PUAs are still extremely needy. Their entire life revolves around getting their needs satisfied. And there's nothing wrong with that, but it's a low level of consciousness. If you are needy, that's okay. That's where you're at. Be honest about your neediness. Don't try to sugarcoat it with stories of consciousness and evolution and being alpha.

Well, the key to waking up on time is going to sleep on time. If you're up way late, and you want to wake up early on 4 hours of sleep, it ain't gonna happen unless you have somewhere really important to be, like the airport. You need about 8 hours of sleep per night, so plan accordingly. If you're in your teens or early 20s, you might need 10 hours of sleep or more. It also depends on your diet.

Just set your alarm on the opposite side of the room.

@PT89 You already don't exist. You are just an idea. You were never actually born. The point of awakening is to realize there is no time, no life, no death. You are dead right now. This is what death looks like. See, you have confused Absolute Infinity for life. That's your problem. This cannot possibly be understood until you awaken (die).

@sarapr My parents never got divorced. Careful with your assumptions.

It's not an issue of time, it's an issue of priorities. You haven't convinced yourself yet that meditation is the most important thing you could do all day. If you really understood that, you would commit to it 100% and sacrifice all the other stuff if need be.

@LRyan Well, for example, what transforms a person such as an advanced yogi or Zen master isn't just his enlightenment, but his 20 years of rigorous daily practice which lead to the enlightenment. And even then, many yogis and Zen masters are incomplete in their realization and embodiment. It's very rare that one becomes as enlightened as Jesus or the Buddha. And even rarer that it happens in one shot. Whatever glimpses you've had, they were probably not that deep. The trick is that even a small glimpse will feel mindblowing and deep, which tends to obscure that fact that it's only the tip of the iceberg.

It's the motives behind why you're doing it. Your ego is running you and you don't even realize it yet. You're just acting out karma unconsciously. At least that's what most pickup is. You're welcome to do it. Just stop pretending it's conscious.

You guys can discuss video games on gamer forums, not here.

If you guys want to argue about time, you can do that in another thread. This one is about 5-MeO and it's long enough as it is without such distractions.

Be careful with your projections, worldviews, and arrogance. What you should be concerned with is your own biases. Nothing is necessary. People can live very different lives. There is no right or wrong way to live. Sage yes, philanthropist no. I never said to buy out all YT channels. I said that billionaires like Bill Gates could invest money into making media more conscious. It's great. But opening your heart chakra will not be enough. You must contemplate and investigate what the TRUTH is. I am all for practicing unconditional love. But that has very little chance of awakening you. You must tackle problem from multiple angles. By all means open your heart chakra, but also inquire into what is TRUE and practice meditation, and more.