Leo Gura

My understanding is always evolving and getting refined. I change my mind about stuff on a weekly basis. I could have a whole separate channel on all the ways I change my mind. I need to start keeping a change log, Lol.

@Joseph Maynor The stench of Zenliness is strong with you

I won't be doing it with a shaman. I am my own shaman I don't need a middleman between myself and God. I am still always a bit anxious before doing a hit. Because I understand the power of it and a little anxiety is good, it humbles the ego. You need to respect these powerful substances because they can easily kick your ass if you get too cocky and casual. Respect psychedelics like a loaded gun. That is interesting. I assumed Bufo needs to be vaporized because it is not pure 5-MeO and contains toxins. Not sure if I want to stick those toxins up my butt. During vaporization the bufotenine and toxins are supposed to be burned off. But I'll probably try plugging it just to see what happens. Bufotenine is not a pleasant psychedelic to take. It has high body load and weird physiological effects. It's going to taint the pure 5-MeO experience. I'm just not sure by how much. Maybe by a little, maybe by a lot. My ultimate goal is to compare synthetic and natural versions of 5-MeO to see which one is best for consciousness work.

@cetus56 I wonder if there are Devilfish

Emotions are self-manipulations doing the work of survival. The more conscious you become, the less you will need to rely on them to live life. You can live your life more consciously instead. Emotions are like the strings of the puppet-master's hand controlling the puppet. Resisting feelings is just one more string. Being run by feelings is all the strings. Consciousness is seeing the entire mechanism at work from a detached meta-perspective. No string is good or bad, good and bad are themselves strings invented by the puppet-master to tighten his control over the puppet. And that is my 10,000th post! Hazzah!

@Rilles Stop judging yourself.

Such a door exists. It's called 5-MeO-DMT. The problem is, most ego-minds are too terrified to walk through such a door. They cannot help themselves. Their ignorance is too deep. The best way to hide an amazing thing from everyone is to make it too good to be true. Then no one will bother to try it under the assumption that nothing can really be as good as that. Therein lies the whole tragedy of our situation. We are in heaven but we insist on creating our own hell.

@Scholar No It will be too radical for you to properly integrate. You risk freaking out and abandoning psychedelics altogether from one overwhelming experience. Start small. Don't rush. There is no rush. The field of psychedelic is so wide and deep it will take you many years and hundreds of trips to explore it all. Slow and steady is better than hard and fast when it comes to transforming yourself. Hard and fast changes tend not to stick and produce lots of ego backlash and frustration. Do not dismiss the power of psychedelics like mushrooms or LSD. They are fantastic, magical tools. 5-MeO is just so good that it is in a class all by itself. If God existed in powdered from, it would be 5-MeO-DMT. And luckily it does exist in such a form.

I think you should be fine. Just start with small doses and work up. Frying would only be a thing at very high doses. Plugging is by far the smoothest and safest method. @Antonius Sounds like 1) you have blockages in your body that need to be worked out, 2) you need more experience with 5-MeO and various administration routes, and/or 3) your brain type might be different enough that 5-MeO works differently on you. I get very little body load on 5-MeO. LSD and 2-CB have much worse body load for me. Oh, also make sure your 5-MeO is pure. It should be white-colored. Any other coloration is impurities.

@Aakash I'm not clear what you're asking. Just doing opposite things automatically sounds mechanical and not conscious. The solution is to do things more consciously. Yes, challenging your automatic survival reactions is good. It is harder than merely observing. It's the next step after lots of observing. There is no categorization per se. 99% of all the stuff you do every day are your survival mechanisms. Rather than trying to categorize them, observe them. Categorizing stuff tends to itself be a survival mechanism. Why are you categorizing stuff? To help you do what?

I have been meaning to. But plugging has been so incredibly effective and perfect that nothing more could be wanted. At least that's how it feels inside the trip. Outside the trip my mind can come up with all sorts of other stuff to try. I'm a little wary of smoking because I don't want to blow out my energetic system. Too much 5-MeO too fast does not feel healthy to me. But I am open to smoking it. In fact I will try Bufo soon.

There is only one who in the whole universe. And it is God.

Of course, otherwise you'd be enlightened and we wouldn't be having this conversation. Keep at it. Existence is no small thing to become conscious of. We are talking about ALL OF EXISTENCE here.

Possible, but I wouldn't count on it. Besides which, a person who is so toxic will never allow those negative assumptions to leave the system in the first place.

Identification and survival is an extremely complex and sophisticated mechanism. It's got may layers to it, most of which are of course subconscious. It's a complex tangled mess that takes not just years, but DECADES, to fully understand and deconstruct. It must be this way because your entire life hinges upon it. If it was not this complex and sophisticated you'd be dead a long time ago. Don't get discouraged. Keep slowly untangling that mess. Virtually EVERYTHING your mind and body does, from morning to night is survival. Almost not a single thought crosses your mind which is not related to your survival. You need to take this point very seriously. Really notice it. You must notice how survival dominates your entire life on a second by second basis. And all of that is tied in directly with ego and identification. They are so closely tied that you don't know the difference between yourself and your survival. Every emotional disturbance you experience is survival-in-action. EMOTIONS ARE SURVIVAL! THOUGHTS ARE SURVIVAL! The significance of this cannot be overstated. The solution to it is, you observe it. Like an owl watches a mouse. The more you observe, the freer you become of it, the less it controls you like a puppet.

@mandyjw That's cause you're a cultural Marxist nihilist

His psychology lectures aren't too bad. Still, watch out for how this politics, dualistic metaphysics, and ego infect his psychology.

God is very big! Very, very, very BIG! Lol If you plug it rather than smoke it, the experience will be much, much smoother and gentler. But it will still mindfuck you real good. Conquering your fear is a major part of this whole process. There cannot be deep awakening without facing your deepest fear of death. Awakening is that which lies beyond death. First you die. Then you see God. Then you laugh. P.S. I don't think Bufo can be plugged though. That's one of its downsides. Think of it like going on a big rollercoaster.

It cannot be otherwise. Survival requires identification. The function of identification is to single out what must be survived. If you didn't have an identification you would not be able to tell yourself apart from a chair, and you would not know which of the two is more important to defend and protect. Your entire mind is what you identify with, and what you try to survive. Into this are tied all of your thoughts, beliefs, opinions, attitudes, behaviors, emotions, reactions, knowledge, etc. That entire tangled mess is the self/ego-mind. Its job is to survive at all costs. Which is why changing any part of yourself is so hard. All change is perceived as death and resisted with a vengeance.

In reality these are very complex issues with many possible factors. Of course ego and psychology plays a huge role, but brain health and diet also plays an important role. For example, if your brain is filled with toxic chemicals like lead and mercury, good luck feeling well. You have to research and investigate what your root issues are. Ego is always gonna be a huge factor but there might also be other factors. A lot of mental illness is due to traumatic and terrible childhoods, improper parenting, etc. BTW, I don't consider depression a mental illness. Yes, ego is also closely related to mental illnesses because what happens is that early childhood trauma is not properly dealt with by the ego, which then produces all sorts of dysfunctions. Of course serious mental illnesses can also have physiological factors. It's usually a combination of factors. Don't underestimate how powerful the ego is. It's running your whole life pretty much. It dictates most of your survival strategies and emotional reactions.

No, not 30mg. Less. 20-22mg. Yes, HCl.

@Zega Sounds great, excited to hear your trip report.

If it was no different from sleep, it would be called sleep rather than awakening.

Do whatever you gotta do. It's not my job to address every fool's misgivings on the internet. You need to be wise enough to discern when you are being distracted by fools. Otherwise it will take you 100 years to awaken. There is too much bullshit on the internet to treat it all seriously.

Not everything he says is wrong, but his worldview is generally-speaking so misguided and corrupt you'd be better served just skipping over it. It's not like there aren't 1000 better teachings available. Anyone who would go on PragerU is not to be taken seriously. Find yourself better sources. That's my point. See, it would be a mistake to take a propaganda source seriously, as though it was on the same level as an awakened teaching. This is the mistake of false equivalency. Being openmidned does not mean you let people propagandize you. It takes nuance to be able to discern what is and what isn't propaganda. He is a saavy exploiter of the culture wars. That's why he rose in popularity. Not because he makes good intellectual arguments. Those arguments are egoic justifications. They come from lack of self-awareness. Also, don't confuse popularity with truthfulness or quality. They are usually inversely proportional.