First 10 days of NoFap in the last 10+ years

[Vlad_]

I started watching porn when I was 13 years old and I got hooked right away.
I've been trying to quit porn for the last two years, but I couldn't stay without it for more than 7 days.
Now it's been 10 days and what are the affects?

Confidence.
I never was a shy guy, so I'd say I had a regular confidence.
Now I scare people with it, because it's just way too much, but I really enjoy it. I'm not afraid of talking anybody, moreover for some reasons I don't feel inferior to anybody. it doesn't matter what you do in life, how much money you make, how many women you can get or what kind of a car you drive. When I interact with you I'm just dominating you on the energy level and you feel it. It feels like in any situation I can be a leader and in every interaction with people I'm trying to dominant, but not in a toxic way, it's just natural.

Aggressiveness and Courage.
I subconsciously seek conflicts and I feel like fighting, but I'm good at controlling my impulses so far. I want to get involved in a risky or even life-threatening situations, but again, it's just a feeling and I'm in control.

Women.
I'm totally objectifying them right now. I feel like a lion when I look at them, I see gazelles and I don't see women.
Also I feel some kind of pain and tension in my body when I see hot girls.

Other.
My speech became faster, I have a crazy eye contact. I guess some people think that I'm on drugs or something.
It's been only 10 days! I can't imagine what will happen later

 

 

[Sanguine]

Let's team up? I've managed to get up to a max of 1,5 month. Drop me a dm if you're up for it 

[SonataAllegro]

On 12/15/2022 at 7:04 PM, Vlad_ said:

I see gazelles and I don't see women.

This is it… until you see human beings rather than gazelles you will not be truly  attractive .

[Vlad_]

On 18/12/2022 at 1:20 AM, SonataAllegro said:

This is it… until you see human beings rather than gazelles you will not be truly  attractive .

Actually the opposite is the case, I'm highly attractive person and since you didn't interact with me you have zero authority defining my attractiveness. I might not be attractive for you, but you're not the one on the planet ^^  

Edited December 21, 2022 by Vlad_

[Eyowey]

On 16/12/2022 at 1:04 AM, Vlad_ said:

I see gazelles and I don't see women.

Be careful with that. I used to have this so bad that I rationalized rape as being the same as eating animals. ''I don't ask a pig if I can eat it'' I literally said to myself. This is your lower self. In my case it went away automatically as my self control increased. The thought of women being gazelles will make you cry when you move into your higher self.

[caspex]

Looking for an accountability partner as well. Drop me a dm anyone.

[Vlad_]

On 12/21/2022 at 0:08 AM, Eyowey said:

Be careful with that. I used to have this so bad that I rationalized rape as being the same as eating animals. ''I don't ask a pig if I can eat it'' I literally said to myself. This is your lower self. In my case it went away automatically as my self control increased. The thought of women being gazelles will make you cry when you move into your higher self.

Women are me in the essence, same as everything. I just perceive them in this way as an animal, this body that I'm identified with.

I'm not planning to rape anyone, even though I like rape as god