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Edited February 18, 2022 by Preety_India

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Edited February 18, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I feel tensed, anxious, depressed, tight and just dull in general. 

First step is to get naked. 

 

So the first step is to get naked. 

Then slowly let loose. 

Be yourself 

 

Now you are yourself completely 

 

 

Edited February 18, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Then sit in a forest. Calm yourself down. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

27 minutes ago, Marcel said:

*Holds your cute hand and rubs your back gently 

Enjoys it thoroughly. 

 

[Preety_India]

Time to get naked. 

 

[Preety_India]

When I go deeper and deeper into Loa, I feel a strange sense of empowerment, an emotion I can't describe or put my finger to. It feels like I begin to love myself even more. I feel motivated inside. I feel like I am more attuned to who I actually am. I think the first step to any kind of self therapy or improvement should start with knowing who you really are and then what you really need and want, which is kinda obvious. Yet it is all buried, huddled and swept under heaps of stress, worries, trauma, concerns that don't really matter and other trivial things we don't notice as serving nothing but distraction from the true self. Now is the time to take action, or else when? If you didn't live your life on your own terms, what good is this life for anyway? 

When I read these words, I could almost breakdown in tears, because why didn't the self matter above all? Why was the self taken so much granted? Why was so much expected out of it, meanwhile giving nothing to it in return? Who made these rules? When I contemplate on these questions with tears in my eyes, I feel empathy is the greatest virtue that could exist there, the highest of all. If someone didn't love you the way you would consider to be loved, how do they love you at all? If someone never understood you for who you are, how can they claim to deserve you, to want you? If a person couldn't show empathy, what's the point? So you just let them go because they actually serve no good, serve no purpose, they exist to prove things to themselves, it was and is all about them all along. 

 

Edited February 18, 2022 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Leave the ship before it sinks. 

 

[Preety_India]

Trippy and naked in the forest. 

 

[Preety_India]

Time to let go. Be yourself. Be in your element. 

Drop all worries and get naked. There is no shame. There is no guilt. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm not taking any chances. 

 

[Preety_India]

So I woke up in the morning and I am already having a shitty day. 

Woke up feeling bad. 

My mom kept disturbing me so many times. She woke me up so many times.

I literally wanted to scream at her. 

Just her daily drama that ruins my life. 

I'm feeling tensed, nervous and panicky. 

I took my medication last night. 

I still feel nervous. 

I also feel weak. Quite weak. 

Today is the day to start making changes 

 I'm almost recovered from Covid.. 

My blood circulation is fucked up. 

 

[Preety_India]

I feel very vulnerable today. Extremely weak. It's like I don't even have the strength to get up. 

Now she is outside. I want to feel better. 

My situation involves a great deal of vulnerability 

[Preety_India]

@Marcel hun thank u so much. You're very kind. Lub Lub. 

 

[Preety_India]

Why was I so self negligent and destructive for so long? 

Maybe because of depression? 

Lack of motivation? 

Lack of self love 

Coping mechanisms 

And lack of guidance. 

Lack of love and support in general 

Lack of spiritual insight 

Trauma response and hopelessness causing hurt, victimhood, helplessness and hopelessness causing a slow self destructive downward spiral. 

 

[Preety_India]

The greatest religion is humanity. 

 

[Preety_India]

Your journey is mostly alone. But there are some kind people that you meet on the way. 

[Preety_India]

I need to feel empowered. I need to focus on that. 

 

[Preety_India]

Reality is everything. 

 

[Preety_India]

When something starts acting creepy, it's time to leave the ship.