EntheogenTruthSeeker

New Experiment: “Fit In” / Play the social game

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After a moment of clarity on modafinil, I realized that all this self help and spiritual shit (at this point) after 6 years, is becoming/has been an escape from competition/survival/rejection. It’s also mental masturbation and distraction from doing the real shit that makes people attracted to me at face value/first interaction/get noticed. 

I’m just going to reinvent my appearance, style, health for the next two years and take a pause on more “deep” PD. 
 

I am in this limbo stage of being too orange for green communities, but too green for orange communities. This all stems from a horrible foundation of orange. (Glad I fully passed my foundation of stage red/blue this year as y’all have seen w Jesus BS?) 

my spiritual shit don’t matter, when I look like a fucking bum. 
 

imagine I just played the social game and dressed like a Fuck boy with insane style but have the values of self help and spirituality. that’s what I did my first year of self help, and I’ve never had more attention from girls in my entire life. Ever since I got too serious about spirituality I just po pooed “playing ego games” “fitting in”, but honestly some of these spiritual ideas have severely hurt my development-ego, hasn’t served me at all. 

1. buy 3 new outfits

2. get some jewelry, simple thin chain necklace, maybe light earrings 

3. consistent haircuts 

4. Master am impeccable hygiene/self-care routine. 
 

Much love! 
 

no matter how woke I get, I’ll never be “above” society or the rules, expectations, how success practically works, etc. 


Love Is The Answer: LSD Awakening

 

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Nice realizations. I think its really important to take care of your looks. I used to think I was above that and now I see the foolishness there. 


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You can be woke and still handle the little things like style, dress, hygiene, social skills, etc.

Get your material life together so it's tight. For example, have a nice house/crib to invite a girl back to. Don't be living like a sloppy bum.


You are God. You are Truth. You are Love. You are Infinity.

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@Leo Gura @Nahm @Flowerfaeiry thanks for the support and advice y’all. 
 

yeah I’ve realized there was no point to me approaching girls because I wouldn’t even be able to bring them back to, what, my parents? Lmfao

Inner value = outer value/success. 
 

<3


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