Javfly33

Spent 500$ on virtual sex/porn in two days!

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I'm changing my original response. What you need to do first and foremost, is you need to learn to love yourself. A lot of those fetishes of yours have to do with lack of love for yourself. So in your case, the dominatrix (or idk how it's called, just guessed) gives you the love, in the form of humiliation. Really fucked up reward mechanism you trapped yourself into.

What you need to do, obviously, is cut off any contact with these people/websites, but also, what's most important, you need to start giving love to yourself, instead of outsourcing it to someone else. I think your problem isn't that unique, we all suffer from this in one way or the other.

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What is it that you want in theory if you had total control of your reality right now?

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On 1/8/2021 at 3:34 PM, Javfly33 said:

This is not normal Lol. Never had I relapsed this hard.

What is wrong with my mind?

I've hit rock bottom I guess.

I wonder if this Will this be the time that makes me want to wake up the fuck up and go become a man, or if it makes me want to leave everything behind.

But I guess the only way out is in.

 

UPDATE, i confess i took aderall that same weekend because i wanted to have energy and motivation and low anxiety, But that made my libido go through the roof at the afternoon and night and felt endlessly horny/excited to consume sex products/services.

At this date i havent spent more and i Dont plan to do. 

 


A thought can´t ever tell you how you feel.

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@Knowledge Hoarder thanks Bro. Yeah i think its a form of love Lol.

Honestly It had been like almost 2 months since i havent consumed dominatrix services since my last lsd trip where i realized i was really fucked Up and i was vibrating in hate.

But like i said i took aderall and It was like It reactivated that pleasure pathways. Never again. 

On 7/8/2021 at 7:21 AM, Byun Sean said:

What is it that you want in theory if you had total control of your reality right now?

Where to start. First i would like to make money doing What i love. Then to control my mind to let me be Who i really want.


A thought can´t ever tell you how you feel.

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Posted (edited)

That'd be one hell of an ego backlash lol

Imagine the peaks and troughs of consciousness. You just went into a trough. Now you're going to approach a mini peak, and so on. But next time you're headed for the trough, imagine that graph upside down, so you're actually heading for a type of peak -- just try to feel your intuition as honestly and vividly as possible while you're in those "bad times" so you can feel just how bad it actually feels, causing you to learn. That way you have clear consciousness progression at all times, even when you're headed for lower consciousness in the short term.

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