My Creative Self

[Preety_India]

I never really thought I was very creative.. 

I drew these sketches, rough ones and I'm on my journey to discover my creative self. 

 

Haha  my obsession with monsters. 

 

 

 

 

 

[GodDesireOnlyLove]

That's good improve that by doing 20 sketch a day without model.

Dragoon is liiit better than me. I have no patience. I Can draw 9 hours but all my project is 15-30 min max. No girl patience. My girlfriend beat me on this. I m sort of the Leonardo da van poor.

There is something to dig for sure

Edited April 23, 2020 by GodDesireOnlyLove

[Preety_India]

@GodDesireOnlyLove

That was cute. 

Leonardo Da Van Poor 

I'm Leonardo Da Street Beggar 

 

 

[GodDesireOnlyLove]

@Preety_India lol WE Can go from beggar to rich swaggy Léonard.

 

You never sleep do you ? ??

[Preety_India]

@GodDesireOnlyLove

Hahaha, you're right. I never sleep. 

The artist in me is always awake. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

 

4 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

My passions are several and I hop from one to another like a butterfly. 

Where to begin. 

As a kid I used to write long essays, play badminton, chess, play the guitar etc. 

Now my passions have diversified 

I enjoy

Writing 

Singing 

Painting and arts 

Photography 

Studying psychology 

I love camping and collecting and selling camping material 

Writing fictional stories 

Cooking 

Self actualization work, meditation 

I love making memes, gifs 

I like putting images together to describe a story 

Brainstorming with my friends 

Listening to music. 

I also like making crafts when I have enough time 

I have a huge interest for recycling material and putting them to use. I don't throw used things. I make something out of it and use it in different ways. 

I also have interest in paranormal mysteries and ghost hunting. Maybe I'll try that some day.. 

I did stamp collection as a kid. 

And witchcraft which has been my latest interest and passion for life. 

 

 

[GodDesireOnlyLove]

@Preety_India @Preety_India are you serious on the question of créative or is it all for people to flower you ??

You beat most people' It's like reversed dunning Kruger effect on your life. And I see only 10% of what you can achieve. 

If you enjoy Reading/radio btw. My thing is audible + drawing. Maybe you're more into music but that's something I like. Throwing idea. Do the mix. 

Don't ask extensive questions that much and you'll soon be "preety godlike" ??❤️

Edited April 23, 2020 by GodDesireOnlyLove

[Preety_India]

@GodDesireOnlyLove

Just now, GodDesireOnlyLove said:

@Preety_India @Preety_India are you serious on the question of créative or is it all for people to flower you ??

You beat most people' It's like dunning Kruger effect on your life. And I see only 10% of what you can achieve. 

If you enjoy Reading/radio btw. My thing is audible + drawing. Maybe you're more into music but that's something I like. Throwing idea. Do the mix. 

Don't ask extensive questions that much and you'll soon be pretty godlike ??❤️

Nope 

I've extremely low self esteem thanks to my childhood abuse. I never felt confident. I had feelings of guilt for many years thinking that I'm not good enough. 

I still struggle with the same feelings. 

I feel like im not adequate. Also I was bullied a lot. That really sabotages self esteem and confidence. 

But I'm beginning to rediscover myself. 

I thought if I wasn't creative then what's the point of even trying. So I asked to know for sure if I am just imagining that I am creative or if I really am

I'm more likely to compliment others than myself. I like to encourage people but when it comes to my self, I become self-deprecating. 

So I needed a bit of assurance and a real honest opinion on my creative skills. 

If someone said to me that I'm not that creative, it helps too. It helps to know if I'm having an exaggerated or wrong view of my self. 

So I'm open to criticism of my creative skills.. 

If someone said that I'm not good enough, it will help me to remain humble and not expect much out of myself. 

 

[GodDesireOnlyLove]

@Preety_India holy jeez. You want to fucking hear it. You have to stop all the loop of question. Am I good enough ??? Blablabla

Where this is coming from ? And who judge ??

Of course you are when you stop doing that !! Drop it drop that shitloophole of question. Catch yourself everytime you dépréciate. 

Not sayin It's easy. But here you are. With a wall of shit you irrigated between your power and yourself. Destroy this fucking wall ? take a divine fucking hammer rip this shit off ???

and see how much you can love ???❤️❤️❤️

Stop thinking. Start doing start pure feelings

 

And FUCKING LOVE YOURSELF

I m not talking being 'egoic'. I mean trust that you are of value. Your value will create a field of love for everyone

Edited April 23, 2020 by GodDesireOnlyLove

[Preety_India]

@GodDesireOnlyLove

Holy Fucking Shit. You're right 

 

 

 

[GodDesireOnlyLove]

Past is past. You are here and now in présent full will. Full here with us' trust trust trust trust.

You Can do it sista ???

[Preety_India]

@GodDesireOnlyLove

Yes brother 

We can all do it. 

 

[GodDesireOnlyLove]

@Preety_India indeed ??❤️ good day / night whatever . Here is no sleeper.

[Preety_India]

@GodDesireOnlyLove you too mate. 

Have a good night. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

The art captured in this music and theme blows my mind 

 

[Preety_India]

 

Lately I'm more interested in abstract art. I see spirituality in it. Raw spiritual expression coming to life 

The mixture of colors and patterns makes me feel like I'm in a different world. 

I am not really good at it but I'm trying to create better and better. 

This is one of the things I created..

Dont ask me what it means. It is what it is. A mixture of colors and strokes.. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited April 23, 2020 by Preety_India

[DrewNows]

really something, the creativity that flows through you @Preety_India

Do you appreciate this gift?  

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

3 minutes ago, DrewNows said:

really something, the creativity that flows through you @Preety_India

Do you appreciate this gift?  

 

Hey, thanks for looking through my journal. You're very kind. I have begun to appreciate my skills. I love artistic work. 

Thank you 

 

[Preety_India]

 

I call this 

"Flowers are Bleeding" 

In my mind the flowers are coughing and bleeding because of air pollution. 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I have begun to get a grip on my painting skills. 

I had left painting many years ago because of family stress and dysfunction. I wasn't interested in doing anything back then except playing video games as distraction from the home environment. 

It seems I have found my wings again. 

Picking up from where I left