I fear I have one itis (crush) for this girl and it's poisoning me

[Key Elements]

@billiesimon no one here will know your exact situation. Only you know that. It's between you and her. Think many times before you make a decision to do something. Whatever happens, be willing to accept the consequences and most importantly, keep working on yourself. Life continues even after you get into a relationship.

She talks about marriage, but it's true for any relationship.

[DrewNows]

@Key Elements yes we have to be able to love ourselves completely to give unconditionally, this is why understanding and being honest about himself in these dynamics is so important. 

@billiesimon take responsibility friend, question your intentions and perspective, no other way to grow out of your deceptive selfish ways.