165 Days Before College

[Everyday]

Hello 👋 

 

didn't realize it's been over a month since I was here ⛺

so I prepared for black Friday very well this year. I was both anxious and excited. The black Friday came here on 7th of November and started horrible. The marketplace had a lot of bugs and our super hot products didn't even show half the day. Glad we had a second account and sold from that one instead. That worked very well. We had around 400 orders, last year it was 120.

I was on the platform all day unlike last year being employed. I felt great that I was finally able to give it all instead of trying to perform at 2 jobs. Last year at work I felt so stupid because I didn't have many e-commerce clients and none did black Friday.

My colleagues talked all day about their clients and I didn't have what to say. I was just pretending to work. It was a day like any other. I felt dumb for not being able to excel at my job and having to feel so small around my office. But this year I gave it all and it showed. We had over 3000 orders in November. Finally I job I am doing great.

 

We also sold a lot of products from a friend. We got some money from. there as well. That was nice. 

 

I invested 10.000 euros last year and now I am going to take the last 4000 euros. Cool. If I was alone in the business I would have reinvested once again. 

 

I had some discussions with my siblings for not being as driven as me. I didn't find a solution. 

 

My siblings criticize me for hitting the gym , working hard and trying to eat clean. They say I'm not living my life etc. My brother says that but I don't look up at him so I don't take his advice. 

 

I had a few moments thinking damn, I'm really doing this full time now. it's been almost 6 months and Iove my life now. I was really frustrated being employed. 

 

i used to run on the trademil 20 min after working out but I took a break for over a month because of knee pain. unfortunately it was too much 

 

I didn't manage to finish a book last month because poor scheduling. but I finished this month. I start reading the book mentats of dune, after I read sisterhood of dune.

 

met with friends twice. it was fun. one friend reached out to speak with me 1-1 . he was going through some rough stuff. I helped him but I felt embarrassed that he confessed to me. He started therapy and it's doing better 

 

drove a few times. sometimes it was horrible other times it was better.

 

I am still wondering what my ex work colleagues would say about my leap of faith to focus on my business full time. But I thought about it and there was no other way out. I was going mad being employed and working for them. I wanted to do my own thing 

 

I am still struggling with going to bed on a decent time and also with porn and flapping. I hate it but I do it daily.

I also feel immense guilt for not actually studying for my Spanish classes. I don't know if I mentioned but I started them for some time . I m not making progress because I'm not doing my homework or practicing. I feel like I'm highschool. my parents paid tutors and I didn't actually study hard as fuck. I would rather work than study 

the whole excitement disappear after I got my first homework 

 

Edited Tuesday at 12:40 AM by Everyday