165 Days Before College

[Everyday]

Hello 🫂

I woke up on time and did my tasks at work. As I was doing them I didn't freak out and procrastinate even more. That's very good. 

Yesterday was horrible. Worked too much on my job. I freaked out thinking that I have to actually quit soon. I thought that I have make this side hustle work work after I quit. Like for real. Otherwise I won't have money in a few months. I freak out to be honest. So if it's not working what do I do? I have to get some job once again 

I went to the gym today and this made me feel better. I refused to eat junk food today. I want to see results. I have to take it seriously. I have to eat as clean as I can. 

My sister's boyfriend proposed to eat McDonald's. I refused. He said again he wants to loose wait and that he'll start some insane diet for a few weeks. I tried to give him some advice but he doesn't want to listen 

 

I wasted some time on social media. 

 

Overall I'm feeling better than yesterday but still, I have to quit and give a real try to my side hustle. I dread the day I have to quit. I feel comfortable with this money. I am afraid to quit and live from savings. 

I feel stressed and tired. I decided to go to sleep earlier. It didn't happen. I worked until midnight and now it's already 1.30 am. Usually I would stay even longer 

 

I feel guilty for reading so much. I have to really make this work. I'm not taking it seriously now. I'm afraid to do it. 

I bought 5 more dune books. I'm afraid to start reading another one. I don't want to start all over again with the I have to finish it card. 

Edited May 6 by Everyday