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165 Days Before College

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Hola 🌽

 

Forgot to mention that I fapped and watched porn for two days at the beginning of this week. I felt really bad about that.

 

I started practicing Duolingo for 3 days already. I got Duolingo super and I'm excited taking this seriously.

I am switching between reading psycho cybernetics, Duolingo and games of thrones. I find psycho cybernetics a hard read for me. But I learned a lot. I am already reframing my thoughts. I have so many negative ones! I said this before in this journal, several years earlier.

I also worked out 4 times this week. I forced myself hehe. I was shocked to see how I am telling myself I can't learn Spanish after mistaking one word. Wtf?!

 

I'm speaking with more girls and I am asking them for a date. We'll see what happens. I was talking about my cat with a girl and she asked me if I actually own one. What do you mean by that? Apparently other guys got with her on Instagram and they sent her pics with their dicks hahaha. Wtf. I told her I wouldn't do that since I have my mom, friends and sister and I don't want to have those pics sent to them. That's true! After that she acted like I got friend zoned. Telling me that she drank like a big a night before and other stuff lol

 

I have to keep working on my thoughts. The whole model I use is wrong. I keep imaginging the bad thing I don't want to do instead to visualize success. Interesting! For example thinking all day about watching porn and fapping on the day I did that instead of imagining what I want to actually do.

I find psycho cybernetics interesting but there it's a lot of fluff as well. Soooooooooo much talk about god. Off.

 

I contemplated the fact that I enjoy my life now. I'm working on my goals. I feel good about this.

After I got drunk and high this week I kept feeling guilty and thought about all the things I should do and other negative outcomes. I always do that. But now I see that I can think of a positive future. 

I should change my thoughts when I think of exes and other drama.  I learned my lesson there 

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