abrakamowse

My Path To Somewhere, I Hope...

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I am still meditating everyday. Mostly mindful meditation, trying to be focused on awareness the whole day.

The thing is that for some reason the ego is kicking back harder than usual. My mind becomes agitated. I lose focus and I get involved in the story in my head. So, when I realize I am doing that I just bring my focus back to awareness.

What is bothering me is that is happening more frequently than usual. But I know is a trick of the ego who doesn't want to see what's behind the curtains of his trickery Lol...

So, I am continue working on focusing on awareness more and more than ever before!

^_^


The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window, or you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

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I was leaving from work on my way back home and I had an insight.

The mind is telling me the story of what's happening all the time. I always knew that conceptually, but now I could see how it does that.

It's like the body moves to a certain place and the mind begins to "think" I like to walk in this street instead of the other, because blah blah blah blah blah.

And it does it after I took one street instead of other, like saying there's an I who chooses what way I will be going or if I will take this street or other different .

It's funny how we don't notice those things because we are used to be controlled by the thoughts.


The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window, or you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

Morpheus (The Matrix)

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11 hours ago, abrakamowse said:

we are used to be controlled by the thoughts.

And we also identify with thoughts. If you look closer, the sense of self is but a thought. What we think we are is just a mental construct.

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3 hours ago, Natasha said:

And we also identify with thoughts. If you look closer, the sense of self is but a thought. What we think we are is just a mental construct.

Yes. In reality is the thoughts who are totally creating reality. My deepest question that I have to do in self inquiry is if the thought is "stealing" the uppercase "I" , that is Reality/Brahman/God/HigherSelf/TrueSelf and taking ownership of it, or in fact there's no such a thing as an "I" and it is all thoughts that create a lowercase "I" or false self and in fact there's nothing.

I also know that from nothing everything is created, but my question is if everything is nothing. The main source of all is nothing. Or is the uppercase "I". One is consciousness, the other one... I don't know.

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The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window, or you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

Morpheus (The Matrix)

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@abrakamowse Thoughts are energy forms with illusory content. The illusory content comes from the collective ego-mind. That's how we learn who we are as this body-mind construct through the illusion of separation and conditioning.

The Absolute (our true Self) is a no-mind zone, and since we identify with the thought story of 'me' (the false sense of self) and given our sight gets clouded by this illusion, we can't see what we really are, which is the Absolute.

So I'd say this would be a more accurate self-inquiry

40 minutes ago, abrakamowse said:

the thought is "stealing" the uppercase "I" , that is Reality/Brahman/God/HigherSelf/TrueSelf and taking ownership of it

 

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@Natasha  Thanks!!! That's what I was thinking, now I have to "see" it. I always saw the mind/brain as a receptor of all thoughts from the collective ego-mind, not a creator of thoughts.

There's a book I found long time ago online, a pdf in fact that it explain so well what is the personality, how it works, what is reality. Is like a step by step course for enlightenment. And they help a lot with the practice, mostly focusing on the breathing, on the tip of the nose, counting the breath and focusing on that or it can be an object.

I read it long time ago but I never did any practice, I am thinking on working on it again. This is their website.

http://guidestoenlightenment.com/

And this are the links to the pdf, they have 2 books, one for beginners

Beyond the Personality:the beginners guide to enlightenment 

http://guidestoenlightenment.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/Beyond-the-Personality-indexed.pdf

and the more advanced one

Towards Effortless Activity: the advanced guide to enlightenment

http://guidestoenlightenment.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/Towards-Effortless-Activity-indexed.pdf

 

Take a look at them, I think they have very valuable insights. The books are written by people who walked the path of enlightenment and they share their experiences on those books.

One of the things I always remember from reading those books is that Reality is a process that devours the personality.

They also have the whole book online, in their website, this is the chapter that I always remember and it was really helpful for me.

http://guidestoenlightenment.com/b-1-5-what-does-it-mean-to-say-reality-is-a-process-which-devours-the-personality/

 

 

 


The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window, or you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

Morpheus (The Matrix)

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@abrakamowse Cool! I love reading stuff like that. Will definitely look it up. Thanks for sharing :)

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@Natasha Good. Let me know what you think. 

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Continue with meditation everyday 30 mins. And I am all day trying to focus on awareness more and more. Trying to be more conscious during the whole day.

 

I was checking the stages of spiral dynamics and I realized that I am stage Blue going to Orange.

I also have some things from green, but I still can't embrace them. Those ideas are in my thoughts but not in my actions.

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The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us, even now in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window, or you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, when you go to church, when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

Morpheus (The Matrix)

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