I'm Desperate

[Mario]

My family , friends don't appreciate my efforts in self-actualization. They are afraid that this work is going to bring me to loneliness , depression ando so on.. Yesterday my Dad took my wi-fi and if i continue with this work and don't obey to him he's going to beat me up . It's like a piece of me was robbed and I don't know what to do. I was so optimistic about this work. I thought that if i continued i could have a happier life in the long run. I mean , i can continue meditating and i've got still some internet on my phone , but i can't buy books , take notes and learn (or at least i can do it secretely ) . I feel trapped abd very misunderstood , please tellmme something to get out of this mud

 

[General 2]

first, i would advise not to pick your family's negativity on your actions. they are just defending their old ways of living, which is homeostasis. so please don't feel guilty for doing this.

second, please give up the need for approval from others, anybody - family, friends etc. your inner work is your dialog with the nature, not with particular people

third,  maybe you should pretend to give in to your family, like say "Yes dad i won't do this anymore", while working on being more independent, then move out and start refreshed. while we are dependent on others, they have the moral right to show us around...unfortunately the only way is to let go of their control over us

[pluto]

Here are 2 great videos from 2 very wise and spiritually centered individuals that can really help.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lqr98O8QT3M

 

Edited July 19, 2017 by pluto

[General 2]

indeed, how old are you?

[Visitor]

@Mario most of self-actualization, while at home, requires no wi-fi, no internet, just quiet introspection (without even sitting in an obvious meditative position). Nobody has to know what you are doing.

A lot of self-development in regards to dealing with life situations requires us to do nothing. For example, if you wanted to learn how to be patient, you need to learn how to wait, and what do we do to wait? - we do nothing. The same goes for tolerance, forgiveness, loving, listening, understanding, discovering revelations of own truths. All this in a meditative type states. Be still and accept everything.

Your home environment may be a good place to practice these important life skills.

[Mario]

On 19/7/2017 at 5:39 PM, General 2 said:

indeed, how old are you?

Fifteen. I can't buy anything . Furthermore i wrote another post in relationships where i explain how the situation is evolving