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@Vladimir Cool! I was born and raised in Odessa, Ukraine, moved to the U.S. in 1995. My Grandmother originally came from Siberia. She was one tough lady.

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@Natasha Do you still speak Russian or Ukrainian? I tried to read some book in Russian recently and realized I need some practice, I don't have anybody to talk to in Russian anymore so it makes sense that I'm starting to lose it. Yeah I feel like those Siberian genes have kept me alive through some difficult times.


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@Vladimir  Your journal is cool. :)


  1. Only ONE path is true. Rest is noise
  2. God is beauty, rest is Ugly 

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@Vladimir Yes, I can still speak Russian and Ukrainian. I talk to my family back in Ukraine via Skype on a regular basis. But English is my primary way of communication too. It wouldn't be hard to lose your native language without much practice. Dah! :)

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Had a dream last night like I had an out of body experience and was traveling through walls, I went through the next door neighbor's wall, he had a desk with some kind of craft work materials, and I was knocking it all down, making a mess and then wondering what he is going to think when he sees all of his stuff messed up. I also remember thinking to myself, let's find an apartment where people are having sex! So I kept searching but couldn't find any to my disappointment. I think this dream may be interpreted as me stepping out of my comfort zone and exploring new skills, places and people. The ability of traveling through walls can be seen as a metaphor for recent "super powers" that I'm gaining with meditation, emotional mastery, qigong practice and others, and me wanting to "see people have sex" as a metaphor for searching out new excitement in life, like approaching women that I started doing yesterday. 

One thing that I want to improve is organizing everything I'm working on and creating a more disciplinary approach to all the important things and priorities. So far I have allowed myself to be very flexible with schedule because there have been so many changes in my life and I didn't want to overwhelm myself, though now that I have built up the willpower muscles enough and feel like I can add on more daily habits, it's time to re-organize stuff and create a new daily schedule. Creating quality videos for this new YouTube channel is the biggest challenge right now, I have a lot of questions like what are the best videos to create, should I be creating videos that would benefit me the most or should I target them to benefit other people the most, or somehow both? I think I'll be creating a variety of videos just to get enough practice and get more subscribers and don't dwell so much on making them perfect. There are some nagging ideas that have been on my mind for a while, so I think create videos for taking care of those first is going to free my mind up more so I can focus on other things. 

Another thing I'm struggling with is organizing all the information, there is so much I have already accumulated in a bunch of journals, voice recordings and mostly in notes on the computer in Action Outline. I feel like creating a system for organizing all this content because it's a total mess right now and it takes me a while to search for and find insights and ideas to incorporate into videos, I wonder how Leo keeps track of all of his content and if he's developed a good system for this. This is a perfect example of "hierarchies" from Systems Thinking, how taking care of the lower level systems is going to benefit higher levels. By creating an optimized organizational system for storing content on the computer, I'll be able to take more effective notes and have easier access to all the information and insights, leading to more efficient learning and video making. 


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This morning's yoga practice was challenging, especially in the beginning to middle part of the class. It was held at a new location, with a more spacious and better looking studio, though they were having plumbing issues and the toilet was out of order so they set up a portable, blue chemical toilet just outside, in the back of the studio. I went to that bathroom before settling in the yoga room on the mat and shortly after one of the students asked the instructor about the toilet issue because she wanted to go to the bathroom. The teacher explained what the situation is with plumbing and told her about that blue toilet outdoors, at which point the student looked displeased and seemed to have been hesitating going outdoors, at which point I made what seemed like a funny joke to me: "Going to that toilet was a lot easier for me, I didn't have to sit down" - nobody even gave a slight hint of laugh to this joke, I was the only male in that yoga class. Also, a lot of women seemed to have very grim looks on their faces which added more negativity to my bad joke. At this point I started wondering if some women may have a negative perception of guys like me going to a yoga class, because they may be thinking: "he is just here to try to pick up some women." - This is not the first time I catch myself thinking this way, but I'm slowly starting to understand that these thoughts are the result of cultural conditioning and the impact the "pickup" scene had on me which is still programmed into my mind. 

Leo's "I'm completely independent of the good and the bad opinions of other people" comes to mind here which also goes perfectly in line with "become an emotional superconductor" and "do what's emotionally difficult - ace life!". So if I really embodied these 3 principes which are the most important to me at this point, then I wouldn't worry about offending anybody or looking stupid by making a bad joke, and I wouldn't worry about what other women think I'm doing there. On the other hand, I would seek out emotionally difficult situations just like this one so I can learn how to grow from it "the most difficult moments are the best opportunities for inner growth". I actually became aware of how I got myself to the negative thought spiral during yoga practice, and realized how toxic and ridiculous those thoughts are, so I was able to let go more and enjoy the other half of the class instead of letting it drag me down, like I normally would have. Yoga also seems to intensify whatever emotions are lingering and are most prevalant, and I felt like the negativities I was experiencing at first were definitely intensified. 

At the end of the yoga class, I talked to the instructor who was right next to me, she had a triangle tattooed on her arm so I was curious about it because I'm studying symbols. She told me it's the most powerful shape and represents - body, mind and spirit and that all three come in synergy and balance represented by a triangle which makes it so powerful. I'm constantly looking for ways to use symbols as reminders of the way of life, to stay the course and continue on this self development journey. This experience made me realize that I still have some work to do when it comes to unlearning a lot of the programming induced by this culture on the relationship dynamic between men and women, and I'm going to use the triangle to memorize those three statements during challenging social situations - 1) completely independent of other's opinions 2) become emotional superconductor and 3) do what's emotionally difficult. 


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@Vladimir Lol Your joke was pretty good. The ladies in tight yoga pants need to loosen up a bit xD

 

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 Inspired by Leo's latest video about art, I finally decided to make a video of myself dancing in martial arts type of style. I've been thinking about all the elements that could enhance the video like clothing, accessories, environment, music and of course most importantly dance moves. I know I can do some good moves when I get into the pumped up state but I've never tried recording them before so I'm not sure what it will look like. Though this doesn't matter that much, I truly enjoy practicing martial arts and dancing outdoors, so it's more about me enjoying the process of flowing with the music and feeling one with nature and all surrounding environment, I feel like I'm at a peak of my performance and feel very alive in those moments. This morning, I'm going to drive down Mission Beach, take a micro dose of mushrooms 0.2g, pick a gorgeous looking background and see what kind of video I can come up with, this is going to be just a trial run though, no music, since I'm still waiting for the outdoor speaker to come in. I'm going to be playing around with the wide angle lens and seeing what the best positioning would be for dance type of video and hopefully can get the lighting right. 

This morning, I was thinking about how I can incorporate symbols into my videos so that people would remember to actually take action on things I'm teaching them. I think what we're lacking these days is not information, but rather an efficient way of learning, organizing and storing that information inside of our minds. I think a "learning system upgrade" is necessary which should start with the foundation of how humans understand reality. At it's most basic are 5 senses, visual being the most important. Symbols, including shapes and colors is what makes up all our visual world, beyond that is the meaning we assign to these basics objects with language. Understanding what the basics symbols are like space, dot, circle, square, triangle, vertical line, horizontal line and learning what they have been associated with can give us a good understanding about the world around us. Since we're immersed in these symbols they can be like constant reminders on the important information we're learning so that we remember to take action. Square is a mental model of reality with limits and boundaries, circle is the source (the canvas), dot is the content within the source (paintings inside the canvas), triangle can be a symbol of body, mind and spirit and remind us to work on all three to have balance in our lives and make the three create a powerful synergistic effect which is what the triangle represents. 

Similarly colors - black is the color of mastery (martial arts belts), blue is the color of quality of consciousness, the heavens (people couldn't see the color blue until certain time in history, and now people are asleep, not realizing their are divine creators and how powerful their minds truly are). Yellow is the color of joy, happiness, willpower, personal power which we are all the positive feelings we can be reminded of when the sun is shining. White can be a color of purity and enlightment. Green is the color of nature - growth, renewal, transformation, change, creativity, variety, intelligence. Trees are constant reminders of not only the color green, but also "systems thinking" and how we are all connected with nature in a symbiotic relationship. Trees are also like vertical lines, reaching out to heavens which is a symbol for materialistic striving to reunite with the divine, and this is basically what Actualized.org work is all about - raising the quality of consciousness and getting closer to our divinity. 

So there is a lot of ideas to incorporate symbols, basic shapes and colors and I'm coming up with more and more ideas everyday, there is plenty of other more complex symbols that I'm learning about from the Signs and Symbols Source book and I'm beginning to feel like a mage who is starting to acquire ancient knowledge and power and then learning how to wield these spells and powers to create a new Universe.


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Martial arts dance without music turned out to be a lot more challenging than I thought,   so instead I just recorded myself doing QiGong exercise and shadow boxing. Recording a video of myself practicing and experimenting with all kinds of moves, wearing ninja like Thai pants, in the middle of the park with people around was definitely outside of my comfort zone and made me self conscious, and I kept looking around to see if anybody is watching, this made me realize I need to work on the "I'm completely independent of the good and the bad opinions of other people". I also got tired pretty quickly from all intense moves I was trying to do and .2g mushrooms didn't seem like enough to get me in a very high energy state that I've experienced when taking higher doses at music festivals. After I finished working out, I laid down on the grass and meditated for about 20 minutes which felt amazing and was feeling like I was being blended in with the grass and all the environment around as if being covered by a soft, warm, loving blanket of nature. 

When I got home I took out about 10 photos from the video QiGong work out and post it on Facebook and "share with us your arts" section at Actualized.org forum because I remembered what Leo said about humans wanting to share their art and us being social beings, so I thought why not share my art with other people, maybe it would inspire others to adopt some healthy habits and do things outside of their comfort zone? I ended up getting a bunch of likes and comments on Facebook, but I think it was pretty unhealthy for me because I kept relogging in just to see if I got any new likes and felt like a drug addict needing his fix. So this gave me another insight into just how addictive I still am to social media praise even though I haven't been using Facebook at all in a long time, it's like I was a heroine addict relapsing after a long time of sobriety. I also felt how strange it was that many of the people that liked my photos and commented, all of the sudden started becoming alive in my mind, and my old memories about them were being activated and some of the feelings associated with them, it's like I was resurrecting all those people which haven't been on my mind at all back from the dead.

Started a contemplation sesssion around 7pm last night and had the most amazing insights. I realized a lot of our struggle these days is being able to make sense of all the information, it's like we are experiencing the great world war of information these days, and depending on which sources we plug ourselves into, will create that kind of reality. I started understanding why I've been struggling with some of the ideas for YouTube videos, as I dug deeper into what the actual challenge was, kept asking questions - what is it? where is the struggle? dig deeper...where exactly is the confusion? And eventually started realizing, the ideas I wanted to talk about are missing some of the pieces of the puzzle and then I was able to come up with the most amazing insights about how self development is connected to a character in a game being leveled up and how there is levels of progression of all the areas in life. For example, emotional mastery is a very high level skill, to gain this achievement, one must be able to use visualization, meditation and rehearsal effectively, which themselves all have their own levels of progression and lower skills underneath them. The hierarchy and boundaries from the Systems Thinking came to mind, because "the most complexities happen at system boundaries" and "you must take care of the low level systems in the hierarchy, the higher level systems serve all the lower levels". 

I also thought of ways to incorporate symbols so that people who are listening to the video will be able to immediately memorize the techniques and implement them into their lives. For emotional mastery, using a triangle symbol to memorize the 3 most important things - 1) become completely indepent of other's opinions, 2) become emotional superconductor 3) do what's emotionally difficult - ace life! Out of these three statements I also created 3 pictures - american flag as symbol of idependence for the first one, iron rod for the superconductor, and lotus flower for do what's emotionally difficult (the most difficult situations in life are the best opportunities for inner growth). Using the triangle symbol with a combination of creating symbols out ideas is I think one of the most powerful ways to memorize anything. Also, to take this symbol even further, I colored the triangle in black - indicating mastery (black belt of emotional mastery) and put the "all seeing eye" inside the triangle as a reminder that mediation and self awareness is extremely important when leveling up emotional ly. 

The gaming analogy of leveling up a character fits perfectly here too - you don't go out to perform as a stand up comedian when you have extreme social anxiety (you don't start nailing the final boss when you're a level 1 character). Also as you fight monsters, you may lose health (vitality/energy) and mana (willpower). Energy and willpower is a limited supply in us humans, so one must be aware of his/her energy level and also the amount of willpower, because chaning anything about ourselves is draining on both, especially when it comes to working on facing emotionally difficult situations and responding to them by differently. There are other great concepts from Systems Thinking like being aware of the feedback loops, both reinforcing and balancing (in the case of self development and mastery the balancing loop is homeostasis - our bodies have learned to survive in a specific way over many years) as we try to change old ways, the bodies will most likely revolt and try to bring ourselves back to the old self, so being mindful of that will be very useful.


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Had a drumming journey session with Ashley who is an acupuncturist and Ayahuasca shaman so she can start preparing me for the ceremony at the end of August and the 10 day retreat in Peru. She was asking me how I'm doing, what's new, what I want to work on and how I want to feel at the end of the session. It was difficult for me to point out what the number one priority is that I want to address, because it's not so clear anymore and I've been feeling so much better with all the healthy activities I'm implementing. What first popped up for me was that I still feel like my heart is covered up with a lot of walls of numbness and layers of anxiety and social conditioning of behaving in a way that is not my true, authentic self over the years that I've lived with depression and social anxiety. Also, my throat which is the most sensitive part for me when it comes to feelings, is where I still experience anger, contraction and sometimes difficulty expressing myself, though this one is getting much better now that I'm organizing my thoughts, reading out loud and journaling everyday. 

I also told her I'm still experiencing anxiety and worry and these feelings are originating as tingling and contracting sensations in certain areas of my body, and that I'm still worrying about finances, so I told her I want to get grounded and address the root cause of this anxiety. I then told her about not having enough confidence and trust in myself, so I want to learn how to trust myself, and regain confidence and power. So, I couldn't really pinpoint one thing to work on, it seems there are still a lot of things to work on, though all these sensations have subsided a lot, and the confidence aspect seems to not lack so much in "social confidence" because I'm able to approach attractive women with almost no anxiety, which seems to be a huge deal for any guy these days, though I now see it differently (back in the days were truly brave men, warriors who went into the battle with perfect courage), in today's society we seem to have a bunch of cowards, not men. This shows how radically toxic and ineffective the system is at producing healthy and happy human beings, and we are indeed living in the dark ages of self development. 

I'm super excited about my YouTube channel, which has already gained 31 subscribers out of only about 100 channel views, that's really impressive - a 30% subscriber ratio! I feel like people are really going to resonate and connect with the messages I'll be creating and the first video proves it, it's like the universe is telling me I'm on the right path and to continue working. I have quit my other successful YouTube channel Clever Techie and haven't made a single video in about 3 months time, though the channel keeps growing and is now getting about 100 subscribers per day, which is bringing a bit more of a much needed additional income. It's not easy to let that channel go and I still haven't completely let go of it, I'm thinking at some point I will start creating new videos for it and maybe eventually develop a product because I have a list of over 1,200 newsletter subscribers that I can market to, though my priorities have changed dramatically because of this rapid journey of self evolution and I'm really liking who I'm becoming. I feel like We are One channel is really going to take off if I keep making quality videos with the most powerful messages. Not only is this going to help other people, but it's helping me a lot on this journey - "the best way to learn is to teach" and "if you want to really help this world you have to teach how to live in it" ~Joseph Campbell.


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Dreamed about outwitting and beating a giant last night which could symbolize overcoming giant obstacles in life, that fits perfectly well with the huge challenges I'm facing. I also dreamed of symbols and how a lot of the memorizing and learning techniques I've been working on have come together and I was finally able to make use of it all, this made me contemplate more on all these techniques about improving memory and learning and how all the pieces of the puzzle fit in. “Learn how to see. Realize that everything connects to everything else.” ~DaVinci - is the quote that came into mind during last night's contemplation, things are really starting to connect and the more connections I make, the better understanding I get about the big picture and the more I'm able to organize concepts so they're easily accessed from the memory, it's like the hard drive is being defragmented - there it is a connection between a computer hard drive and the mind. It's amazing what miracles our minds are capable of if we only invest time in upgrading and optimizing them, I think movies like Limitless and Lucy are metaphors for what is possible if we learn to operate this super computer. 

Went out to the mall yesterday to approach women, not that many people were there during the weekday, so I think I'm only going to be going out on weekends from now on. Still ended up approaching 5 women total, which didn't result in any dates and only one them said she was single, I tried to get her on a date but she seemed pretty shy and I feel like I could have approached invitation to the date more gently, by chatting her up a little bit first. Since I'm doing these approaches from the priority of achieving "emotional mastery", it makes it so much easier to deal with rejection, because I feel grounded in being who I am, and I know the reason I'm doing this is for overcoming my fears instead of gaining something from the external environment. Though I still noticed ego trying to get in the way and caught myself thinking: "you gotta pick the ones that look like could be a good match for you, and the ones that look more friendly" - this prevented me from approaching more, but I was able to catch myself thinking this way which made me realize the ego won't let go of this situation so easily.


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8 hours ago, Vladimir said:

Went out to the mall yesterday to approach women

Malls are not the best places to meet quality women. Try local healthfood store, gym, farmers market instead. You know who goes there - holistically minded folk interested in investing their time and money into their health, not more new clothes, shoes, and expensive handbags. Nothing against malls and people who shop there, but who would you find more appealing - a woman addicted to shopping in expensive stores or a woman who goes to a farmers market to buy fresh organic food because she cares for her body and mind? Also depends on the intention of approaching - 'sport fishing' (catch and release) or to reel in a great catch, take it home, fry it and eat it? (haha that was a funny metaphor) Malls would be ok for 'sport fishing', I guess :)

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@Natasha I agree, but there are a lot of fish in the mall and I'm keeping emotional mastery as priority so as long as I'm approaching I feel like I'm leveling up, so sport fishing will do for now ;)


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I feel like I'm very sick on a spiritual and emotional level, I took a nap yesterday after yoga class, and woke up about an hour later feeling heavy, tense, stiff, sore and in pain. My throat also felt constricted and angry and I felt like I couldn't take full breaths and my brain just couldn't wake up for a long time and felt like I was in a daze. After sitting in front of the computer in that state, I just had to laugh and say "wow I haven't felt this shitty in a long time", despite all the healthy things I'm doing and being physically very healthy and fit, something is still very wrong with me on a deep level. Could it be that my body is revolting against all the sudden changes, or maybe it's the deep emotional pain coming out in this way? Or maybe like I just learned recently, the shamans have known for a long time: "if the emotional body is sick, the physical body can't get healthy". This is a quote I read from The Fellowship of the River about Aayahusca's healing powers, written by Joe Tafur, who I met at the aware project in San Diego. I started reading this book around 15 minutes after waking up from that nap, after all the unpleasant symptoms subsided for a bit. 

Joe is a doctor who went to the traditional medical school in UCSD, and ended up getting depressed, realizing the whole system isn't designed to really heal people, but rather cover up and alleviate their symptoms, and of course - profit. He described some of the similar symptoms I'm experiencing - not being able to take full breaths, being disconnected from the heart, being in his head a lot and feeling self critical and judgmental. He mentioned that 30% of all medical school students get depressed and 46% of all doctors eventually get burned out according to recent studies. He describes our medical system as a rat-race that completely neglects spiritual and emotional dimensions of human health, which are at the root cause problems of many illnesses today especially in the Western society. I immediately felt connected, inspired and motivated by his story, and was very glad I finally began reading his book, I want to finish reading it before  preliminary Ayahuasca ceremony at the end of August. It's like these horrible symptoms after the nap was body's signals to pick up the book and start learning about the plant "the madre Ayahuasca, the spirit of nature", so I can begin building closer relationship and understanding with her. 

It's strange and fascinating how events how been aligned by the Universe - I first met Joe at the aware project about four months ago, which is an event to spread awareness about psychedelic's great healing powers where I shared a story about my first mushroom trip with an audience of about 100 people. Joe spoke shortly after me, he was very eloquent and articulate, and I remember feeling a bit envious in the way he was talking and wished I could talk like him. After his speech I bought his book and he signed it for me, I shelved the book and told myself I would read it soon, but I wouldn't pick it up until yesterday's nap which is about 4 months since I met Joe. I had an incident about 2 months ago, where I couldn't sleep and was feeling a lot of the symptoms similar to yesterday's afternoon, at which point I told myself, I'm going to sign up for an Ayahuasca ceremony, and that's what I did the next day. I also kept going to all kinds of meetup events about spirituality and shamanism, until eventually I stumbled upon Ashley who had a meeting on "Shamanic Drumming Journey" which turned out to be exactly on my birthday on July 12th. Ashley turned out to be Joe's ex-girlfriend, an Ayahuasca shaman herself, the "White Patch" and she also persuaded me against going to the Ayahuasca ceremony in Julian because I really didn't know those people are and the way they advertised it on their web site was shady. Instead, I decided to work with Ashley so she can prepare me for the ceremony with her shamanic drumming, acupuncture and Chinese herb medicine.

Nihue Rao is the Ayahuasca healing center in Iquitos, Peru which was started by Joe and two of his other business partners. Ashley told me about a 10 day ceremony in Peru, and about all the experienced shamans who will be there, she told me she was going there herself to continue learning about the plant, this retreat turned out to be at Nihue Rao which Joe talks about in his book. I signed up for it even before she mentioned that Joe would be going there, and before I realized this is the same center that Joe talked about at his speech at the aware project. The point at which I found out it's all related is when Ashley told me - "I highly recommend a book, it's called Fellowship of the River, I've never read it myself because it was written by my ex, but I've heard nothing but good reviews from other people." She also told me Joe himself would be going to this upcoming retreat on October 22, so I felt like it was all a birthday gift from the Universe, and couldn't resist signing up for it right away. I feel like madre Ayahuasca has been calling me for a while and I finally listened, it's amazing how things align and start playing in our favor when we truly want something. "And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it." ~The Alchemist

Edited by Vladimir

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Leo's video on setting proper expectations for success is what I really needed to hear at this point in my life, he always seems to make videos as if specifically targeted towards my life's journey. With a few recent setbacks where I was feeling really shitty, I started questioning if all these things I'm working on are really helping me become healthier. The video reminded me that I'm only about 2 months into serious, self-disciplined work, and that I'm expecting results way too fast. The spiritually emotional trauma, psychosomatic wounds, blockages and knots I have accumulated over two decades of living with social anxiety, anger, regret and depression aren't going to go away in two months, wake up! I'm noticing changes in the positive direction in my mind and body, my mood has improved, memory is starting to become sharp, focus, understanding and comprehension all improved while reading books. I'm become the master of dealing with any kind of negative emotions and physical body sensations which are mostly noticeable in the morning and after taking naps, but also while being outdoors around a lot of people and approaching women. I have adopted the principles Leo has been teaching about becoming emotional superconductor, do what's emotionally difficult and I'm completely independent of the opinions of other people. All these changes, especially when it comes to dealing with emotions, are all very emotionally challenging, and so I have to be ware of homeostasis and how the body might want to bring me back to my old self with all kinds of unpleasant sensations.

As I contemplated I realized that the most difficult thing for me to do is to let go of the idea of a romantic, loving relationship, not in a sense that I should completely give up on it, but rather stop seeking it. As I go out and start approaching women for developing emotional mastery, I keep catching my ego defaulting to the old way of thinking and trying to only talk to women who could be potential dating and relationship material, and as a result I'm letting a lot of opportunities pass, that I could have taken to further develop emotionally. As for the setting realistic expectations, seeing myself dying at 60 years old, I realized that I don't have that much longer to live - only 26 years, this made me really think of what I want to do with the rest of this very short time that's remaining. I still have savings left from my online marketing days and income coming in from the YouTube channel and some of the left over sites I created a while back, which should sustain me for another 10 years by conservative estimates. This works out with the 3-5 years expectation of making money from the business as Leo mentioned, so that I can work full time on the new channel, which is my true passion called We are One which aligned with my own personal development work and contributing to the world, and I'm okay with it taking up to 5 years before I make any money from it. For now, I still have a lot of work to do before even thinking about what sorts of products I will be developing and how I'm going to make money from it in the future. I got a lot of healing to go through, many skills to develop like speaking, voice, teaching, memory, learning, understanding, writing and everything else that will make my messages more powerful. 

As far as finding that dream loving relationship, I think that by creating value and working on myself, I'm actually greatly increasing the chances of it happening, instead of neurotically chasing these relationships, hoping to get lucky. So that aspect too, aligns with the personal development work and life purpose. I'm going to be working on letting go of that "wanting to be in a loving relationship right now" mentality which has been programmed into my mind over many years. I need to follow my own advice and realize that "humanity's greatest treasures are found within."


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Been working on the next video called "How to Achieve Emotional Mastery" which is what I'm trying to do in my own life right now, so I have been putting together some things that I want to talk about, though I still need to organize it all. I think it's important to add, in addition to "the most difficult moments are the greatest opportunities for inner growth" - but what exactly are we growing during these difficult moments? Strength, resilience, willpower are the three traits that come to mind right now. Knowing this will give us more motivation to persevere through those challenging, difficult situations, so I think I should include this point in the video. 

.....Spent most of today working on that video's content, it turned out to be way too long because I was trying to cramp other ideas into it. I will be cutting out a lot of fat out of it tomorrow and deciding how long to make the actual video, I think it's turning out to be a masterpiece though and I'm glad I've been patient for a while, allowing insights to gradually come in and doing more research on the subject. I feel like I have created some great unique ideas on this approach to self development and the usage of symbols and colors to memorize these things so that people can actually take action on the things they're learning. I've also developed a framework of how one could approach this work using a video game metaphor which aligns with hero's journey, leveling up, slaying monsters, gaining skills, experience, knowledge etc, though I'm not sure if I'm going to be including all of that in this Emotional Mastery video because it might drag on for much longer. 

I have underestimated just how powerful the title of the video is, there is so much to cover under "how to achieve emotional mastery", mastery itself is a huge topic, emotional mastery is even more complicated. What I've noticed is I'm getting frustrated as I'm writing and trying to organize all these pieces of information, but I catch myself feeling this way, and then try to continue working anyway. This is something I've never been able to do in the past and this proves that the emotional mastery approach I'm taking works.


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