I wanna go further on my path

[Mixcoatl]

I'm serious about my spiritual path, and I have a very inquisitive nature when it comes to the self, reality, consciousness, etc. But I really feel kinda stuck.

I've been doing psychedelics for more than 10 years, and I've been using them regularly for more than 4 years. This includes 5-MeO-DMT, LSD, and others. I've had many very strong experiences with 5-MeO that I consider awakenings.

Here's the thing: I've experienced many of the things people commonly report from their trips — depersonalization, ego death, the mind-like nature of reality, absolute calm and peace, complete fusion and oneness with my environment, the absence of time, omnipresence, love and acceptance of reality as it is, etc.

All of these things are real to me because I've actually experienced them. But I still haven't been able to reach some of the other experiences people report. Many people have talked about things like time travel, becoming super-intelligent alien minds, experiencing God's mind, and so on.

This is difficult for me because I don't want to blindly believe in these experiences. If anything, I'd like to experience them myself rather than simply accepting them as beliefs and falling into dogma.

I don't know whether it's a matter of higher doses, different substances, more meditation, or something else entirely. At the same time, it's difficult to find proper guidance.

I've been following Gura's work for a long time, and I really appreciate a lot of what he's done. However, it sometimes feels weird to me that he says he wants to help people awaken, while at the same time he — and many other people on this path — tend to treat others as "newbies" or inexperienced, so to speak.

Not to mention that I feel pretty alone on this path. 99.9% of the people I interact with don't really care about these things at all.

I'm planning a Bufo Alvarius experience with a lot of preparation — fasting, a calm mindset, a proper environment, a high dose, etc. — in the hope of reaching the next level.

But honestly, I don't know if it's going to work.

Has anyone else been in a similar situation? Have you reached a point where you felt like you had experienced a lot of what psychedelics can show you, but still felt that there was something further to explore? How did you approach that without simply taking other people's claims on faith?

[VeganAwake]

33 minutes ago, Mixcoatl said:

in the hope of reaching the next level.

There isn't any levels.

The self illusion is never satisfied, it will always feel like there's another level to attain. It's extra sneaky!

 

Look very closely for "who" wants to reach the next level.

What is it exactly?

🙏 

 

 

[Mixcoatl]

1 minute ago, VeganAwake said:

There isn't any levels.

The self illusion is never satisfied, it will always feel like there's another level to attain. It's extra sneaky!

 

Look very closely for "who" wants to reach the next level.

What is it exactly?

🙏 

 

 

"I have reached a new level of awakening"... Gura on many of his videos.
It's not the same a mushroom trip and an LSD trip.
I don't think I have experienced god's mind. Altough I have experienced oneness with my surroundings, I have never experienced my friend's mind in a trip. 

[Yimpa]

1 hour ago, Mixcoatl said:

Not to mention that I feel pretty alone on this path. 99.9% of the people I interact with don't really care about these things at all.

Feel free to DM me