Need Pointers to get back into the DREAM.

[Maheshwar]

 

I had studied philosophy seriously, contemplated and meditated, spent time in nature almost daily since the past 10 years. And I can intellectually understand the layers of the nature of existence at pretty depths ( from non duality to godels theorem to Ken Wilbers - Integral psychology -  to various layers of meditations). So I can reach some pretty intense states if needed and to an extent experience elevated states of consciousness almost all all the time (like the kundalini/subtle energies (to a certain level) almost all the time).

Now I feel severely alienated. I'm 30 and have literally no one, no money, stuck in India which is a poor country and filled with extreme right wing mythic idealogies. However I'm working on my own startup since the past 4 years and the progress is seemingly good though I haven't started the actual business and still working on the prototype only. However because of severe stress extreme degree of alienation I stopped working on it since the past few months. I want to fix this first. And also the work is purely technical which within the 4 walls. Im trying to socialize but the sort of alienation to the  darkness in me makes them run away. And then more importantly than them running away, I have literally nothing to speak about in the first place, no happening and no content to the very life.

I help my father with his business, but that feels again pretty incomplete.

So in one sentence I feel like I'm living in solitary confinment or in mars, completely alienated and the head is also overloaded.

 And no matter what I do, nothing seems like helping me to merge back into the dream.

And can anyone please give me some pointers to get back into the dream.

 

Some of pointers to get back into the dream that I found but still am not finding it very helpful- Being in the Now, No - Mind, There's no ultimate truth/meaning or meditation.

Edited Thursday at 04:02 PM by Maheshwar

[enchanted]

Plenty of excersize, balanced diet, consistent sleep

[Maheshwar]

Thank You. 

[Terell Kirby]

On 9/10/2026 at 11:58 AM, Maheshwar said:

I'm 30 and have literally no one, no money, stuck in India which is a poor country and filled with extreme right wing mythic idealogies.

I'm sorry :-(

Hope it works out, lean into this community to keep yourself going.

Awakening will be there once your base needs are taken care of. Good luck

[Mu_]

Im confused with the words you used.  Do you want to go back into the dream of daily life or are you using the word dream to mean go back into spiritual experiences?

[Human Mint]

You could benefit from a professional like therapist.

[Someone here]

Go to sleep.

[Maheshwar]

 

2 hours ago, Someone here said:

Go to sleep.

Isn't sleep something that is supposed to come to you? Like you can't force yourself into sleeping or do you mean just sleep consciously even if you aren't getting any?? (Like I'm having trouble sleeping also again).
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14 hours ago, Mu_ said:

Im confused with the words you used.  Do you want to go back into the dream of daily life or are you using the word dream to mean go back into spiritual experiences?

Yes, I got the point that the way up is the way down (base needs). So I'm focusing on Dads Business to get the financial security. However this feels pretty incomplete.

So I am taking about getting back into the dream of daily life (not spiritual experiences).

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So let me bring an example that I noticed which is Mindfulness. And I am talking about a type of mindfulness meditation that’s thought in the book "A Million Thoughts - Om Swami". Where the practice goes as following: you allow yourself get a thought. And now you affirm that very thought  in the present continuous tense. And then bring attention onto the emptiness of that thought.  And when it comes to how get a thought, what he says is something on these lines: "when you let go the need to think or bring a thought, you'll get the thoughts".

Also ultimately thoughts do come from nothingness. Here's a quote "For thought, KÄÅ›yapa, cannot be apprehended, inside or outside, or in between both. For thought is immaterial, invisible, non-resisting, inconceivable, unsupported and homeless. Thought has never been seen by any of the Buddhas, nor do they see it, nor will they see it. . . . A thought is like the stream of a river, without any staying power; as soon as it is produced it breaks up and disappears. . . . A thought is like lightning, it breaks up in a moment and does not stay on. . . ."

So when I sit and try to practice mindfulness. I try doing it but no matter how much try I barely get any thoughts. Even after following this "when you let go the need to think or bring a thought, you'll get the thoughts" and all the other instructions presented, I usually don't get any thoughts. And instead of getting the thoughts, it becomes more and more silent to me. The degree of silence where probably it takes decades of meditative practices to hold on to that degree of silence, so obviously it becomes extremely overloaded and hits my head. Instead of getting any thoughts.

And on the other extremity in a sense I can reach some deep states, for example I hold onto to a particular mudra and can clearly feel the energy moving to the respective location in my body of that mudra. I switch to some other mudra and can clearly notice the movement of the energies to the new location in the body. But then I cannot do a simple meditation like mindfulness. In fact mindfulness should be relatively an easier meditation, like it doesn't deal with anything like concentrating on the third-eye or at some location to the concentration on nothingness (which are relatively advanced).

Another deeper observation that I made (hard to describe, but I am trying describe it as much as can) is obviously I do have this drive to get the thoughts. But then the feeling as a whole of most of the thoughts that I get seem to be very incomplete. Like when I feel into these thoughts - and the energy or the state that they carry -  mostly it feels like I keep getting stuck in the head instead of this energy flowing all across my body and have a sense of completion.

This clearly allows me to notice how alienated, empty and stuck am I really. And hence how away am I from my dream really. Because thoughts generally speaking for a normal person who is living on the auto-pilot, for them they run like a machine gun.

And for this particular context, to put things simple and suitable for me, I would say a thought is the duality or the end expression of the your dream/your world/an happening that touches the I or the self. So thoughts are coming from here for this particular context. (Even though ideally or ultimately they would be coming from the nothingness or the void and the unconscious).

 

So this is what I am talking about, any suggestions on the pointers to get back into the ones dream/ones world/ones happening/bringing out a sense of you/ to building an identity of yourself. so at end of the day, before I sleep, there's a healthy flow of thought within me.

Edited 2 hours ago by Maheshwar

[Someone here]

@Maheshwar which “dream” you want to go back to ?

[Maheshwar]

I need some time to answer this, kindly!!