Girl Power is a lie

[Natasha Tori Maru]

22 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

There's no gap between feelings and reality. There's no way to reason with me in that moment. I'm completely out of control!

The "lie" only becomes visible later, in hindsight, when I'm no longer in that BPD state. 

Yep, this was the same observation I made in my experience.

The person with BPD had absolutely no conception the lie was a lie. It was their total reality in the moment.

After emotions subside all was revealed. And with it, typically a lot of shame. Guilt shame spiral was big.

I actually really love people with BPD - they suffer from the disorder - but their capacity for feeling (both good and bad) is just amazing. If you can hold space for their emotions and keep steady and clear you can be a rock for them to heal. It's a ride for sure!

[Hojo]

On 6/7/2026 at 8:08 PM, Natasha Tori Maru said:

It's what Leo always repeats - corruption corruption corruption! 

It's in human nature to manipulate coerce and leverage what systems they can to get ahead. I can see exactly what you point to regarding women and how they leverage the softer emotions to their advantage.

Hard respect and admiration, Integral - that you have the ability to drop frame & seriously entertain a different perspective. Most here just egoically cling to their points. And not in good faith! 

This open self masterbation discusts me. And is a projection.

You are doing what you describe is bad in the post in the post.

Edited 14 hours ago by Hojo

[Natasha Tori Maru]

@Hojo that's your problem not mine. 

Keep it to yourself.

[integral]

13 hours ago, Yimpa said:

I never think or feel like I'm lying in the moment. Whatever cray cray emotional roller coaster comes up in that moment IS my reality. And just like a roller coaster, I have no control over it once it starts. I'm just along for the ride (and anyone else who dares to ride along with me).

There's no gap between feelings and reality. There's no way to reason with me in that moment. I'm completely out of control!

The "lie" only becomes visible later, in hindsight, when I'm no longer in that BPD state. 

Ah that makes perfect sense, I couldn't understand why no reason works, even when it's like 2 + 2 = 4 the answer is just wrong. 

The emotion makes it so they have to be right or they rather die. And anything that keeps them right is true.

13 hours ago, Yimpa said:

 I smashed a plastic laundry basket into a million pieces after a minor miscommunication about a month ago, in my own home. That's how intense I can be in private. It doesn't happen as often as it did when I was much younger, thanks to years of therapy and psychedelic integration.

Oh I 100% believe it, I've had knives thrown at me and slapped with absolutely no warning at all lmao

Getting slapped out of nowhere without any communication or you not realizing her emotions changed because nothing happened and there's nothing happening.

13 hours ago, Yimpa said:

FLMAO so true. As a inappropriate side topic, BPDs tend to be really good in bed. Because the more intense the emotions the better the sex is. From the male perspective at least.

Edited 2 hours ago by integral

[integral]

13 hours ago, Natasha Tori Maru said:

@integral

Men with BPD can be a lot riskier to be around - which isn't to say women cannot be also. But I suffered a lot of torture and violence and was made to consistently receive the message "I come second, my needs are secondary". I walked away with broken boundaries.

Okay so that's a definitely a different dynamic. It sounds like they were trying to control you and warp you into what they want to do to be.

Were you in the provider role?