Anyone else have voices

[Meeksauce]

For me it's associating any sound with words in my head - not necessarily hearing voices independent of my own "thinker" speaking independent thoughts to own to me. I've felt I've always had insight into myself and mind - enough to strongly consider these voices aren't real many times - so I don't think I can be classified as classic psychosis. I do smoke weed and cigarettes, but I believe they are only catalysts for underlying trauma of loss in my near family recently, not underlying causes. All of these "big mental health" disclaimers aside let's get to the deep part. If reality is subjective and constructed from mind, there is nothing stopping me from building my own self constructed prison of voices that seem to be real and violate reality. This must be a curse or something my higher self is inducing upon myself to induce rapid growth. Or else it would not be possible.. thoughts? Any similar experiences? Differing experiences?

[Hojo]

I had so many before I awaken, it was like being buried under them. When my brain turned off I was like cell getting blasted by Vegeta. 'Whats this?!'. When all the voices suddenly turned off via psychedelics, I could see God. Then a different kind of voice started talking and asked me who I was and I said I am God.

I still have them, not as bad and I ignore them mostly. Trying to ignore them entirely.

Society does this weird witchcraft where they force you to create a voice inside your head, then have it start to attack you by shitting on you relentlessly. This is why people go schizophrenic.

Edited 9 hours ago by Hojo

[LastThursday]

There is the theory of the Bicameral Mind, which says that hearing voices used to be the normal way people experienced the world. Auditory hallucination was one the ways the brain talked to itself. Self-reflective thinking was not the norm until more modern times.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bicameral_mentality

How does the brain know if something is real or imagined? It seems it needs to hit some sort of threshold in intensity. It could be that some people's internal voices are strong enough for them to believe they're real, despite the fact there is nobody there speaking them. This article is about mental imagery, which is a similar phenomenon:

https://www.quantamagazine.org/is-it-real-or-imagined-how-your-brain-tells-the-difference-20230524/

The brain is also very good at rationalising things away, for example calling the voices "commands from god" or "messages sent by a government agency". Cotard's sydrome or "walking corpse" is an extreme example:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cotard's_syndrome

[Hojo]

@LastThursday The only time I have heard like auditory voices is when I am on shrooms. Its very different from a regular voice in your head. If you are in a room and think you are alone, if someone started speaking  behind you, your ears would sort of turn on, like a microphone turns on before it hears the voice. It felt like my ears 'turned on' and I heard a voice speak directly into a microphone in my head. I was louder and more clear than a normal voice in your head, it was like someone talking in the room to you with no one in the room.

I heard it twice on two different shroom trips. One time the voice asked me who I was and I said I am God. And another time the voice told me to look at a dot on my wall so I could enter a trance. I did look at the dot and I entered a trance.

When it told me to look at a dot on the wall it called me bro. I dunno if its my own voice or what. Ill take it as my own brain for sanities sake.

Edited 4 hours ago by Hojo