Beans & Joy’s Journal 🐯🌈

[Yimpa]

they’re open to the unknown

damn, that’s hot.

[No1Here2c]

@Yimpa glad you Love the song i shared, its definitely on my list of favorites.

Edit: I should have asked first if I can post in your journal. Apologies for my derelictions.

Edited Monday at 07:52 AM by No1Here2c

[Yimpa]

@No1Here2c Anyone can post here! 

[Yimpa]

On 2/7/2026 at 4:29 PM, Yimpa said:

Love is without words

 

 

[Yimpa]

The Medicine That Saved Me Is Also the Poison

The thing that saves your life is the same thing you have to walk away from. 

A pharmaceutical drug pulled me out of a war my body was waging against itself — skin on fire, no relief in sight. It worked. But over time, it started taking from me in other ways. My eyes deteriorating, held together by an entire regimen of drops, ointments, and treatments just to keep them from falling apart. 

I was viciously treating the side effects of a treatment. And when one layer of support was removed, everything collapsed — revealing just how much damage was quietly being done underneath. 

Meanwhile, my body has changed. The foundation that was broken when I started this drug has been slowly rebuilding from scratch.

So now I’m stepping back — not because the medicine failed me, but because I’m no longer the same person who needed it. 

[Beans]

I miss you. More than words can speak. More than eyes can see. 
I miss you. Every day of my life I will continue missing you. A heavy stone in my heart. Struggling to stay afloat. I was drowning. I couldn’t do it. And I’m not ashamed to admit it. I didn’t want to. I couldn’t do. 
 

I wasn’t afraid of death. I had nothing to lose. So I did what I knew best. I sank. Deeper and deeper into the ocean. Struggling, lungs filling with water, my rock dragging me back down after every push forward. 
 

until one day 

you came to me in my dream. And the only message you had was that you loved me.  I woke up disoriented, not knowing what day it was. Just an automatic response. Get up, get dressed, be presentable, do what I have to do. I finally came into the classroom and sat down. Reading the board realizing that certain day was Valentine’s Day. 
 

Something inside me realized the message you were trying to convey to me. That in life or in death your love for me is forever.
 

That rock is still here, but over the years I feel it shrinking, or maybe I’ve become stronger without realizing it. 
 

Im nothing without my family, without my culture.
If it wasn’t for them. I wouldn’t be who I am today.
 
The song always forever by Chris Lanzon

”everything I do. I do it for you. Always forever” 

that’s what it feels to be loved in my culture. 
 

my love for you, gives me strength. 

always and forever. 

 

[Beans]

Bad bunny’s performance. 
 

brought back so much memories, I felt at home. 
 

 

it was a beautiful performance. 
it really did something for me. 
its just difficult to put it into words. 
 

a core piece of you, understood, presented, loved. 
loudly and proudly. It was healing. And beautiful. 
 

I even made new friends, laughed with strangers. 
it was great. 

[Yimpa]

Fuck…

https://youtu.be/-ZCOGJW962M?si=JhjYLlzHkR9jinxG

[Yimpa]

Don’t think I’ve ever used the F word on 3 separate forum posts in a single day. That’s a first!

[Yimpa]

4 hours ago, Beans said:

Something inside me realized the message you were trying to convey to me. That in life or in death your love for me is forever.

US

 

[Yimpa]

To minimize driving ourselves insane, we are spending less time together so we can explore what reality is without each other. Then we come back and report our findings. 

 

4 hours ago, Beans said:

a core piece of you, understood, presented, loved. 
loudly and proudly. It was healing. And beautiful. 
 

I even made new friends, laughed with strangers. 
it was great. 

And you did that all without me. Good work  

[Yimpa]

The deepest and most profound insights are invaluable. No one can own them but You

[Yimpa]

 

[Yimpa]

i enjoy watching this guy overanalyze the crap out of pokémon. i have no idea what’s going on, but the vibes are top tier 

 

[Yimpa]

 

FIN!

Edited 12 hours ago by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

Threads feels like an endless people & bot pleasing trap and I am taking an indefinite break from it.

Shoutout to deadmau5 for helping me realize this. Dude’s a fucking genius.

https://www.threads.com/@deadmau5/post/DUe2Ynijaap

PS- anyone from threads reading this post and you know we lit, feel free to DM me. you know who you are  

Edited 10 hours ago by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

I’ve not played Halo Infinite in over a year. Let’s see if I still got it 

Last gameplay footage of me :

 

Edited 9 hours ago by Yimpa

[Yimpa]

On 2/2/2026 at 8:47 PM, Yimpa said:

Big Beautiful Black History Month!

 

[Oppositionless]

23 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

I’ve not played Halo Infinite in over a year. Let’s see if I still got it 

Last gameplay footage of me :

 

I distinctly remember being a socially outcast (in my head , really wasn't quite true) 13 year old and experiencing the purest joy playing halo 4 (I was really good, unlike at COD which I played with friends).

[Yimpa]

@Oppositionless Omg… I remember playing Halo 4 when it first came out. Having unlimited sprinting ability was so next level for the series.