What if the one thing you actually want to do won’t pay the bills?

[Thought Art]

@Leo Gura I feel like you say things that are valuable require hard work. But, then also dissuade me from doing that. 
 

I worked hard as fuck for like 2 years before I played festivals. I would come home from a shit job, write a song or two and then play an open mic. I played almost every single night LIVE. Then, I started playing festivals, but then I fell off course with COVID etc. I work hard. 

I am not that smart. But, I try. 

I want to be the best artist I can be. I want to make something amazing. Like, I have to work hard ANYWAY. MacDonald’s is a fucking rented mule. It’s so stupid. 
 

anyway, I really gotta go.

I respect you guys. 
 

This is my life guys. It’s my consciousness. It’s my dreams and my heart. My highest vision for myself is to be a musician. That’s the honest full answer. That was my life purpose course. It’s what I think about everyday. It’s my dream. If I can’t make my dream seriously kill me and use your will God to make it so or just snuff out this mind. Make me a toad. 

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[Thought Art]

37 minutes ago, Leo Gura said:

 

I had no success until I built it through lots of clever work.

I’m like 2% as smart as you. So, retards like me just gotta try I guess. 

[Leo Gura]

9 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

I’m like 2% as smart as you. So, retards like me just gotta try I guess. 

I think you are plenty smart. Just gotta apply it. This isn't rocket science.

But I get it. I know how hard it is in the beginning when you got nothing but a dream.

In the beginning an optimistic attitude is one of the few things needed most. You gotta believe in yourself because who else will?

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[Elliott]

31 minutes ago, Thought Art said:

 

I have one fucking life guys. One. Am I gonna be in a death bed… just like…. Well, I guess I never made my dream come true. Well, what was this stupid fucking life for? Oh, I got to watch some other asshole make his dream come true. Oh no now I’m absolute infinity and I’m dead. Well, next shithole dream I guess. Why is God in the business of experiencing shithole dreams? Makes 0 sense. Your fucking GOD!! You should be awesome!!!!
 

That's true, but, your ego can waste your life on a dream too.  What people tend to care about on death beds is their relationships. look at succesful people falling into drugs and suicide.

But, being passionate about life can also radiate into relationships if done right, it's about balance. What this means is the accomplishments don't actually matter, but passion does.

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[Ramasta9]

@Thought Art I was always born this way, as rebellious as it gets. Maybe i was a slave in my past life but i never ever did anything in my life that felt like slavery, my entire nervous system would rebel, I was prepared to even be homeless in 2020 when they were trying to force vax everyone.

I always did and will do what i love, and I am in my mid thirties and life still goes on? I've lived a great live, both in darkness and light.

There is ALWAYS a way, you are infinite intelligence, you can figure it out.

[r0ckyreed]

Hey bud. I feel ya. This sounds a lot like me a few years ago. I used to wanna be a professional tennis player and trumpet player (the best in the world). I had too much unrealistic expectations and ambition. I realized in college that I love music, but not enough to become a music major and grind through it. That was a tough realization for me since I spent most of my life having the hopes that I would make it in the music and tennis industry.

But life has a way of closing one door and opening another. I found philosophy, spirituality, and psychology through my struggles and depression as a music performance major. 

To keep it short, I think you should take a step back and focus on what really matters and find ways you can continue your passion for music without expecting too much out of it.

I’m curious, if you were the last human on earth tomorrow, what would you do with your time? You still have to fight to live and nurture your body. I hate having to do it too. But my hate is just a second obstacle that I’m putting in my way. Life is already hard enough. Give yourself some kindness and focus on the small things. I bet if you were the last human on earth, you wouldn’t be weighed down by your comparisons and pressures for success. 

You should read Peter Ralston’s book on Ending Unnecessary Suffering. He goes into this stuff on a deeper level. All the best mate.