Testing 5-MeO-DMT

[Nemra]

#1

At the first few moments, my heart started to beat very fast. I thought maybe my body would stop working. It was scary. I felt wanting to scream.

But in retrospect, I think it was about not knowing how to react to what was happening.

I have never experienced clarity that intense.

The main theme was the acceptance of everything and basking in it. Being.

My hands looked very weird to me, as if I were looking for the first time.

I couldn't stop my eyes from tearing up. I sensed unconditional love towards everything.

There were mild visual patterns.

The dose was about 15 mg.

Edited 10 hours ago by Nemra

[Leo Gura]

But a scratch.

You are in for a skull-fucking.

Edited yesterday at 03:25 PM by Leo Gura

[Nemra]

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

But a scratch.

Sure.

I have to be more careful because I'm not at home, and won't be staying long there.

I wish I had easy access to it.

2 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

You are in for a skull-fucking.

Gosh.

The headspace was intense.

These substances surprise me every time.

Never thought that it could be intense without visuals that I get on N,N-DMT.

Edited yesterday at 06:09 PM by Nemra

[Nemra]

#2

I plugged 20 mg.

My mind was reacting negatively towards what was happening in the beginning because I was becoming doubtful whether I could handle the experience.

What was making me depressed in the beginning was that I was noticing the ways that I had been avoiding truth in my life.

I was unconsciously constructing negative meanings/scenarios, and it literally was becoming true. However, at some moment I realized it was being constructed just by becoming aware of it. I'm doing it. I couldn't differentiate between my mind and the experience. It was dreamy. So direct. Serious as hell.

It was very energetic.

People's lives and jobs seemed like little specks.

Edited 2 hours ago by Nemra