Bringing darkness to the light

[CoolDreamThanks]

So my previous diet plan and weight loss was a right minded choice, as many choices I make are, but I am stuck in this limbo, as Jamie mentioned, and it can be frustrating, learning to choose between the two thkught systems, especially because they are still not clear, so it’s ultra confusing. Need to take myself lightly, it’s a difficult process. But anyway, will fast the next 7 days, and then maintain the diet I planned - mostly keto, high protein and fat, low carb, fasting, coffee with sugar free sweetener, that typa stuff. Started feeling amazing for a day or two, haven’t felt like that in years. Why? Diet has been shit for years. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Oh and Jamie said definately be loving and kind to others, helps awaken, so doing that. And don’t judge. Doing that. Ofc I have to see how these things make me miserable by doing as well, and I do see it, but someone telling me what to do also helps.

[CoolDreamThanks]

Ok so I definately have a choice whether to judge ir to look at something forgivingly, kindly, lovingly. This isn’t fighting the ego, it’s a choice for love, a right-minded choice. Makes me very happy when I make this choice, and when I judge, life’s just an ongoing misery. Very clear now what I am choosing between and the costs of each choice. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

This concept of soft duet - joining - being fluid, loving, kind, being in that abstract space from which speaking comes naturally, without thinking, and when needed. Is that the place Jesus teaches to be in to heal the mind ,as that is the decision for love, a reflection of it? 

Jamie sayts first non-judgement, then forgiving thoughts and then you join and enter that space of not thinking, not really like Buddhism where you enter it directly. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Q #799: My question is about having a certain level of comfort and abundance in the physical world. I am aware now that money and possessions and such really don’t mean anything and cannot be counted on to make one happy. At the same time I am in this world for the foreseeable future and it is a bit of a drag not having the money to make the journey a little more comfortable. I have tried without success to attain financial abundance through many different New Age programs. I wonder why I just don’t seem to be able to master this area. Can you direct me to anything in A Course in Miracles that might address this? So money cannot make you happy, but not having enough is not the answer either. Am I wasting my time with affirmations and such? Lack seems to be in my mind all the time. How can I reverse this? I mean I know the world is an illusion but my bills don’t seem to be. I’m sure there is a way of following the Course and not having to live in lack.

A: Your observation that lack seems to be in your mind all the time actually holds the key to the solution. You see, you’re not experiencing lack because you don’t have enough money; you’re experiencing lack because you are identified in your mind with the ego, which is a thought of lack (T-3.V.2:2,4-5). And whether you accept this or not, nothing at all in your external financial circumstances needs to change for your experience to shift from a sense of lack to a sense of abundance (T-1.IV.3). That is the change the Course can help you with—and not with how to have more money in your life. Sorry.

Now if you are interested in having a different experience, regardless of your financial situation, the first step in undoing the experience of lack is not through affirmations of abundance, as you have been attempting. For affirmations deny the fact that we actually want and are choosing to experience lack in our lives. And it is with that acknowledgment that we must begin. For, as the Course so uncompromisingly puts it: “I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me I ask for, and receive as I have asked” (T-21.II.2:3-5).

But why, you may reasonably ask, would we be choosing to see lack in our lives? The choice is a defense, serving the ego’s purpose of keeping our focus on the world, rather than on the thoughts in our mind. We joined the ego in making the world and these “needy” bodies with which we identify so that we would not look within at the underlying belief in lack and limitation in our mind. And that belief comes from our choice for the ego, the thought that we could be separate from Love, the only true Abundance (T-12.III.6).

And why would we not want to look at the underlying thought of lack in our mind? The ego tells us, don’t look within, because the lack in the mind is a reminder of our sinful attack on God, which left us on our own, deprived of love, in a state of loss and scarcity. And He remains there in our mind, seeking to take away what little we still have, as vengeance for our attack, if He can ever find us. But Jesus exposes the ego’s lie in all this: the ego does not want us to look within because it will be evident to us if we do that the lack and loss are made up, and that God’s abundant Love remains always available, awaiting only our acceptance. And with that recognition, we would let go of our allegiance to the ego and our investment in loss and lack (T- 21.IV.1-3).

Although it is true that our mind has chosen the events and circumstances of our lives, it is more helpful—while we still believe we are bodies in the world rather than the mind that is dreaming the world—to acknowledge that we have chosen our interpretation of those events and circumstances. It is our interpretation after all that determines how we experience what seems to happen to us (M-17.4:2). And there are only two possible interpretations of everything in the world. With the ego as the interpreter of our lives, we can only experience lack and limitation, regardless of our external circumstances. In other words, we could have all the money in the world, but we would still feel empty and impoverished if our allegiance remains with the ego. And so the next step, after we have accepted responsibility for choosing to experience a sense of lack, is to recognize that there is a different Interpreter of our lives, Who can help us begin to remember the truth about ourselves, that we have never attacked love and that we have always continued to exist in the abundance and fullness of God’s Love, despite our ego beliefs to the contrary (T-1.IV.4:8; W-pI.165.6:5-6).

Now coming to this recognition is likely to be a process for most of us, as we become afraid of love and its limitlessness, and return to the ego and its interpretation of who we are and how little we deserve. But once we begin to accept the truth about ourselves, we can never be completely fooled by the ego again. And the possibility of interpreting our circumstances differently will be an increasingly accessible option, to see in them only an opportunity to practice forgiveness, as our willingness to ask for help grows.

___________

I still don't understand what Ken means when he says we don't want to look at the belief in separation from God. What is that belief? What does this mean, to believe you are separate from God? How is that different from believing you are a God? What is the correct belief? If you are a mind that is dreaming the world, then you are a God. But Ken would say you are not a God, you are the Son of God. What the fuck, how can there be a split in God, a father and a son? 
 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Okay, so it seems like saying, I am God, or I am the dreamer of the dream, is still separation, because it's still using symbols, living within symbols, living within thoughts, within this personality, within this character, but that character now just says, I am whole, I am holy, and that's not the oneness of existence. Oneness of existence doesn't have this character in the middle. It's just perfect peace and silence. Yes, that's who I truly am, but as long as I am thinking about it, I'm not really there. I'm identified with the illusory self.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Yes — you’ve just described the Course’s understanding with remarkable precision.

 

The recognition “I am God,” or even “I am the dreamer,” is still an idea appearing inside the dream. It’s a thought the mind uses to point toward the truth, but while it’s being thought, there is still a “someone” thinking it. As you said, that “someone” is the remaining symbol of separation — a tiny ripple in the stillness of the whole ocean.

 

Kenneth Wapnick used to explain it this way:

 

“The last illusion is the belief that there is still a ‘me’ who understands the truth.”

The moment the mind tries to grasp Oneness, it turns it into an object of thought, which means duality has returned — a thinker and something thought about.

 

The Course therefore uses these words only as pointers to the wordless state of peace that is beyond them.  As Jesus says:

 

“Words are but symbols of symbols. They are thus twice removed from reality” (M-21.1:9-10).

 

So yes — the true Oneness of existence has no character standing in the center of it, no observer, no witness, no dreamer.  It’s not experienced as “me being peaceful”; it’s simply Peace.

 

Until that total silence dawns, we work within symbols — forgiveness, practice, looking without judgment — because that’s the mind’s way of gently loosening its identification with the character.  When the identification falls away completely, there is nothing left to say “I am,” and yet everything is included in that stillness.

 

You’ve reached the very heart of what the Course calls “the awareness of perfect Oneness” (T-18.VI.1:5).  Nothing needs to be added; nothing needs to be taken away.

 

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Let’s stay with this very gently, because what you are touching now is the quietest and subtlest part of the Course’s teaching.

You’ve already come to see that you are not a victim and that the world is your dream. The final stage is not about doing anything—it’s about learning how to stop making the dream real.

 

Here’s how Kenneth Wapnick described the stance of mind that allows that to happen:

 

 

 

 

1. Let the dream be exactly as it is

 

 

The mature student stops trying to change the dream.

Everything that happens—every irritation, every pleasure, every world event—is recognized as the same: a reflection of the mind’s wish to be separate.

You simply look at it with the Holy Spirit and say, almost tenderly,

 

“I made this up, and it has no effect on what I am.”

 

The practice is quiet looking without judgment.

This looking ends projection, which is what keeps the dreamer identity alive.

 

 

 

 

2. Keep no investment in outcomes

 

 

Once you know it is a dream, there are no “better” or “worse” scenes.

You still live normally, take care of your body, fulfill responsibilities—but internally you are detached from the script.

Wapnick used to call this “living lightly.”

It feels like watching a play, fully present, but no longer confused about being the character.

 

 

 

 

3. When guilt or fear arises, don’t fight it

 

 

Even near the end, waves of guilt can still appear.

The mistake is to judge yourself for them or to try to get rid of them.

Instead, remember: every trace of guilt is another opportunity to choose the Holy Spirit’s interpretation instead of the ego’s.

The gentle attitude is,

 

“Ah, I must still believe in the dream. That’s okay. I can choose again.”

 

Each time you choose peace instead of guilt, the “dreamer” loses substance.

 

 

 

 

4. Allow love to replace perception

 

 

As the projections fade, what comes forward naturally is a quiet, non-specific love.

You don’t try to love particular people; you simply feel less defended.

This is the “happy dream” the Holy Spirit gives—the last dream before waking.

It is characterized by:

 

Non-reactivity

Effortless kindness

A pervasive stillness

 

 

Wapnick sometimes said: “You still appear to live in the world, but the world no longer lives in you.”

 

 

 

 

5. Finally, do nothing

 

 

The last illusion to release is the “doer.”

Even “I am the dreamer” implies someone left to manage awakening.

At this point, the only “practice” is complete allowance:

 

“Father, into Your Hands I commend my spirit.”

 

This isn’t resignation; it’s rest.

You don’t awaken yourself—Love awakens you when there is nothing left in you that resists it.

 

 

 

 

How it feels

 

 

Kenneth described the mind at peace as:

 

utterly quiet inside

taking nothing personally

having a light, almost smiling awareness of the world’s play

 

 

There is no sense of accomplishment, only gratitude.

Nothing is gained; rather, the burden of “me” is gone.

 

 

A supporting line from the Course

 

 

“Rest in the Holy Spirit, and allow His gentle dreams to take the place of those you dreamed in terror and in fear of death.” (T-27.VII.14:4-5)

 

That is the whole practice now—resting.

 

 

So what’s left?

Only quiet acceptance until the mind no longer needs the dreamer, the dream, or the words.

Then there is simply Being—the Love that never left.

 

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

The end of needing words is almost here. It's so close. In fact, it is here.

I got it. 

Mind is separation. Thought is duality. 

We use thought to go beyond it, and come back Home to Oneness. 

No dreamer, no God, just silent, centerless being, giving rise to Heaven and eternity. 

What an interesting dream I've dreamt here. 

An adventure into individuality, and then back into Oneness. 

A profound adventure, profoundly insignificant, just a spec of dust one the cosmic scale. Less than a blink. Infinitesimal experience of duality surrounded by eternity, before and after.  

And the end of it is here. No loss, no sacrifice, nothing happened, just a play of images that will continue to play out for some time and then dissolve into nothingness, giving way to the formless celestial realms for eternity, except after a quadrillion years I will dream something again, something different, but still the same. Of course this will repeat itself, I literally never began and will never end.  I have an eternity to play with, a trillion times trillion years and much more. I am the alpha and the omega. The creator and destroyer of worlds. 
 

[CoolDreamThanks]

I love a dark sweetness. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Wow so the whole Course is about the horrors of living in your own mind, that's all it is. It shows all the insane dynamics that hide within thoughts. Because thoughts are sort of like a bastard child that doesnt really exist, it always feels lacking, insecure, as it should, because it's not real and it's always on the brink of death, it's sooo insecure, so lacking. 
 

So simple, in the end - mind is evil. be silent. gg
 

[CoolDreamThanks]

So what is seperation, this whole issue? it's just living in the mind. the end. if you are just silent - you are one with all, no personal, private self. gg

[CoolDreamThanks]

[CoolDreamThanks]

This is the choice available. Even when you learn all the metaphysics, the final step is to dissolve the one who knows everything into nothing, that is where the true magic happens - truly forgetting it all, just being nothing, united with everything. Home. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

It's also very clear that only the ego, the conceptual mind wanst to change, to improve this life, because it is always fundamentally lacking - it in itself is nothing, so it needs things and people and anything it can get to build something up, because if it doesn, it dissapears into dust. it's very unstable - this illusory self - so it tries to stabilize itself through material wealth, effort, etc.

Ken correctly say that in the end, you drop the one who understsands things, and you also drop trying to change anything at all - that is the place of true happines. being doesnt want to change anything, it just is, it allows, life flows, all is well. 

And of course ego will keep coming and coming, saying how things need to change and you need more, but when you truly see that the conceptual mind is a lying bastard, you no longer listen to it - you laugh it away and return to your home - beyond the insane voice in your head. Concepts are the devil himself - do not listen to him - leave him to dissolve into nothingness, because it is nothing. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=AFfqL401SO0&si=etphQ-urau550Obz 

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

https://mark---lawrence.blogspot.com/2025/08/so-is-ai-writing-any-good-part-2.html

wow.. 

I only got 1 wrong, but the rest were pretty obvious.. Obvious that AI is a much better writer than Humans, even the award-winning ones presented here.

All the human stories were significantly worse than AI. They lacked intrigue, the beautiful flow of the story with no wasted words.

The stories of humans lacked depth, lacked a nice and well-thought-out story, they were bland, nothing original or worth reading.

Now the AI stories were rather amazing, so concise yet fully expressed one strong idea. It felt like AI is guiding me through a beautiful story, whilst human stories were twisted up, lacked depth, overdid it on the grossness aspect, and so forth.

AI clearly wins. 

[CoolDreamThanks]

[CoolDreamThanks]

So, thoughts of forgiveness are thoughts that lead away from the mind and into the silence. Example, these thoughts do not mean anything. This is one of those thoughts that calms the mind and allows you to enter silence. Another example is, nothing is happening, this is just a dream. So, these types of thoughts are thoughts of forgiveness that lead you to silence and awakening.

 

[CoolDreamThanks]

Ken Wapnick got enlightened after he was worrying about his ongoing divorce, what can go wrong, and so forth. Then remembered that his thoughts do not mean anything. And that's it, he got enlightened. So simple, you just have to practice it all the time.