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Who’s Actually Faced God on Psychedelics? No Tourists Bullshit, Real Travelers Only

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I've only taken LSD and psilocybin. And here are the levels of the experiences that I have had. 

1• Body sensation, dreamy but not sleepy.

2•Very deep thoughts, reflect on past, parents and forgiveness of those that hurt me, even forgiving mom and dad for anything I cried about as they raised me. Seeing how I never truly loved them, only manipulated them to get something to serve me. Kind of like how you never truly love or care about someone until they're dead and you're watching them in the casket, except that I was able to have this realization while they were alive.

3• Preparing for departure. Getting ready to surrender all expectations and to be humble and open to what is about to happen.

4• Acceptance of death, suffering and pain. Putting the light of consciousness on the dark side of reality. Embracing all of existence, especially the parts that do not serve my ego or survival.

5• Panic, despair and total break from reality and sense of self. Some people scream at this point, I usually tell someone and hold onto their arm for dear life.

6• Then reality sucks you in like a whirlpool or black hole. I become infinite, God. I'm drowning in an ocean of hallucinations, I become cosmic and universal. My entire sense of existence is cracked and then completely shattered.

7 Complete surrender and utter embrace of reality, you see that your existence was the ultimate trip. You know you are God dreaming up all this and lost in its own infinity and creation. I've even seen God as myself, like a little God and a Big God. The little God is me having these insights and realizations and the big God, completely stoned on the floor, crying, laughing and not in control of the self that I thought I was in control of. Completely outside the survival game. Death is only the flip side of life. There is also a rebirth, a complete transformation. Your egoic patterns still come back but you can never be asleep to them again, even if you do get lost and distracted in the dream. You can never be fully asleep now.

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Only once on 4, 5 or 7.5g of mushrooms (don't remember, wish I'd kept track) did I go through all of that to God realization. It was 1.5 year ago. I think I did scream or grunt on my way to the complete OBE (sorry neighbours :D), infinite hallucination emanating from a single all encompassing point. It's all too faint now but I do remember on the come up being floored on my rug thinking "oh no, ohno, oh no", blind-sighted by imminent death, reality getting asymptotically more real than ever before. My life leading up to this point flashing before my eyes. Then the infinitely unfolding fractal of nothingness that felt timeless and spaceless, a state that fostered incredible insights I'm sure, but didn't allow for any symbolic understanding. Simply too foreign for me to recall even the very next day. Descending from that non-human black hole portion of the trip, I remember moaning in agony as I reconstituted myself, slowly emerging back into my body, feeling metabolically drained perhaps from having been turned into a soup xD. But as time progressed more and more, the "death" feeling sublimated into an existential orgasm imbued with the understanding that life is just god's playground, with a felt sense of self design, of immanence. This was nirvana, bliss, all of it!
When the moment passed I sat up cross-legged in front of the full body mirror, marvelled at myself and started contemplating memories of my family, of childhood and so on. This is where it turned into God realization, where for the first time in my life, after years of listening to Leo harp on about infinite imagination with deaf ears, I really considered the possibility that despite the convincing lore, all of it is imaginary, and in this elevated state, grasped it. This current moment is eternal, anything outside of it isn't real. It's ACTUALLY TOTAL, and unitary, making thoughts of family members or past events just this: thoughts, faint images in the mind. Now I didn't verbalise it like this at the time, I just started saying "oh my god, oh my GOD, OH MY GOD". I lost my historical reality, I was left with pure now, and nothing else. It felt like the correct order of things was reestablished, with that weird sense of familiarity too. All of reality was radically recontextualized (shoutout) into something that is causing itself right now, from within. A miracle, from which emanates a human life with memories and notions of progression, good and bad and so on. It was so awesome to finally understand life!

It took some 8 to 10 trips before breaking through like this.
Ofc I'm not conscious of any of this on the daily. As a human I'm dysfunctional af.

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@- Adam -

That's a tremendous journey you've been on. Keep riding that wave of consciousness, now we have to balance our survival and psychology with our spirituality and metaphysical breakthroughs.

I haven't tripped in 5 years, it's really intense. There is just so much to integrate that doing more psychedelic voyaging can cause mundane survival imbalances because were so overwhelmed and pounded with these experiences and realizations.

Take care man, take it easy but take it..

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Thank you for sharing this was interesting that you experienced this on psilocybin. Can I ask what doses did you take to get to these levels of insight? I've recently bought a 5g bar and I'm slowly playing around by taking smaller doses 1-1.5g in one sitting. I'd like to work my way up to deeper insights. I've never had any type of realizations on either psilocybin or 5meo dmt. Also my conciousness hasn't evolved much since taking psychedelics, I still feel I am s pretty immature person. 

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I'm in the same boat @LoneWonderer. Growing in the sober state, e.g. overcoming fears and phobias, is very much manual labor. Going off into into deep crazy psychedelic trips or even just philosophising about life on wood walks is somewhat of a guilty pleasure when I still have my whole life to build. It can be an avoidance of work that is subtly justified as prep work or consciousness work. I still struggle to execute consistently, to not be addicted to food, to actually pursue my inspirations and do new things.. Psychedelics are great pattern disruptors but only temporarily so. That being said, similarly to what @ExploringReality described, medium dose trips have unlocked higher levels of emotional awareness and enabled me to start grieving ugly pre-teen middle school bullying without even having the intention for it. It's quite magical what these substances can do, so I'm not downplaying it, but yeah it has to be followed up with proactive work on the deep patterns while in the not so elegant sober states, because we're not practically gonna be psychedelically enhanced 24/7.

As for your dosage, idk the concentration of your psilocybin bar but the intuitive thing is for you to up your dosage at a pace you're comfortable with, even though that's always gonna be a bit scary, but that's the thrill of it isn't it? I tend to be a maximalist (an addict), so take that with a grain of sand. In the end it's gonna come down to your own experience with it. You have to do science on it. Be careful ;)

@ExploringReality

Thank you for your feedback 9_9 It's true, as fragile humans we have to delicately balance transcendence with health, work, exploration, socialization, and all the other activities we do to remain sane and grounded so that we may survive. Life is so massive right, and it's all one! It's crazy the delta between everyday life consciousness and the 0.1% of the time were we do a psychedelic and everything stops. I long for that sense of completeness a lot but again, as a late bloomer, I feel like I have a lot to do to pay my "personal development debt", to get my life on strong footing to a level that I'm happy with, with time and a safe space to engage in truth seeking.
I'm definitely due for another trip soon though :x

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@- Adam -

Beautifully said. I promised myself that I will give myself permission to take a pyschedelic again when my finances are at a certain checkpoint in the survival game. Like instead of just tripping, I will treat my life like a video game, reach checkpoints, stats ect before I surrender into the Godhead and completely blast off. 

Always make sure you have a safety net before you go skydiving lol

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Pretty much x)

It's a cool perspective to gamify it, although I still think psychedelics can help along the way if there is space for them. To each their own though, I can also see treating your life as chapters with focused periods where other interests are put on the back-burner.

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6 hours ago, - Adam - said:

I'm in the same boat @LoneWonderer. Growing in the sober state, e.g. overcoming fears and phobias, is very much manual labor. Going off into into deep crazy psychedelic trips or even just philosophising about life on wood walks is somewhat of a guilty pleasure when I still have my whole life to build. It can be an avoidance of work that is subtly justified as prep work or consciousness work. I still struggle to execute consistently, to not be addicted to food, to actually pursue my inspirations and do new things.. Psychedelics are great pattern disruptors but only temporarily so. That being said, similarly to what @ExploringReality described, medium dose trips have unlocked higher levels of emotional awareness and enabled me to start grieving ugly pre-teen middle school bullying without even having the intention for it. It's quite magical what these substances can do, so I'm not downplaying it, but yeah it has to be followed up with proactive work on the deep patterns while in the not so elegant sober states, because we're not practically gonna be psychedelically enhanced 24/7.

As for your dosage, idk the concentration of your psilocybin bar but the intuitive thing is for you to up your dosage at a pace you're comfortable with, even though that's always gonna be a bit scary, but that's the thrill of it isn't it? I tend to be a maximalist (an addict), so take that with a grain of sand. In the end it's gonna come down to your own experience with it. You have to do science on it. Be careful ;)

@ExploringReality

Thank you for your feedback 9_9 It's true, as fragile humans we have to delicately balance transcendence with health, work, exploration, socialization, and all the other activities we do to remain sane and grounded so that we may survive. Life is so massive right, and it's all one! It's crazy the delta between everyday life consciousness and the 0.1% of the time were we do a psychedelic and everything stops. I long for that sense of completeness a lot but again, as a late bloomer, I feel like I have a lot to do to pay my "personal development debt", to get my life on strong footing to a level that I'm happy with, with time and a safe space to engage in truth seeking.
I'm definitely due for another trip soon though :x

Thank you for your advice

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Many a time, with overwhelmingly positive results. The most distinguishing quality is the utter ineffability of the experience, Truth is becoming conscious of itself and ontologically no higher authority exists. But there's also an uncompromising aspect to it, when truly facing God you face all of yourself, which sometimes proves too much to bear at once. That leads to a rabbithole of sovereignty, insanity, the paradox of finitude, and other entangled things that I'm not fully prepared to discuss, in part due to not yet having a clear enough understanding myself. 

Soon I'll publish a few trip reports from this summer, my most intense and dense yet. However I'm already intuiting levels to God deeper still, which frankly terrify me at present and will need to be worked up to with utmost care. But more importantly, once dealt with, I want to share a personal cautionary tale of how the tiniest oversight with psychedelics can have immense yet sneaky trickle down effects on one's life that might take years to even become aware of. 


Whichever way you turn, there is the face of God

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18 hours ago, LambdaDelta said:

Truth is becoming conscious of itself and ontologically no higher authority exists.

Beautiful

Yes it can often come with an ugly feeling of insanity and deep doubt about what's happened. Thanks for reminding me of the seriousness of tripping.
Will be checking in for those new trip reports!

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@- Adam -

Just came here to post that I resonate with a lot of what you wrote. Nicely said:)

The wood walks, avoidance of work, but also helping to process and prepare, manual labor everyday life, the struggle but also the growth. Temporary pattern disrupter, helpful, but not ultimate solution.

I feel you brother! 

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On 9/7/2025 at 11:35 PM, ExploringReality said:

@- Adam -

That's a tremendous journey you've been on. Keep riding that wave of consciousness, now we have to balance our survival and psychology with our spirituality and metaphysical breakthroughs.

I haven't tripped in 5 years, it's really intense. There is just so much to integrate that doing more psychedelic voyaging can cause mundane survival imbalances because were so overwhelmed and pounded with these experiences and realizations.

Take care man, take it easy but take it..

@ExploringReality Hey man, i know you said you havent tripped in 5 years because its really intense. i know what you mean. i've taken lsd and mushrooms as well. I hadn't tripped in years as well. but the other day i got this stuff called XUM from a mycology mushroom growing website. The substance is called metocin. and its incredible. metocin feels like mushrooms but more emphasis on visuals and less on emotional heaviness and "story like" structure to mushrooms. It has a very clear headspace. Psilocin (mushrooms) is 4-HO-DMT and metocin is 4-HO-MET. the only difference between the two compounds is one of the methyls from psilocin is swapped with an ethyl. thats it. Metocin feels like mushroom visuals but has a "synthetic" lsd like polish to it. Its really nice and super cool. Music sounds incredible on it and everything feels very dream like and cartoonish. colors brighter, wavy, etc. 0 nausea. Lasts about 4-5 hours. starts up in about 15-45 mins, peak around 2-3 hrs after taking it. Per your post, it is nothing like breaking through on stronger psychedelics like dmt/5meo/ high doses of lsd, etc. its very mild, but yet profound. Extremely enjoyable, but not necessarily prime for consciousness work unless you are analyzing the dream of life, which becomes very pronounced. I was outside at 3 am on it and it was a full moon. I could feel like i was in a dream of an eerie movie and the moonlight shining on objects had this almost "eerie" (idk how else to describe) vibe to it. But it was beautiful. turning on lights, changed the entire scene. I've thrown up from mushrooms many times in the past, and with this it was perfect. The lack of emotional heaviness that mushrooms bring on, makes this one of my new favorites. visually, It could be thought of as sitting right in the middle between mushrooms and lsd, yet very clear headed and functionable, just wanted to share

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