How To Use Psychedelics To Access And Purge Trauma/Emotional Blockages

[PlayOnWords]

I've been studiously working on myself for a long while now, using various techniques: introspection, therapy (both talking and EMDR), bodywork modalities like Jin Shin Jyutsu, occasional psychedelic use, etc.

Significant progress has been made in my daily life, and I have uncovered and investigated a lot of the shit that got me to the dire place I found myself in some time ago. However, I'm still largely unsatisfied as, in spite of having pieced together the mind-bending puzzle of extensive childhood and adulthood trauma, I still have deep emotions and baggage that seems to shift very slowly.

I often find myself wanting, or needing to cry, but I can only muster a welling-up, and perhaps a couple of solitary tears. I am also often angry.

Anyway, my hope is to be able to use psychedelics to access some of these deep-rooted emotions compassionately, then feel them, release them, and move on. I'd like to ask you for any advice, suggestions, or cautions you have for this undertaking, only if you have some experience in this area. Speculations aren't wanted - I can speculate myself about how it could turn ugly and so on.

Conversely, do you think I have it backwards? Is the 'accessing of trauma and purging it' all an ego game, and should I be seeking mystical experiences instead, which will in turn melt away any trauma or emotional baggage?

TIA.

[Davino]

Take mushrooms, they are very good and guiding for healing. Enter into the experiment with the deep desire to heal and love yourself, to bring the light that in one flash will vanish all the darkness. I recommend to do some breathing, yoga, before the experience to start connecting with yourself. Pro tip: if you want lasting change figure out where in your body is stored that particular trauma and release it. Vice versa, you can start by a located physical tension and by releasing it in the trip all the stored trauma will be re-lived one last time before decompressing and vanishing.

1 hour ago, PlayOnWords said:

Is the 'accessing of trauma and purging it' all an ego game, and should I be seeking mystical experiences instead, which will in turn melt away any trauma or emotional baggage?

No, it's not useless ego game, shadow work and healing is an utmost necessary part in the spiritual path. Not dealing with it makes a bottleneck both in your personal life and in your spiritual path. 

You're having the right intuition and asking the right questions.