Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

Last minute hug and chitchat with the Slovenian receptionist before she went to bed. Took her number. The vibe iz crazy between us! 

Looking forward to seeing her very, very soon. 

[ivankiss]

Not closing on the American chick either tonight. Why? Because I have two much bigger investments in the game, and they're both just around the corner. It would be a shame to mess that up. Also, started feeling a bit dirty entertaining this many girls these days. Even though I barely touched any of them. 

 

[ivankiss]

Yeah. It's time to go. Be back soon. 

[ivankiss]

Every day is a ME day, but tomorrow especially. About to recharge hard. 

[ivankiss]

45min cycling all the way from west side to south east. Checked in. 7 nights. I have a good feel about it. 

[ivankiss]

Ahhh. Yes. Solitude. Finally. 

I'm nobody again. And everyone is a stranger. 

[ivankiss]

Wow... Everything is so... easy. 

[ivankiss]

Terrible karaoke night in the building. 

[_Archangel_]

I Checked in this afternoon  and read the whole thread: as always, you are a pleasure to read, your chronicles are profound and fun at the same time.
My personal arc of action and struggle will start soon again and your attitude is an example. Positivity, resilience, boldness, sincerity and wit. (plus, your music taste is immaculate). Now i disappear, don't want to mess with the flow of the narration...

[ivankiss]

28 minutes ago, _Archangel_ said:

I Checked in this afternoon  and read the whole thread: as always, you are a pleasure to read, your chronicles are profound and fun at the same time.
My personal arc of action and struggle will start soon again and your attitude is an example. Positivity, resilience, boldness, sincerity and wit. (plus, your music taste is immaculate). Now i disappear, don't want to mess with the flow of the narration...

A true blessing, and I accept it. Felt wonderful, came in just on time. 

Will revisit your comment many more times, I'm sure, and bask in that river of love. 

All the best to you, kind spirit. 

[ivankiss]

And now... A text... from one of the girls... from the previous hostel... 

Guess which girl..? 

[ivankiss]

No, not that one. That one was half Italian half Ethiopian. This one is just Italian. And exactly 10 years older. 

I know. I'm surprised too. It's not the Slovenian girl and not even that other one that I struggle to remember the name or nationality of now. 

But I'm not disappointed. Not at all.

[ivankiss]

We're meeting one of these days. Nice. And also, there is no shortage of women in this place either. A brief interaction with a redhead this morning. Feels promising. 

But again, my focus must not be on dating or hooking up now. I must stay on track and do what needs to be done. Time is flying. 

[ivankiss]

I seem to be attracting demons that are seeking redemption, like a light tower. It's like I am guiding them to the other side. I speak their language. They love me. But make no mistakes. One wrong move, one slip, and they'd pull me right down and tear me apart. 

[ivankiss]

Would your 6 year old self feel safe and at peace around you? Would your 80 year old self smile and be proud thinking of you? Are you the one that's holding it all in place, connecting it all, animating it all..? 

Show me. 

[ivankiss]

Show me what you're made of. Show me how high can you fly. How far can your voice reach. Your song bellow the night. 

[ivankiss]

The song that makes the hours go... 

[ivankiss]

Give me just one moment
Through the eyes of the one
In that picture perfect moment
In the life of the one
Who is something better, more than
Anything I will ever be

Give me just one second
Just to touch what I'll never own
Let me have those feelings
Of love that I will never share
Show me your compassion
In the dark of this world

[ivankiss]

I would give it all
For one taste only
Of everything
I would give it all
To become you

Well 
I finally found out
That this world 
This whole world's a lie
And I tried
I would give it all
To become you

[ivankiss]

I did absolutely nothing today, and that's ok. It did not feel right to force anything. The idea is to get up early tomorrow and do a couple of things before work. 

The only thing that's wrong, is feeling guilty for needing some rest, some time off.