Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

It's funny how my remaining 3 or 4 little addictions are the few very last things that kind of sort of still make me human. 

[ivankiss]

But don't worry. I got it all under control. Like anyone else who's addicted to anything.

I'm way too aware that this is all mostly just a coping mechanism for it to stay active and alive for too long. 

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It's not that I can't stop smoking weed and drinking coffee right now, it's that why the fuck would I jerk off to some lame ass porn when I can masturbate this violently and this furiously on the best forum in the entire universe. 

Yeah. That sums it up well. It's pointless. 

[ivankiss]

Besides, it's not like any of it is real, actually. 

No self, no problem. Right? 

 

[ivankiss]

I don't believe in identity, so fucking hard, when someone calls my name in public, I run and hide behind the bushes. 

How dare they assume I exist. 

[ivankiss]

The only time I do belive in identity, is when I'm charging you for my highly advanced spiritual kung fu lessons.

Anytime I need to send anyone my bank account details in order to receive their money. I'll sign my name anywhere bro. 

[ivankiss]

Jk I don't give a fuck about money either. Not really. 

But you all do. That's why I'm gonna take it all from you. Leave you with nothing. 

[ivankiss]

You're already paying too much attention. 

[ivankiss]

Lie awake, still, as I try to breathe
Surely you mean this is something
You're bringing me down to a silent breath
And it's the truth that I want to see

[ivankiss]

I am learning slowly
So what am I to see
Every twist and turning
Through my hypocrisy
Search myself for the reason
Forever loving greed
I am bored of silence
So what am I to see?

[ivankiss]

In the sensory serenity
Could it be, that I'm the next to see?
In the sensory serenity
Could it be, that I'm in ecstasy? 

 

[ivankiss]

It's so good to see
This world is alive
It's so good to see
This world is a lie

[ivankiss]

A decade of diving deeper and deeper, only to resurface. 

[ivankiss]

Full circle. Times infinity. 

[ivankiss]

About to do a hardcore retreat. Spending the weekend in nature, on the country side. Might shut you down as well. 

[ivankiss]

What a beautiful, heartfelt resignation letter, btw. Haha! I'm sure they felt sorry for losing me, at least for a moment. 

I can’t lie. I feel dirty for having to lie to them. But it's only business. That's how things work out there, right? I basically faked my own death, and what I said is not entirely untrue, but really, I'm just going with the company that pays more. Simple as that. 

Plus I could really use that holiday allowance. Thanks. 

[ivankiss]

All in all, things are looking promising. Now more than ever. Not just because I'm going to be earning more money, faster and easier, which will allow me to invest into what truly matters.. but also because I now slowly but surely have enough of half assing things and getting half assed results. 

Going all in. 

[ivankiss]

That is why this recharge is needed. Away from everyone and everything. For coming back stronger, better, faster. 

[ivankiss]

Jk there is no back no same river twice and all that

[ivankiss]

Mmm. I love the sound of a metronome. Truly.