Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

So much happened today at my social spot, I cant believe it. 

So first one girl who is friends with the girl I have beef talked to two girls I am friends with. And I was immediately in fear of what she might tell them. They also seemed a little distanced at first but become as friendly as before afterwards, what a relief. The girl who started the whole attack was also there. Our eyes met for a split second, I looked down, immediately looked back at her to see what her reaction was and she looked down as well. She probably talked to people from the old theatre club. Then I saw my freaking ex with folks from the old theatre club. My ex tried to smash me out of the china round every time and missed every time. I was pretty distanted to her. One of the girls of the old theatre club which I personally had quite a problem with tried to rebuilt our relationsip it seemed like.

Later I saw a girl which I chatted up like 1 or 2 years ago. We got in the final of the china round accidently and it was super warm and sweet which motivated me to go and talk to her. It was super good which was pretty confusing. I think she felt that I wasnt so interested before is my interpretation. 

I also got in the final with another girl I was previously kind of trying to get close to and it was nice. At the end she offered me a fistbump though. That was pretty symbolic, we just fucked it up. But it was a clear signal at least, nothing to get out of that.

And at the social spot its the first time in a long time that I felt kind of safe and grounded.

I might get my home back!

[Jannes]

Played pen and papers for the first time today. Was pretty fun. But half the way in I couldnt concentrate that much anymore. And men am I tired again despite caffeine. 

[Jannes]

I have to vote tomorrow, completly forgot about it. Havent really studied what I want to vote beforehand. 

There are 3 potential candidates for me: the leftist party, the greens and the spd (worker party). 

On "Wahl-O-Mat" I agree with all of them on about 68% of topics. If I remember that was way higher years ago. 

So my heart goes to the leftist party, I have two issues with them tho. For one they are strictly anti military and dont want to support marine military bases here. I think that is foolish, we need military against russia and that part of the country can take part in that. And second, the leftist party can split the population in two because they are very vocal about LGBTQ issues and all that and the majority of the population wont join them on these issues, at least not to that degree. LGBTQ issues is helped only by material improvements and redistribution, awareness for social problems arises from that settledness. That says the political philosophy which I consumed at least. 

The spd would give more of that. It would help with redistribution, housing prices and all that good stuff, it would also be good on LGBTQ issues (although not as good as the leftist) but it wouldnt be as vocal about it and wouldnt split the population with it. So it would slowly kind of go in the right direction.

The greens are also a potential candidate to vote. They are similiar to the leftist and spd in many regards. Generally a bit more left leaning then the spd on social topics probably and with a strong focus on the environement. I think its good, I just dont have a big focus on it personally. Environemental topics should be considered, but one country cant do it alone, it will only burn out doing it.