Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

So much happened today at my social spot, I cant believe it. 

So first one girl who is friends with the girl I have beef talked to two girls I am friends with. And I was immediately in fear of what she might tell them. They also seemed a little distanced at first but become as friendly as before afterwards, what a relief. The girl who started the whole attack was also there. Our eyes met for a split second, I looked down, immediately looked back at her to see what her reaction was and she looked down as well. She probably talked to people from the old theatre club. Then I saw my freaking ex with folks from the old theatre club. My ex tried to smash me out of the china round every time and missed every time. I was pretty distanted to her. One of the girls of the old theatre club which I personally had quite a problem with tried to rebuilt our relationsip it seemed like.

Later I saw a girl which I chatted up like 1 or 2 years ago. We got in the final of the china round accidently and it was super warm and sweet which motivated me to go and talk to her. It was super good which was pretty confusing. I think she felt that I wasnt so interested before is my interpretation. 

I also got in the final with another girl I was previously kind of trying to get close to and it was nice. At the end she offered me a fistbump though. That was pretty symbolic, we just fucked it up. But it was a clear signal at least, nothing to get out of that.

And at the social spot its the first time in a long time that I felt kind of safe and grounded.

I might get my home back!