Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

20 hours ago, Jannes said:

The one girl I wanted to ask for a number today brought her bf/ fuckboy whatever with her again. I thought it was over with them or something. 

And I was really confident I wanted to ask her for her number today, I really pictured her as a viable girlfriend.

Well if she was still with him it wouldnt have changed much, but I could have asked her for her number way earlier. IF I WAS MORE OF A CHAD THIS WOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED. 

It interesting, without youtube to escape, I take all the blame on myself. 

I remember yesterday when I talked to my friend about it, I talked about it super openly. Like I just told my friend my feelings for her and didnt even hide it that much when someone else came into the group. 

I mean there is nothing to be ashamed about about having feelings for someone .. holy chad ..

[Jannes]

Whenever I am really engaged and even stimulated with university work I am also a bit numbed. Just a tiny bit though. 

[Jannes]

Saw a dude who is friends with the girl I clashed with at the social spot. He was with a dudes group. I was packing my stuff and he or someone in the group was like "PACK FASTER". Not sure if they are just natural assholes or if they knew who I was. 

Anyway it left a bit of a shock. 

[Jannes]

I am actually scared as shit because of that encounter. 

[Jannes]

11 hours ago, Jannes said:

I am actually scared as shit because of that encounter. 

It still sits in my bones. 

This is just a dimension where a smile fades.