Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

She just texted back that she doesnt know what I am talking about and cant help me. 

Fucking gaslighting. 

My first instinct is to write you are terrible and I hope we never see each other again. 

Then I think that this is maybe an emotional reaction that doesnt solve anything. But really what can I do, she is not set on this point and there is nothing I can do. 

[Jannes]

I came up with a much better answer, even made it playful. 

Sometimes a breather safes your skin. 

[Jannes]

Still I have a very bad feeling about it, I think I went to far, I digged to deep. 

Preparing for impact. 

[Jannes]

A good thing in my life is my stretchy belt though which I just got. It's so comfortable, even when I sit. You gotta experience the good things while they last. 

[Jannes]

THIS game

talking about a alternate reality where you can collect yourself

it helped me a lot years ago when I played it

 

Edited Saturday at 04:16 PM by Jannes

[Jannes]

There is so much inner tension going on inside me, I am constantly bumping into things and letting things fall. 

My system is working overtime to process. 

[Jannes]

That I have been binging youtube for 5 hours doesnt help that case .. although idk it might even help. 

[Yimpa]

6 minutes ago, Jannes said:

That I have been binging youtube for 5 hours doesnt help that case .. although idk it might even help. 

As long as it’s Good content 👍

[Jannes]

14 hours ago, Yimpa said:

As long as it’s Good content 👍

Mostly politics so meh 

[Jannes]

I fucked up so badly with my messages. Paddled back today like a little bitch and made some critical errors along the way as well. Super 60 iq move. 

Well I did it and I need to live with the consequences now. 

I need to reground myself. 

[Jannes]

Were back baby!

 

[Jannes]

Saw a few stylish dudes today while shopping. I am always like I dont really need style but then I see an outfit perfectly put together like a piece of art and then I want it as well. But it costs money, is bad for the environement etc. .. 

[Jannes]

Talked to a few yesterday about what happened which is pretty huge for me. I didnt dare to before. And it feels good.

Now the boyfriend of my friend also wants to know whats up. 

[Jannes]

I have no real concept of what I want from my outfit but sometimes there is a spark. This is a spark. 100 Euros though.. 

[Jannes]

5 hours ago, Jannes said:

Talked to a few yesterday about what happened which is pretty huge for me. I didnt dare to before. And it feels good.

Now the boyfriend of my friend also wants to know whats up. 

So I talked to him about it. And he replied that he experienced the same. Multiple women there accused him of sexual harassment. I assume he implied that he didn't do shit to deserve it. I am loosing my fucking mind. This place has to be nuked with truth. 

[Jannes]

RV notes from a few days ago which seemed fire (I should really use my Laptop for my RV targets, so I can use my phone to write them down right away)

I wonder if my RV blocked when my ability to awaken is blocked as well

Later yesterday I imagined my very next move and thought like I was god

Frame over truth with the wpmi-girl all the way

[Jannes]

Whenever I speak my mind and get a pure conscience I feel an even bigger inpurity because I start to believe that I am not evil anymore.