Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

I dont really know what to make out of it. 

[Jannes]

So the other thing.. 

A letter arrived. 

..

It almost seems like a blue and red pill are presented to me now. 

[Jannes]

I feel a lot of emotions right. I kinda want to coil in and sleep. 

A friend of mine just told me she was going to a party evening. I am not feeling it at all. 

Now she says she is bringing a friend with her which I want to bang and who probably has the same interest. 

This is such an awkward energy shift. I really committed to being a sad fuck right now, what the hell men. I don't know what to do. 

[Jannes]

1 hour ago, Jannes said:

I feel a lot of emotions right. I kinda want to coil in and sleep. 

A friend of mine just told me she was going to a party evening. I am not feeling it at all. 

Now she says she is bringing a friend with her which I want to bang and who probably has the same interest. 

This is such an awkward energy shift. I really committed to being a sad fuck right now, what the hell men. I don't know what to do. 

If somehow all the girls know each other and she is now interested cause the other girl makes that WhatsApp pic I am going mad. 

I haven't decided on anything yet but I am becoming increasingly sleepy. It's probably dumb to pass this chance. 

[LordFall]

You gotta go for the reference experience; why not? Worst case leave after like 1 hour is what I usually tell myself but usually it's fine enough to stay for a bit. 

[Jannes]

1 minute ago, LordFall said:

You gotta go for the reference experience; why not? Worst case leave after like 1 hour is what I usually tell myself but usually it's fine enough to stay for a bit. 

That's never how it's going for me, I usually stay the whole night then and that means I am fucked up for tomorrow. And it signals I am needy when I jump at the first opportunity. (to the girl) 

I wrote her and asked how it's going atm. No reply after 10 mins yet, will see. 

[Jannes]

I needed an hour to transform my inner state lol. From enjoying swimming in my inner pain and sorrow to going into fight mode. 

[Jannes]

Okay so she writes it's cool there, the music is good. 

I don't feel the dancing part.

The thing is that she kinda wanted to cheat with me on multiple occasions. That I am cool with her pretty much hurts my integrity. Well the only reason I would go is because of her friend. Which could be a lure. When I flirted with another girl before her she didn't seem cool with it so there is little reason to believe that she brought her friend for me. too much thinking 

[Jannes]

The adhd mind can grow till you are 30 in the decision making region. Thank god 

[Jannes]

After carefully selecting my outfit so I wouldn't look like a afd voter I got to the place at around 3 am. The floor was only open for about 30 more mins and my friend was already gone. What a waste of time. 

Although the spot is cool. I didn't stay there for longer then a minute but I will keep the place in mind for the future. 

[Jannes]

The hot girl wrote me back that she is still there!!! 

I didn't check properly. 

Well I could tell her that I am getting hungry and we could meet to get a snack. The party should be over any minute now. Why the hell is my mind working so sharply when I just want to get to sleep.. 

Edited 9 hours ago by Jannes

[Jannes]

The party is over, steps are initiated. 

I hope I fail so I can get some rest and sleep. 

[Jannes]

Thinking about some companies name while I wait for a possible response. 

Eh I put too much into it it feels like. 

Anyway I only found 3 companies with Goblin in there. I want a sorta weird name for my companie.

I am really bad at finding names though. 

Will need to work with chatgpt for that. 

[Jannes]

The name Gobliss isn't taken yet. 

A mixture of Goblin and Bliss.. meh

[Jannes]

Okay so she writes that the party was great but doesn't comment on me saying that the walk made me hungry on which she could have replied that she is hungry as well. I think I was to subtle.