Finished the LP course

[Jannes]

If I simply unsubscribe to all the Youtube channels I would block then I can use the Youtube site relatively normally, clicking from one channel to the next. I can just not watch the videos on Youtube. Hmm maybe there is even a way around that when I only block the main youtube page specifically and not individual links. Hmm ..

[Jannes]

I keep on having good ideas today. 

Just tested the epilator on my hand. I thought it would be painful but almost not at all and super fast. Its a neat look. 

Now I thought about lasering my red spots on my face. I dont have any acne anymore since years but the redness remains. I can laser that away, why the hell havent I thought about that. Will have to look at the cost, but its probably worthed. 

[Jannes]

Cut my front hair as well and picked out some hair directly above my upper lip. 

Did some calculation that this is probably worthy for the rest of my life. If it doesnt grow back as plentyful maybe some beards will be less doable but I dont think I want them and all the other ones will be much easier and will look cleaner. 

[Jannes]

Because my focus is so much more spread compared to other people I entertain things which other people would filter out. Even things which I dont entertain as my own opinion. This is just me expressing my self but it triggers other people. 

[Jannes]

I need a device blocker for tonight. 

My sleep routine is unworkable for living with mortals. 

[Jannes]

3 minutes ago, Jannes said:

I need a device blocker for tonight. 

My sleep routine is unworkable for living with mortals. 

Done!

From 1am to 6am. In that time frame my Laptop is completly unusable until I unblock it with a text which takes 1 - 3min. I can just go to an AudioBook if I need some distraction, but that will be less impactful then my laptop. 

[Jannes]

So somehow I can watch videos of the Youtubers I unblocked on Youtube, even though the video links dont imbed the Youtuber themselves. It seems so at least. 

Now I downloaded Unhook so I dont get video recommendations for videos that could distract me. 

I am still very unsure on how I want to use Youtube with all of these options from now on. That I can watch Vlad Vexlers videos now seems like progress. 

[Jannes]

Nice the midnight blocker worked as intended. When I came home after a midnight gym session my Laptop was blocked so I listened to an Audio book on my Smartphone which made it logistically possible to go to bed and turn down the light which made me sleepy naturally. 

The only thing which needs some overwork is that I literally cant unblock my block. I loose complete access to my Laptop, even the access to unblock the block during that time. I dont have a perfect solution to it yet, the best thing I came up with now is a two layer system. I duplicated the block but gave it 1min of allowance for the blocked time period and no password to block it. And the old block I gave a 10min allowance. So I could use the one minute to unblock the dublicated block and then go on to unblock the old block (which has a long password) in the 10min allowance. Lets see how that works.

[Jannes]

Yesterday I ended the Audio Book "The 5 Love Languages". Liked the book, but really there was only one main insight in the whole book, which is that people express and receive love differently. We need to understand each others love language to make each other feel loved. 

Those are the five. I am still contmplating what my main love language is:

Words of Affirmation: probably important
Acts of Service: no idea
Physical Touch: kind of important
Quality Time: kind of important to very important
Giving Gifts: probably not important

And I dont understand this part about Giving Gifts: It is said that being there for someone in a bad time seemingly fits that category. That would make it maybe the most important thing but I would put it to quality time.

[Jannes]

Yesterdays note as I couldnt access the forum:

I didn't write my old theatre club friend whom I appreciate very much and I don't know why exactly. 
Well for one he is connected to the old theatre club, a powerful force which overwhelms me. 
Second I generally have a lot of problems letting people close to me. 

Now I get the thought that our encounter was mostly about him seeing that he was not the problem for me leaving the old theatre club so he was good.

Not free love but a developed version of conditional love perhaps.