The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

They will manufacture the poison, then feed it to you and then sell you the drug to try and eliminate the poison. That's how the food industry and the pharmaceuticals work. 

Read the fine print. Such and such may cause cancer and is harmful if so and so. Here, come and get some, while they sit in their luxury mansions reaping in the benefits from us suckers. They chemicalize the food and then sell us the treatment after we get sick. Not just food now, air fresheners, soaps, body lotion, sun tan oils, dish detergent, toothpaste and everything under the sun. Feed the kids yellow#5 then treat them for ADHD. Shelves filled with these dyes that fucks up the endocrine system feed it to kids who blow up schools and malls then weep over the dead bodies.

We want to control guns not what we produce and give to society to fuck us up. Poor guns. A piece of machine. Some shit piece of tool that can sit in a closet and rot is the problem. While we give that brain something to see that isn't there. Some delusional thought process and imagery that goes along with that because the bodies system is off whack and consciousness is now fucked in it's way of seeing the world and now it wants to act up and take it out on life and everyone around it. Let me stop. 

[Princess Arabia]

People will hear me talk or write about non-duality, the Absolute, existence, reality, etcetc and think I'm parroting from some guru or teacher or whomever yet I can have a journal talking about this stuff everyday all day and in my own words with understanding and clarity. Of course, I listen to non-dual speakers, (not that many) and I have a been in this field for about 6yrs now so i have something to compare to and i have a way of discerning my own truths. No such thing but, hey, language is limited. Not saying what I say is the case, but it's from an understanding, experience, knowledge and all that is illusory anyway.

[Princess Arabia]

Watch out for these silly teachings.

You are not the doer. How to realize you are not the doer.....do this, and proceed to list a bunch of exercises to follow and do. 

God is all there is. You must do this to realize you are God. Well, is God all there is or what.

Higher and Lower self. What. I have two selves now. First there's a self, then there's no self, then there's no self self, then there's a higher self and a lower self, then it's lose the self, then it's You're God. God sure has many aliases. It likes to act and be all sorts of selves.

Let's hide out and play inquiry. Hide and seek. Who is that that's witnessing me doing crap. There's someone g that I can't see that's witnessing me taking a shower. I wonder if I will ever find that something. Oops...it can't be found because it's invisible....IT'S ME. Then who is that taking a shower. That's the body with no one inside. Inquire into who is noticing that pussy getting wet. You naughty boy you awareness. Awareness is a pervert. It likes to play peek-a-boo.

Reincarnation. Come back as a different person from the no person you were in the first place. Two other no selves are going to have sex and birth another noself  that'll be you, then you'll be inquiring into who am I, but previously you knew you were coming back to a noself.

Karma. What you do is going to come back to bite you in the ass but you're a no doer. 

Shadow work. The shadow of a person who's God is creating all types of havoc in God's life. Oh I forgot, you're only God sometimes. Notice how your shadow is always behind you and only visible to you when you look at it. Just don't look and you won't need to work to get rid of it.

Spiritual bypassing. Honk honk. I'm passing by what's actually happening and I want to imagine something else to happen.

That's enough....

 

[Princess Arabia]

It's all TRUTH. There's nothing but TRUTH. What appears is TRUTH. That lie you told your gf is TRUTH. It happened, didn't it.

[Princess Arabia]

This shit is so simple. It will take an infinite about of years and decades to figure out what's going on here if you look anywhere else than what's appearing. You can never find anything that's not appearing. You lost your pocketbook. You didn't find it, it appeared. It was never lost. Where was it. It was the same place where it was, nowhere and everywhere. It appeared outta nowhere and now it's everywhere because where you are is everywhere and that pocketbook is no different. 

Go somewhere now. Aren't you there. Go somewhere else. You're there too. Everywhere you go you're there, so how can you not be everywhere. Where is the place you were at prior to where you are now. In memory, so it's nowhere. Get it. You're nowhere and everywhere.

[Princess Arabia]

Everyone around you is affirming your existence. If there were no other, you wouldn't exist because there's no way to stand out apart from yourself and to exist means to stand out.  Look at me, I stand out. No you don't. Show me how you stand out from everything that's around you. Take yourself out the picture and show me you apart from what's in the mix. You want to go meta. That's the lucid dream. You're not lucid dreaming. You are the lucid dream itself. 

 

[Princess Arabia]

Who Am I?

KNOWLEDGE......that's it. Without it, i'm nobody. Paradoxically, without knowledge there's just a body. Body doesn't need knowledge to function. I do. 

[Princess Arabia]

Spiritualists have found clever ways to be God, human, no self, awareness, consciousness and everything else we claim to have, be and own simultaneously. We are one busy creature. No wonder we get worn out and get tired and confused. We have invented all types of shit to fit into the story of me. Without these stories, the me cannot sustain itself. It depends on all these stories to survive it's illusory nature and it will defend these stories till it can't anymore. It will and can construct idea upon idea and mix it into it's make up to fit perfectly and nothing can tell it it's all made-up shit. Even the nonbelievers of this shit will construct ideas upon ideas as to why this shit doesn't make sense. It is the story, so it doesn't matter what it says, it's just a story.

Life cannot go wrong. Even the storyteller is life creating stories. Even the 'non-present person' is life appearing as not being present. The suffering and the anxious and depressed is also life appearing as.....so life cannot be escaped. Any change, that's life, a.ka. THIS the Absolute. Whatever you call it. This is total freedom being bullshit and corrupt. It's so free and liberated it can appear as bullshit crap. Only humans judge things as right or wrong or imperfect. That's also this appearing as imperfection. Jesus Christ, this sucks if you ask me. I'm selfish and i want to see things go smoothly. This is also freedom talking. Can't go wrong. Problem is there's someone there observing this shit. That's also freedom. Go away freedom. That's also freedom. This, the absolute, all there is, cannot be escaped. Go fuck yourself. That's also this. Take responsibility for your foul mouth and irresponsibility, that's also this appearing as. Hey you, reading this nonsensical post that has no value, you're also freedom reading freedom. This fucking shit tries to elude itself but it only ends up chasing it's own tail. It doesn't realize it until it does and that's realization on it's own realizing without anyone behind that.

This shit is infinite and timeless. No wonder it becomes a crazy lunatic. Jesus, I would too if I was infinite and timeless. Well, I am, except I don't know that and never will. Knowing doesn't know anything it is knowing itself. No one knows anything simply because there's no one to know just knowing being itself. 

Edited August 27 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

Why do we need Self-improvement classes, workshops, courses, books, speakers and forums and not self-destruction ones. Why is self-destruction the default and we have to work on self-improvement. Notice this. Notice the default in a lot of things. We just take things for granted and not question things. We are born into the mirror of life and cannot see what's on the other side. There is no real other side, but that's why it's called a dream. The dream is what sees what's not really there.

 

[Princess Arabia]

One can sit in their room on the computer and be in a whole new world from that alone. That is the illusion. There is no world. Can't you see this shit. I will post a video of a man getting killed and someone will say, I thought you said there's no one and there's no world. Hehe. The delusion on their part is why this is possible to pull off. Logic and sense-making. Thank God for the senses. We'd all be vegetables. Can't see beyond the human perspective and what's logical and makes sense. I don't look all the time for what makes sense (sometimes, but not all). I look at what is, and compare with all the knowledge I've acquired not what makes sense. Like a robot tapping into it's data base. 

Edited August 28 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

THIS FORUM IS SCREAMING THE "No me" syndrome. Screaming it. Not a day and barely any post goes by where it's saying "there is no person in this body. Any advice asked, any problem pointed out, any symptom of any behavioral disorder, any "I don't know what to do" post, anyone that cannot remember anything, anyone that feels lacking of any kind, anyone that feels unmotivated, lonely, empty inside, the list goes on. "I hate the world" suggest no me. If there was an actual person there, there would be no need to hate the world because the person could "unhate" the world, instantly and wouldn't suffer because of that hate. I could write a book on this, it's so obvious. The misunderstandings of what this means or is is also prevalent and widespread. Mot too many really understand what this means. Then they'll ask then who are you talking to, or why not just be silent or something of that nature as if there's a person there to do that as an option. Even them asking the question is no one asking that. Makes no sense, i know, but that's why it is so ingrained, feels real and so believed in. It's insane. There's no benefit to knowing or understanding this and there's nothing negative to come from not knowing this. Either way, it's all fine and nothing would change either way.

Loneliness is felt because the me needs to keep it's existence alive through the others it projects. There's no one there, but it needs the other "no ones" to feel like a someone because it's the other "no one's" that created it in the first place - hence "social creatures". 

Let me just put it this way, life screams "no me". The me is just too blind to see because everything now is a me projection. No me, and it's just what is. I'm not sitting here as a no me saying there's no me here or that my ne fell away or that I died it that one should do the same. I'm saying there's no one doing anything period. Even the me or no me syndrome. It's all life being life. 

[Princess Arabia]

All the attempts at meditation practices, the spiritual practices and work screams there's a no me that's not real. The me wants to feel better about it's existence. Why would something that just is needs practices. Why does life need to practice itself. It's all life but this illusion is what's claiming to be doing something and gaining and benefiting from it's doings. Ok, hear me out. Meditation is happening. No one is meditating. The me, however, claims to be meditating and now it becomes a practice for a goal and an achievement. This is what I mean. I'm not saying meditation is bad or it shouldn't happen, I'm saying the claim that one is meditating is the illusory person in the body claiming that. No one is meditating. Meditating is happening. 

Same thing with thoughts. No one thinks, thinking happens. No one Jumps, jumping happens, etc, etc. Life is a verb. Issing. Being. No one has ever done anytning, EVER. Whatever is happening is happening all on it's own. Even the person claiming to be doing so and so, is happening all on it's own so nothing needs to or can change about that. This is freedom at it's finest but not even that can be owned or claimed and that's why we seek it. If freedom wasn't already the case, it wouldn't be saught after. Freedom seeks freedom BECAUSE IT CANNOT KNOW ITSELF. IT CAN ONLY BE ITSELF. The human energy of knowing is, so therefore, it seeks because it wants to know itself. It can never find it because IT IS THE SAME THING IT SEEKS.

This brought me to tears because I realize the predicament the me is in. Yes, its in a predicament. The thing it looks for is doing the looking. There's nothing it can do to not look. The very act of not looking is it's death. 

[Princess Arabia]

I cry sometimes because I realize how stuck THIS is. It tries to free itself but it can't. It cannot go anywhere because everywhere it goes it is it's fucking self. Sob sob. I'm not speaking of something outside, I'm referring to this, what is, what's appearing. It is this. All there is. You, me, the cockroach, the snail and the butterfly. All looks dandy and shandy.

Check out that Torture post by emotional mosquito. It's THIS trapped in it's own demise. It thinks there is an escape or a coming out of somewhere where it doesn't have to think about or witness torture. It is a person in form expressing itself as compassion and care for the human race but at the same time BEING the torture it so very well hate and disgust. Actually it is thinking itself thinking about people being tortured and it's the thinking that it's being that is trapping it into it's own demise. Thinking thinks it's separate from what it thinks about and now it suffers it's own thinking and now makes a post about what it's thinking and asking advice on how to deal with thinking.......about torture in that case. Sob sob, this shit is infinite.

You want a spiritual awakening? Awaken to torture. NO. You can't handle a Spiritual Awakening. You'll tell me to stop and be considerate of other's feelings while they suffer their own demise. That is also THIS. It can't escape itself. 

I write about this shit all the time here and people will read this shit and think it's some non-dual spiritual bypassing nonsense but then go on the forum and read a post that is the very epitome of what's being said here but have no clue because they've separated the Absolute from the relative and see worldly matters as separate. A post about what to do about fucking torture is the Absolute trapped in it's own web seeking relief from itself. There's no difference between that and the essence of the post by emotional mosquito. It's the Absolute in human form feeling trapped in it's own demise which is thinking and thinking is thinking about torture and needs help with not thinking. How fucked is that. How can thinking not think, it's it's nature. It can't be anything other than thinking. 

Everything in life is screaming either the Absolute basking in it's own wonder or terrified of it's presence. It tries to escape by seeking; but that seeking is also the Absolute, so it tries to use itself to get away from itself.  This is all that's happening here in life the Absolute (energy) playing around with itself, lost in it's own dream and seeks the end of this dream not realizing it is the dream. A dream that's not really happening. How fucked is that to try and end something that's not really happening. Nothing is. Jesus Christ, this isn't funny because it is a felt dream. The feeling is the dream. I feel so therefore you feel. No you don't I project feelings unto you because I feel. I can't take this. Emerging in me is a sense of unrealness that i can't explain. I can't escape the reality of life but there's something that knows this is all an illusion and isn't real. There's no battle going on just a feeling of hopelessness that this will never feel free because that is DEATH and there is no feeling in death. Sob sob. I'll have to feel all the suffering and misery and sadness just as I feel all the joy and happiness. I feel, so I feel it all. I cannot feel freedom because freedom is being it all. Freedom is the pain and the suffering and the joy and the happiness and this body. It's also the space that seems to surround the body so where is the space between freedom and how I feel it. There's none. 

 

[Princess Arabia]

"You are one with everything" is a very misleading term. It suggests there's a you that is one with everything. Think of an apple. Would you consider the seeds one with the apple; the skin, core, the fibre it has, the vitamins and everything that makes up the apple. They are not one with the apple, they are the apple itself. We don't look at an apple and say "the vitamins are one with the apple. We cannot separate the vitamin from the apple then put it back and now say it is one with the apple. There is no vitamin without the apple. Do we see vitamins floating in mid air. No but we see humans walking around; therefore, we say we are one with the Universe. No, we are the Universe/Reality/Existence...whatever, itself, but that's just a perspective coming from the whole itself so it's really nothing and means nothing.

[Princess Arabia]

The me is constantly working on itself. Even the very act of surrender is the me with it's tool kit. You will not find a me that didn't or isn't suffering that can use the teaching of surrendering as a tool. It will bring out that tool every time it relapses, and it will, because it is not the one surrendering. Surrender is arising all on it's own and without a doer surrendering. The person cannot surrender to anything because the person isn't there. Surrender is 'surrendering'. When surrendering isn't what's happening because nothing happens all the time and every moment because THIS is "issing", it's dancing, its a verb, something else will take it's place like maybe frustration which would then be frustration "frustrationing".

The me mistakes all this as it is doing and it is being. So now it believes it has surrendered, when surrender is it's own 'entity'. The tool kit for the me is constantly full. It uses all the tools in life at it's disposal. Spiritually speaking, the tool kit is endless. All these practices and processes it carries on with is endless. It's like a menu. What should I choose to do this month, it says. I'll go to vissapana retreat or a silent retreat or do some psychedelics or meditate, or read a book or stare at a wall or do breathing exercises or be still and silent, or chant some phrase, or do semen retention, or do nothing.....I could go on, the list at the buffet is endless all while it's trying to get rid of itself to awaken to it's so-called true nature.

It's constantly on the watch for conscious and unconscious behaviors. Am I doing this consciously, how do I react in a conscious way, you're being very unconscious if you sit at that bar or play that song or argue it will tell itself. It will not apply for certain jobs because it is on the conscious watch out guard. I mean it's neurosis is endless and has made it into a slave against itself and without realizing it. It's tiring and exhausting. It's not until it has exhausted all it's efforts that it finally gets to R.I.P.

[Princess Arabia]

I've done a whole 360 of consciousness and I've realized that it doesn't exist and is the dream of awareness and separation. No one is conscious or aware of anything. It is the illusion.

Note: I will not be contradicting myself when I speak of being conscious and aware of something experientially. That's the dream and storyline which is very much alive and kicking and can arise all on it's own and without anyone doing that. Illusion and dream is also Absolute. It's all complete and nothing escapes or is excluded.

[Princess Arabia]

Life is like a video game in that there are stages that we pass through in the game and reach another just to get through the stages without actually going anywhere. Where do you get to in a video game but to another stage while just sitting your fat ass on the couch. That's life. Nowhere to get to but back to life itself. No wonder there's insanity. The illusion of experience had to be. Don't take it too seriously. It's pain we're avoiding and pain sucks, but it's part of the game. No one wins or loses because it's infinite. There's no end to the game of life because it never gets anywhere. 

[Princess Arabia]

I'm starting to see how reality seems to be a numbers game in more ways than one.

 

 

 

 

[Princess Arabia]

The more I investigate myself and reality, it's the more I see how delusional I am. Not so much in what I write or observe but in how I am being. It's like the beingness is deluded on it's own. Like it's fooling itself. Like it's in it's own dream. Like it's oblivious. Like it's deliberately avoiding itself. Like it wants to not come out of it's bubble. Like it's comfortable being deluded. Like itls tricking itself on purpose. Like it's pretending. Like it knows but pretends to not know. Like it gets a kick from surviving. Like it just cannot confront it's own self but not doing it purposely. I don't know, these feelings come up, something is weird about this. Like every part plays a role in this. Like everything is involved in it's existence and I mean everything. Even the paper on the floor. The garbage and the old lady walking down the street. Nothing is exempt. Like it all plays a part in how I got to where I am and my make-up and even feelings. Even the wind and the rain. I feel it's all a part of the picture. I just can't see it all just being me. Everything is involved; and if a piece was missing  I wouldn't exist at all. Weird.

[Princess Arabia]

Look at a body. Where is the person there. It's the most obvious thing there is in life but the most overlooked. Overlooked by who? The no self. Hehe