The Princess Diaries

[Princess Arabia]

I don't want anything from life. Why? It'll just take it back.

[Princess Arabia]

There's nothing for me here. It's all a dream. Life isn't a dream. I am. That is all i need to see. All I need to see is that I am wanting to know. I want to know, and if I want to know imma keep wanting to know. Knowing never ends. Knowing is what got me here in the first place. Without knowing, I am nothing. I ate of the tree of knowledge. It is growing inside of me. It is an illusion. That is the only illusion. I can see clearly now, the rain is gone. All obstacles in my way. All of the dark nights are shining now. It's gonna be a bright, bright, sun shiny day.

 

Edited May 8 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The reason why there is no blueprint for life is because there is none needed. Do you need to write a recipe for a cake that's already baked. You are being eaten. Eaten alive. Eaten up by the very thing that brought you here. It knows how to eat. It knows when, why, how and where. It's chewing and biting and swallowing. It's vomiting and regurgitating and spitting you out. It's devouring you and lighting you on fire. It explodes, it creeps, it falls, it gets back up, it showers you with gifts, it shows you love, hate, envy, distress, jealousy, anger, rage. It gets anxious and depressed. It shouts and it whispers.

Actually, it is being every one of these things. It's bipolar, schizophrenic, ocd, autistic, a clown, a serious chad, a non-serious chad. It's here today and gone tomorrow. It forgets, it remembers, it loses sight and gains it back with insights, it appears and disappears, it takes shape and it loses its shape it gets sick and regains it's health. 

It does all these things all at once. It appears linear and it doesn't. It's ungraspable and it is. It's anything it wants to be. It's sane and insane, cruel and evil and loving. It doesn't care. It's manic. It's psychotic, narcissistic, it's kind and compassionate. It's mad and lunatic. It's crazy. It's fucking nothing and it can be anything. It's scary and it's fucking frightening. It's a beauty and it's charming and wonderful and it's..........how can something like this have a fucking blueprint. 

[Yimpa]

Namaste!

[Princess Arabia]

Notice how cats and dogs and chimps and babies don't ask for food or anything. They demand it. My cat doesn't ask for food, she expects it. If it isn't there, she sits at the food station till I bring it over or she walks the fuck away and says kiss my ass. We'll see how long this shit takes. Babies holler and cry in a way to not be ignored and alligators take that shit.

Humans are the only species that prays and begs for shit. 

[Princess Arabia]

If you're looking for Infinity, study the forum. Look no where else. Actually, your hand, the wall, the car, the cockroach is Infinite but it's harder to see in spacial objects. One hand, one car, one tree are spacial. The forum is all that in one. Not sure if that makes sense, but that's what I think about it. Hundreds of people, ideas, thoughts, expressions, locations etc etc all into one forum.

Edited May 8 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The worst thing that can happen to the individual is it gets what it wants. It's like a gambler that hits a few times. It knows it's possible and so it keeps at it. Like beginners luck. Most people don't get addicted to gambling because they never win. It's because of the wins and the brain's snapshot of the images surrounding those winnings and the felt emotions why they keep going back for more. This is the essence of the individual, more, more, more, because it tastes so good. 

It doesn't realize it's the wins, the gratifications and the confirmations that keeps it in its own cycle and why it feels like it is suffering when it doesn't get what it wants. Notice the big man never rests. While most who have nothing or less is usually the ones more satisfied with not attaining or as some put it less ambitious. The scale varies. Fear steps in, insecurities, instability, feeling anxious, need for more safety.....all those things get bigger and bigger the more the individual get what it wants. Doesn't mean don't strive or want or wish or desire, just letting it be known why humanity is the way it is somewhat and it's so hard to see through the ego's deception. It is self-made and feeds off it's own success and verifications.

Edited May 8 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

The reason childhood years can seem to be the best years of our lives is that as a toddler and a child, neither sees meaning and purpose to life. They have no reason or purpose for playing and basking on this beautiful mess. The moment purpose and meaning gets introduced....ooops..here it comes all the tension and whatever else arises. Now there's a meaning and purpose for everything and we wonder why we're so tense. Even in dating, there are blueprints and directions and manuscripts and labels and warnings and coaches and abbreviations for this and that type.

[Princess Arabia]

I know I can be a nuisance to the egos that just wants to be stroke. I charge for that. Here I keep it real. If you think this is the fake me, no in real life I'm faking to seem real. That's authenticity and recognizing truth within an illusory world of fakeness. I feel so bad for those trying to be authentic and true in the world of impermanence, trickeries, corruption and egos trying to stay alive. Don't you realize you're fighting an illusion. The ego wants to be accepted so badly it will trick itself into believing it's real. I don't even have to pretend. I just be myself. It's automatic. It's a response. It's not on purpose. I'm as real as it gets when I'm being fake. The ego ain't real it's fake. So we're just being authentically fake. All this stuff doesn't phase me. I'm through with all this pretending in life unless it's beneficial and I'm turning something into something else. I'm not stuck on authenticity. There's nothing authentic about you. Nothing authentic about anything. We just follow shit blindly without really thinking it through. All one has to be is observant and take themselves out the picture and realize life isn't personal.

[Princess Arabia]

The world/earth/reality/life/existence seems balanced, right? Not in the sense of people and their bullshit with wars and fighting murders, or hurricanes and earthquakes and tsunamis etcetc, just in the sense of the sun doesn't turn cold, the moon doesn't turn into an orange, the sky doesn't flip upside down where the ground is above and the sky is below, you don't see a bird with an elephant trunk or a stone doesn't start walking. Shit like that. Weird stuff like born with two heads and no hands or two sexual organs exists, and with two different color eyes, and things I've never even heard about, but the above-mentioned things I'm sure won't happen like the sun turning into an ice bath and the moon into a pigeon. Get the drift?

Now, what makes you think you can word yourself into balance. What makes you think you can put on paper using thoughts to fit yourself into existence how it already is. Do you think you can strategies your way to fit into life. To technique your way into what your mind thinks it needs to balance out the equation. Do you see people falling over left and right and busses flying up to the clouds out of control, or someone's head just bursting into 1000 pieces into thin air and splattering the neighbor's lawn. No, everything is in tact. We can't talk our way into how this is going to make that and how that is going to turn into this. Yes, tell me how to bake a cake, give me the recipe, but do you really think you figured out how this recipe made this cake. How flour and eggs turned into cake. How milk and sugar added will become pound cake with some butter added. No. You didn't figure out this shit. Tell me the logistics. Tell me the science of it all. Tell me how you made your hand move. 

 Yes, ask questions, ask advice, teach, coach, write books, lecture, tell me how meditation works, tell me what to do to wake up, recommend stuff, do all those things, but do you really think you know anything. Do you really think you can tell anybody anything. Do you think all you're saying is you figuring shit out to pass on to teach anyone anything and that you did all that by yourself just because you think you learnt how to read and write and some intellectual knowledge. Do you really think you're telling anybody anything they don't already know. 

No one can learn anything they don't already know. It's impossible. I'm not saying they consciously know it or are aware that they know it, but it's because it was already "embedded" in the CODE. Already within the "blueprint", so-to-speak of life. When you teach me how to bake a cake and I understand what you've taught me, for example, it's because that was already embedded within the system. The process that seemed to happened for me to understand that didn't really happen. It only seemed like a process. It was instant. There wasn't really any teaching or learning going on. Just a bunch of words uttering and a person who thinks they're listening and comprehending on their own, and now they believe they understood all on their own and now they're able to bake that cake because they're a genius or they're capable. No, that's just a front. A fucking play, a pretense.

Life is a pretense. There's nothing or nobody doing anything. Do you think this is some non-dual bullshit. Think again. Matter of fact, don't even think because you can't even tell me how you're thinking. You can't tell me the process of how you're able to think, but you want to tell me your thoughts. Yes, tell me, but don't for once think that you're telling me anything i don't already know. I already know everything and you know nothing. You already know everything and I know nothing. That's the fucking paradox. There's nothing anybody is saying, teaching, advising or lecturing about that the other don't already know. No one knows anything but yet everyone knows everything. IT'S ALL FUCKING ONE DOING, BEING, BECOMING IT ALL. It's total. I will continue to do and be whatever I will do and be, and so will you. Life goes on, but swallow that pride and don't think there's anything intelligent or smart about you. YOU'RE NOTHING AND A NOBODY. THAT'S TRUTH. You're but an empty shell and these words mean nothing. 

 

[Princess Arabia]

By the time Truth gets figured out, I'll be in the grave being Truth. I don't see what's so hard to realize there's no such thing as TRUTH. If it's being used as an expression, fine; but standing on it's own, there can never be "A TRUTH". How can there be in Infinity. Ok, Truth is NOTHING. Same thing. 

Everybody is talking about this Truth, but they don't know what it is. If you know what truth is then what is there to keep talking about. How can you be searching for something but you don't know what you're searching for. What if it's staring you in the face; you wouldn't even know it. If I'm searching for something, I at least must know what I'm searching for. If I'm searching for Truth, I must at least know what it is. Is it lost. It's not material, so I'm using the mind to search for truth and when I find it, the mind will tell me. So the mind must know what truth is already.

 I don't know, I'm just reasoning this stuff out. I am trying to make sense of all this stuff so don't take what I'm saying literally. It's the mind talking.....i think.... I don't want to sound Absolute like I'm dead on and know what I'm talking about. These are just thoughts coming out. This right here looks like truth to me. These writings, these words, this here what's happening right now as I'm typing. This seems like truth. Maybe define what type of truth. What Reality is, what is the Ultimate Truth what is really going on behind the scenes, I don't know. What kind of truth, what are you looking for. To me, truth is what is happening. If that's not truth then what is Truth.

[Princess Arabia]

I still have to finish watching Leo's new video. I'm only half-way through. It's pretty good. He's crying a lot in the video. He seems very passionate about the topic. Whenever he cries, i feel like I wanna cry. His crying moves me. It's a different kind of emotion. It touches a part of me that doesn't get touched very often. I think only Leo's crying can bring that out. It's like the cream of the crop type emotion. Laughter is good, but the emotion that gets touched inside of me when I see Leo cry, surpasses laughter's impact. It doesn't feel good or bad. It's like an indescribable feeling. Only when he's talking about Reality, though. If I see him cry, if he falls off that scooter and bash his head, it won't mean the same thing. So it's not about Leo at this point, it's about what he's talking about that brings on this emotion when he cries. It's weird. I stare right into his eyes in these moments and all i see is rawness. Directness. What is. No interpretations. All I see is what is when I see him cry talking about Infinity. That's the impact Infinity has on me. 

[ExploringReality]

@Princess Arabia  Yes, when I heard him cry, all time stopped, I stopped what I was doing and tuned in. His tears really moved me within and I deeply felt that same intense raw essence that moved him to tears. I can't explain it,  but your words deeply reflected what I felt from watching him.

[Princess Arabia]

If it doesn't go for everyone, I'm not buying it. If ignorance plays a part existentially for someone's well-being as far as where they end up after they die, I'm not buying it. If a life of partying drugs, loose sex and hedonism means you're going to be left behind on the existential level as opposed to meditating all day and going to silencer retreats and ashrams and Satsang's, I'm not buying it.

Yes, as far as the experiences goes, more money means better living conditions, more freedom and more comfortability, better education means better jobs and more intelligence, more friends mean better social life and maybe less loneliness and having knowledge about health and practicing it may make for better health and feeling great and also looking great.

When it comes to Spirituality, though, if one has to know something, be better at something, learn about something, practice something to be ahead of the game and that's considered ahead of the game to win at something on this level, I'm not buying it. No one should have to be left behind in this way. No one should have to know anything, be taught anything and should have to do practices to be one with everything already. Worldly experiences are different. A bum is on the street where it's uncomfortable while the regular guy sleeps on a bed. Maybe life circumstances got him there. Knowing those types of things is beneficial to not get in the dumps - maybe, as life can hit anybody at any time no matter how much they've tried to win at it.

As far as being more conscious and awakened, it makes for a better experience, but if one is not high-conscious or highly intelligent, it doesn't compute that they're better off on an existential level than those who are not. It just makes for a different and maybe more pleasant experience and that's it. Nothing more. The same as how more money may make for a more enriched experience of life and maybe help more people financially and take a load off in that way. 

No one is closer than anybody else at so-called "reaching God" just because.......whatever you're doing in life is what you're doing. Watching porn or watching Moojii won't get you any closer or make you any further away. You might have a fucked up brain, need therapy, sex life sucks or whatever but you're still not fucked in the end or going some other place that the Moojii watcher is going. 

Bottomline, if all is not included in the message, I'm not buying it. If I have to have someone tell me who I am or am not to reach truth or be closer to the divine, i'm not buying it. If it's not already the case, then no one should have to tell me how to get there because no one was there when I was born, no one will die with me and no one lived my life for me. That man didn't bring me here so why should he have to tell me about me just so I can know truth or awaken to who I am or whatever. The neighbor who knows nothing about this stuff shouldn't have to. If God brought them here, then let God take dare of them. That goes for everybody. Why the fuck does my cat get a free pass and just eat and shit all day and still be aligned with truth but I gotta meditate and go to silent retreats just to be aligned. Makes no sense. I love this stuff and i love it for it's own sake, but everyone, including the drunk, should be ok, except for life experiences and even then its just a temporary experience that doesn't last forever. What lasts forever is who and what everybody already is and at the same level. You're in no better position than the one that does not know this stuff, it only makes you more knowledgeable. This is how much I love this stuff. I refuse to think it's for a selected few and not for everybody. I refuse to see anybody being left behind. This is why I see clearly that all is one and no one is excluded from infinity and all is the divine. All is everything and those that doesn't realize this, doesn't need to. This was very random and I don't know what the heck I was saying, but it felt right. I won't even proof-read because it was in the flow and I don't need to correct any mistakes when I'm in flow.

[Princess Arabia]

2 minutes ago, ExploringReality said:

@Princess Arabia  Yes, when I heard him cry, all time stopped, I stopped what I was doing and tuned in. His tears really moved me within and I deeply felt that same intense raw essence that moved him to tears. I can't explain it,  but your words deeply reflected what I felt from watching him.

❤️❤️

[Princess Arabia]

Trying to stay in the present moment is futile. I won't bother with word gymnastics today as this term is widely used and recognized. Staying in the present moment or even being present suggests there's somewhere else one is trying to get to. Why else is one practicing staying in the moment or being present if not trying to achieve something or get somewhere. It's understood the present moment is all there is, so why is someone practicing to get to where they already are and trying to achieve something that's in the future. 

Think about it. Maybe for peace or less suffering or what have you not why you're practicing being present. It is for a gain. To gain something that's somewhere else but you say now is all there is. If I stay in the present moment, I'll.....whatever that is. You're not being in the present moment, you're trying to get something from it. You're living in the future, not really but you're implying there's a real future but doing a practice that suggests the now is all there is. . Do you see how futile and useless this is. Most of that shit is useless when you really investigate them deeply.

You don't have to try to bring the mind back to the present. It already is. Absolute is being a memory in the present or being the past in the present. It is the Absolute appearing as a memory or a past. It's also that which is trying to present the mind. It's all an appearance anyway and doesn't really matter. 

[Princess Arabia]

you ain't seen nothing yet till you've seen this quote. This sent chills down my spine reading it. 

 

Edited May 14 by Princess Arabia

[Princess Arabia]

I remember once I had as my signature "Unconditional Love Is All There Is". I look around and all i see is love. I see it in different forms, textures, shapes and sizes. Different sounds, meanings, appearances, responses, comments, arguments. In narcissists, psychopaths, haters, racists, bigots. In animals, trees, plants and even water. It's everywhere. Even in sicknesses and diseases. These things represents love, are expressions of it. 

I used to fight with a particular forum member all the time. They would pick on me endlessly and would say some pretty mean things and we would go back and forth all the time till I realized it was useless. Right before they disappeared from the forum (haven't seen them since), they sent me a p.m apologizing for their behavior and sent me love which I sent back. I remember saying to them I knew you had it in you. It wasn't just with me, they would fight with just about everyone they came in contact with, actually no, but regardless without saying too much after that p.m. they were gone. Might be back, but maybe I was a vessel. I'll leave it at that, but it was strange. Even recently I had a little squab with you know who and it ended with both sending love. It's not the sending of the love that I'm really referring to, but that the arguments were about love disguised as whatever the trivial squabbles were about. All this stuff is around us. We just have to be observant and curious enough to recognize them and understand people are acting with good intentions to see through the masks of existence.

[Princess Arabia]

Perfect example of Infinity is the vegan debate. I think it's one of my least enjoyable topics to discuss.

[Princess Arabia]

WHAT IS TRUTH:

Truth is what's happening. It's that simple. 

The complicated version is that it's not happening to you, through you, by you or for you because you, the person/human you think you are doesn't exist. The body does, but there's no one inside these bodies doing anything at will. Life is happening all on it's own and it's impersonal. You can test this for yourself.

Notice how you plan things and they don't go as plan. If they do, it's because it's life doing it anyway. Notice how you're addicted to things and cannot stop. It's not up to you because there's no you doing it. Notice how you've been worrying about things all your life and life just keeps on going. Doesn't matter if you got your way or not, tomorrow still comes, next year still comes, a decade goes by and you're still trucking on; worries or not. 

Notice how you want things to go a certain way but it doesn't all the time. Why can't you always get your way. Why not. Whatever answer you give here will just be a story. All Stories. Reasonings. Excuses. Notice how unpredictable life is. 

When you move your hand, that's energy. Speak, walk, run, dance, any movement, that's energy. It's raw, it's direct. Neither dead nor alive. It's not polarized. It just is. There's nothing alive or dead. Things just are. A beating heart doesn't mean aliveness. It just means a heart that beats. A dead person and an alive person are the same. One is seemingly dead and the other seems to be alive. Both just are. It's not that energy is alive and energy is dead. Both are energy. Just energy. A dead person still rots. It's never still. It's simply another appearance. It's all appearances. 

What is, is. That's truth. There's no arriving at Truth. Truth is all there is. If a person tells a lie. That's truth. Solipsism just means there's only ONE. No separation. It's all one movement. There's no "he's me and I'm him because neither exists independently of each other. There's no one asleep and no one awake. All your awakenings are just experiences. It's all empty. Void. Means nothing. Yes, it means everything to the individual dreamer but that's about it. It's still what's happening. Everything that appears is empty, Void of any substance or meaning. It's all stories.

There's no God forgetting and remembering. Wait..,yes, the Absolute does appear as forgetting and remembering, but it's just an appearance. The Absolute can appear as anything. The Absolute is God, if you prefer. Same thing. I like the Absolute. Oh my fucking God. There's no God and then there's an appearance. It's God appearing. One. Direct. Why do you think everyone "dies". No man makes it out alive because there's no one to make it out alive because there's no one. Isn't this obvious. You will always be fearful and suffer, so don't even try it. There's no one there to stop that or to say I'll never suffer again. Fear happens and suffering happens. There's no one to say anything. You don't realize youre not there. Take all your stories away and there is just what's happening. You don't want to realize this so you keep on keeping on. 

THAT'S FUCKING TRUTH.

When I say you, i mean the Absolute. It seems to appear as an opening that doesn't recognizes itself. It's the energy that's doing that. Not "you". Whom am I speaking to, no one. It's so fucking obvious. Pay fucking attention, you Absolute fool you. 

One trick. Notice how whatever mood you're in, you'll see people in that same mood all over the place. Watch whatever you're going through in life in the moment, you'll start to see replicas of it everywhere. Just start noticing.

Edited May 17 by Princess Arabia