March | Pisces | 28 🌌♓

[Sabth]

Now my ears still hurts😡

[Sabth]

I shoulda leave sooner and protect my ears~ 🙄

[Sabth]

Damn .  They're ruining my ears. I would never expected that my ears could be damaged going out tonight. My ears is still hurting. I'm better off at home like this. 

Never happened before to me. I always take care of myself. Damn. I wonder how others could take it. Or are they all ruined? Not worth it!!!

[Sabth]

Even though , I would like to get a perfect score, I regret going to the mosque tonight. The first half was good. But then, when they changed the person, it became too bad. 

I wish for a heaven where everything was just soothing and ideal. I wish for such places. But now that my ears is no longer good, I don't know what to say no more. Everything would be useless. It's too late. My ears is already hurting. Only if today didn't happen~ .

No amount of good thing in the future can change it. It's already destroyed. 

[Sabth]

I wish it didn't happen. 

[Sabth]

I will live by my own term from now on. 

You can't predict what you didn't know. So I don't know. I will always prioritize my comfort from now on. It is a sign. That something is right. 

[Sabth]

I have more and more regret in my life. how good was my life before this night. My ears are good. I am in good comfort. I'm healthy. Now... It's still painful.  Hours have passed by. 

Edited March 11 by Sabth

[Sabth]

Now I wonder if my father had been hurting all these while. I have yet to see him since last night. So I don't know. Idk his reaction or his experience. I have messaged him immediately. 

[Sabth]

I wonder if our eardrums have ruptured yesterday..  

[Sabth]

Now I really respected king Salman's decision to lower the volume of the speakers in Haramains mosques

I wish to go to a small villages mosque. It must be good. Like somewhere. It supposed to be a calming experience . Not ruining your eardrum . I thought when I wake up from sleep my ears would be okay. But it's still not.. 

[Sabth]

I should never tolerate it. 

[Sabth]

I want to have a million followers and a million USD. 

I want to go to Egypt. 

I wanna go to Mecca and Madina. 

I wanna go to New York. 

💕

[Sabth]

1 hour ago, Spiritual Warrior said:

Principle 3: Decide What you Want

Exercise: Write down 30 things that you want to have, want to do, and want to be. Here goes: 

30 things I want to have:

1. A big house with a big lawn, long driveway, fireplace, lots of room for entertainment
2. An inground pool with a diving board, outdoor bar, and hot tub
3. $2,000,000 in my bank account
4. A beautiful, smart, funny, highly concscious girlfriend
5. 6 pack abs, a chiseled chest, defined back, large thighs and calves
6. A job that gives me the freedom to do whatever I want
7. A wine cellar filled with natural, organic wines from Europe
8. My own wine farm in the backyard
9. A king sized bed
10. A Shiba Inu puppy
11. A library full of lots of books and tables and comfortable seats
12. A housecleaner and maintenance guy to take care of my yard
13. Reverse Osmosis Water Filtration System
14. A cool, colorful gaming computer with a comfortable chair and sick gaming room
15. 8 really nice expensive tailored suits
16. A Tesla
17. A ski house in Vermont or New Hampshire
18. A rolex watch
19. A full head of hair until I'm 60
20. A long, full beard like Rhett from Good Mythical Morning
21. An emotionally mature, highly conscious, fulfilling intimate relationship
22. An organized and clutter free home / living space
23. 20 / 20 vision
24. An unwavering drive to help humanity evolve
25. A complete understanding of spiral dynamics and how to raise other people to the next stage
26. A physical copy of every book on Leo's book list
27. A highly conscious, highly ethical, high impact job
28. A consistent sleep schedule
29. A fulfilling sexual life and high sex drive
30. A highly attractive face and body

30 things that I want to do: 

1. Make love in Mexico
2. Salsa dance in Spain
3. Make pasta in Italy
4. Drink wine in Austria
5. Win an award at a dance competition
6. Own a highly ethical, high conscious, stage yellow or stage turquoise business
7. Make an impact on people's lives
8. Skydive
9. Read all of the 5 star books on Leo's book list
10. Fly in a helicopter
11. Meditate on a mountain top for 10 days
12. Do a Vipassana retreat
13. Understand what death is
14. Ride a horse
15. Hunt - shoot an animal
16. Eat street food in Japan
17. See the needle in Seattle, Washington
18. Fly first class
19. Fly to Hawaii
20. Do karaoke 10 times
21. Have a one night stand
22. Have sex 10,000 times
23. Go to Antarctica
24. Go into outer space
25. Access infinity
26. Eat an ass
27. Take 5 Meo DMT
28. Write a book
29. Speak in front of thousands of people
30. Have a three way
31. Race in a tough mudder
32. Do a shirtless photoshoot and post it on my Instagram
33. Have a samadhi experience
34. Donate $100,000 to charity
35. Make an impact on the world before I die
36. See the northern lights
37. Throw lots of parties at my impressive houe

30 things that I want to be: 

1. Mature
2. Intelligent
3. Wise
4. Funny
5. Witty
6. Clever
7. Strong
8. A body-numbing lover
9. A caring, loving, emotionally strong boyfriend
10. A caring, loving, emotionally strong friend
11. Loving
12. Compassionate
13. Confident
14. Free flowing
15. Emotionally mature
16. Emotionally available
17. An attentive listener
18. A professional dancer
19. Charming
20. Spritually Enlightened
21. A stage turquoise thinker 
22. Playful
23. Happy
24. Content
25. Stable
26. Stoic
27. God-realized
28. Focused
29. Organized
30. International Dance / Dating Coach
31. An attentive, caring, fun host
32. Fun-loving

I will try to do this : 

30 things I want to have :

1. I want to have a good body.
2. Good eyes.
3. Good ears. (Ah too bad I already don't have it since yesterday)
4. I want to have a Sony ZV E1
5. A Dell XPS 17
6. Roberto Cavalli
7. Dior
8. Gucci
9. Michael Kors
10. Celine
11. More wardrobes. 
12. Ice skate
13. More inline skates. 
14. Swarovski
15. A studio apartment or a medium sized house. 
16. Skincare
17. Aha a car! 
18. I want to have a good educations. 
19. I want to have a lot of money. 
20. I want to have a good relationship. 
21. I want to have a daughter. 
22. I want to have a million followers (?)
23. and a million USD. 
24. I want to have a drone. 
25. I want to have (don't know what to list no more)
26. Esprit
27. Backpack
28. A vase
29. Mastery 
30. Knowledge. 

 

30 things I want to do :

1. I want to go to Egypt. 
2. I want to jog. 
3. I want to skate in Canada ice. 
4. I want to experience Christmas and winter in New York. 
5. I want to go to Korea. 
6. I want to do my nails in Korea.
7. I want to buy a lot of things. 
8. I want to hike a lot of mountains. 
9. I wanna go to Mecca and Medina.
10. And to buy a lot of things. 
11. I want to make a lot of films. 
12. I want to meet a few people. 
13. I wanna go to a future Gd concert.
14. I wanna go to a future Taeyeon concert. 
15. I wanna go to Japan in April. 
16. I wanna run. 
17. I wanna go horse riding. 
18. I wanna go to a highland.
19. I wanna go diving (not really)
20. I wanna make a lot of films
21. And I wanna make a lot of films. 
22.  

 

30 things I want to be : 

1. I want to be a millionaire. 
2. I want to be intelligent.
3. I want to be athletic. 
4. I want to be good looking. 
5. I want to be a mother. 
6. I want to be a university graduate. 
7. I want to be a God worshipper.
8. I want to be a student.
9. I want to be a model. 
10. I want to be a good daughter and a good friend. 
11. I want to be rich. 
12. I want to be rich. 
13. I want to be rich to 30. 
14. I wanna be fluent in reading Arabic. 
15.  

 

Edited March 12 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I can't list more. 

[Sabth]

I really like myself yesterday. Who are these people to spoil my hearing? 

 

[Sabth]

I hate myself. I really hate myself , for not moving despite the speaker right above me. Listening to all that ear shattering loud speaker. I really hate myself. For continuing. I should have moved immediately. But I stayed. I really hate myself. Now I have a bad experience. For this whole month. Or who knows for ever. 😠🙁

[Sabth]

Now my ears are uncomfortable. And I can't be a good worshipper either in this condition. ☹️

[Sabth]

I like my body before yesterday So much!. 

[Sabth]

Misfortune.

[Sabth]

I don't like to ruin my body.