Truth Addict

I never knew this fact. But no, I think it's not possible for enlightened people to do what he did. If he was into this work, he probably must had half-assed it and become a zen-devil.

Yes I think I need to do some long retreat, but it's not possible right now because I have my college and my job and I need money. As for conceptualizing everything, that's the only way I used to look at things through, it might take some time to break this addiction. Psychedelics are not an option for me (at least right now), I want this process to happen naturally and I'm not in a rush, though I'm dying to know the Truth. Eventually I will use some of them, but for now I'm not ready yet. Thank you Leo ? Actually it doesn't work on me anymore, it used to work many times before because I was searching for how to become enlightened. Now I use to conceptualize the answer automatically. This situation sucks, but thanks anyways. Okay thanks I'll try mindfulness meditation for a week and see the difference. Every time I self-inquire I discover some new obstacles to knowing the Truth, it'll be useful to list them, so yeah I agree. Most of my beliefs about reality have collapsed after I watched the "Self-Deception" series for Leo. Still I fall back from time to time, but generally I understand that it's just a deception, it's not real, it's only happening in my mind, which enlightened people say it doesn't even exist, and I can relate to that possibility too because I know there's no proof of the brains either. This series helped me to break many many addictions. It's good to know the Truth. So I think it's a matter of time. Thanks for your help ?

@Nahm I'm not sure when I started meditating, probably nearly two months. I don't do any specific technique, I just let go and focus my attention on my sensations (mostly breathing) and when I get the complete no chatter phase I turn my focus on nothing. Actually I started to feel more relaxed and rational in my ordinary life. Also I started to have more control over my behaviors and decisions. And yes I think that the mind is trying to push it's agenda. But at the same time I'm burning inside to get enlightened. I want to experience the truth that all of you folks talk about. I appreciate your opinion.

The ego is not about hunger at all, it's all about greed. And in fact your true self needs to survive for a purpose, just like your ego has to die for you to achieve your purpose.