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@Shin Is that a general description or are you currently doing 2 hours a day?

@Tistepiste Having a real glimpse of your true nature will motivate you more than anything else. When you see it, it is beyond anything you thought of before. This intrinsic awesomeness and beauty of reality will draw you towards it because it is the truest there is. Now, many people might have told you the same. Either this is enough for you to stay on the path or it isn't. As soon as there are glimpses, this will give you the push you need for being more serious. Not guaranteed though of course, every psyche is different. I think Tolle said if you glimpse it once there is no going back. Even if the journey takes your whole life and many years of ignoring it. I think this might be true. I'm not directly recommending this to you, but psychedelics seem to be most fruitful when it comes to taking a look at what lies ahead. Research them thoroughly if you're interested.

@Sven I heard Matt Kahn saying in a video I watched yesterday "Every outcome in your life is destined to be. What is optional is how little or how much you choose to learn from it." That's a biggie for me. Of course it's important to be nuanced in what to take away from that statement. So looking from the human asleep perspective which most of us are in, what else can we do but learn the most from what life gives us. If you have glimpses of truth, you see everything is perfect the way it is. It could be no other way. So this leads to, what you so rightly said, the most important part of the journey: Letting go. Trusting in your Self as God. Almaas calls it "basic trust". It's also the intrinsic faith growing and growing the more you see reality for what it is. It's crucial for this whole journey, no effort can give you this, no thinking can give you this. As an ego, we can just choose to learn from whatever happens. This is no justification to not live healthy. Surrendering and at the same time choosing to live in alignment with what you DID experience to be true (whatever lifestyle and habits that may require) is the way to go. Oh and love of course

@Serotoninluv Man I just love how you write about your experiences. Thank you for sharing so much in this forum

Hello my friends. I went through many cycles of healthy routines -> going back to destructive habits -> going back into healthy routines. I'm not blaming myself, that's exactly what I needed at the specific moments. I'm at a point now though where the destructive things don't make sense anymore, even if I'm rather unconscious / emotionally aroused / confused. There is still a huuuge pull towards these things (especially NOT doing healthy things and replacing them with unhealthy eating habits, fapping, overindulgence in media) but I just can't get over the edge to indulge in them anymore now. I know there is no value in brute forcing myself to be healthy. It has to come from the inside. Discovering Matt Kahn and healing emotionally (+ many other things like psychedelics and meditation and contemplating) over the last weeks has brought me to this place where all these motivations come from inside. Knowing this background, I decided to up my game again. There is no reason anymore not to take this as the most important thing EVER. The last month I meditated daily for at least 1 hour, did some Yoga Nidra, phsyical Yoga here and there, reading a lot. Before that came many periods of on/off meditation (30-60 minute range) for about 4 years. I got plenty of time on hand but not endless (Studying Psychology + working part time). So my plan is to implement things daily again: (Priority one): - Meditation (1 hour, maybe more) - Physical Yoga / Stretching / Mobility - Bodyweight training - Wim Hof Breathing - Journaling - Reading (Consciousness, health etc.) (Not really practices but healthy habits): - Cold showers - No fap - Super clean eating - Actively loving myself and others aka opening the heart This already is a lot to get into a day (actually I would like to fit all of that into the morning except the stretching which I always do in the evening) but with a fair amount of discipline and prioritizing this should be no problem. Now here are some things I'm not sure how high to prioritize and if it's really that *crucial* to implement since it feels like all that could become too much: (Priority two): - Kriya Yoga (~60 minutes) - Creative Expression (Just jamming in my DAW or drawing or something like this) - Yoga Nidra (Super healing for me, nothing comes close to this level of relaxation) - Heart Yoga (basically physical yoga with a focus on heart meditation, it's beautiful) - Extra dedicated time for purely self inquiry (My meditation is kind of a hybrid of do-nothing and non-mental self inquiry) - Energy work / Tai Chi / Qi Gong, something in that direction - Shamanic Breathing (aka replacing Wim Hof with that) I think less is more in a way. All practices would take like ALL my time and there might be days where I just can't put everything in. So I'm thinking about taking it slowly, doing only the upper mentioned things and maybe integrating one of the lower things once every while. To crystallize this, these are my questions: 1. What do you think of this approach in general? Is my prioritizing off in your opinion? Should I switch one thing with another? 2. I read all the Kriya books and also had like 2 weeks of a daily practice. In the books he advises to do it twice every day. This would be way too much considering all the rest. I just think if I might do it, I should not skip a day. Is once every day still effective? I know for myself, the practice alone is not *necessary* at all. But how powerful is it? Is it that powerful that I should do anything to fit it in my day? My intuition tells me no. 3. I also have a feeling I should concentrate more on the meditation and make it 2 hours a day or even more (like two 1 hour sessions). What do you think? 4. There are things I want to minimize to create space for all this stuff. This would be: friends & family, art consumption (movies + fiction books). Those things are still very important to me. I'm scared if I commit myself too much I might not do these things enough which might create unbalance. Any advice from your experience? 5. I think about cycling some things like: Extra reading, creative expression, Yoga Nidra, Energy Work. This way I could fit it in but not do it daily. Do you think some of those are a must for a daily routine? 6. Any healthy habits you would add? I know this is a lot. I don't expect anyone of you to read all this. It took me some time to really decide to ask you guys because I hold your opinions in high regards You are kind of in the same boat and advice from your side would mean a lot to me. I love all of you deeply <3 Especially interested in your opinions @cetus56@Shin @Nahm @Serotoninluv @Charlotte @Joseph Maynor @Leo Gura @Jack River

Go for it, 150 is not a low dose but nothing to be scared of either. Really ground yourself before and during the trip, especially if you feel panic or fear coming up, always remember your breath. It's there to guide you if there is no other way. Enjoy the ride my friend

That sounds exciting, thank you for sharing Definitely an experience away from all the comfy theory. It's hard to say how "far" he really went of course. But that doesn't matter. It's so crazy if you walk down the street you have no idea who is a realized being, ...or a mass murder. Makes all those internal judgements about people looking so arrogant and insignificant.

Maybe it's not the "optimal" way that you responded to them. Don't think about this too much. I had (and have) very similar situations. In the past I always tried to find out what I did wrong or why they are so ignorant and how I can approach all this better. The truth is, social interaction is the open field of this whole game. Thinking and practicing and reading etc. is preparation and work on yourself, and it is very important. But when you're out there talking to people you are exactly where you are and you get exactly the situations you need to grow. No need to blame yourself, no need to blame other people, no need to overanalyze. Just be who you are in the moment and if you just see the situation for what it is you will always see what you need to learn. Take the pressure from yourself Just play the game, there is no need to prove anyone wrong, but there is also no need to agree if you don't. Often it's a question of what do I (really want and need to) express, how do I express it and where is it coming from? When it is coming from love and compassion, there will be no problem anymore. That's what we all have to learn. And remember, the anger is also nothing directed towards YOU personally. It cannot hurt you. Matt Kahn opened my eyes when it comes to social interaction, so if you don't know him yet I really encourage you to look into his videos. <3

@Nahm Thank you so much Yes, retreats are definitely something I kept myself from doing. Will implement them in the coming year. Interesting. Would be very helpful if you could specify what you mean by "the puzzle". Because that's important for me personally too, to really define what I want out of life. I think psyche deconstruction is also deeply interwoven with spiritual practices and psychedelics. So although you rightly account less importance to them, since they add to the big 80%, they might be of high value in this whole approach right? @Joseph Maynor Thank you for sharing this. Nice work!

@Mikael89 My friend There are many scientists talking about it, I think you might not have done the research you could have. In Tao this wisdom is used for millenia and many other spiritual traditions see the effect of no ejaculation for example. It definitely does have its place and is known around the globe. Also, why are you cursing and judging so harshly? Let's talk about this calmly and openly. Maybe it doesn't work for you - no reason to assume it doesn't work for other people. For me it definitely works. It also affects everyone differently since different symptoms come from years of porn consumption + masturbation. One facet being the amount of ejaculation. Another facet being the psychological problems resulting from porn consumption. And there are many others. Namaste and enjoy your day <3

Finally began again. It's crazy, when shifting from an almost daily "routine", even some days without it are giving me so much more energy and good mood. Wish all you guys and myself the strength we need

I deeply recommend Matt Kahn. He helped me more than anything else to look at the healing process in a healthy way. Because yes, you can be very unhealthy in the way you are treating your inner life and misinterpret it. It changed everything for me. Look into his YouTube videos, pick a title that speaks to you.

As far as my own experience goes though nothing comes close to this. I love piano, but this must be my very favorite album ever. When I tripped once, I plugged in this album and I instantly felt perfect peace and stillness. Next thing I remember I regain consciousness on the LAST NOTE OF THE LAST SONG. I was gone for the whole album. Literally gone. My face was washed in tears of utter bliss in nothingness. Even remembering this brings up so many feelings.

This is pure bliss: And this is for sure one of my favorite albums ever:

Is anyone having private contact with @Baotrader since this post? Please tell me someone is texting or talking to him/her. Namaste my friend, may you be blessed with joy, love and the strength to keep going. We all love you <3

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I would randomly add here "Ted Wallace" who calls himself a "Transformational Artist". It's rather abstract but I love the states and feelings he expresses. He's one of the fewer visionary artists I really like. Some examples: "Receiving" "Living with an Open Heart" "Vision" "Transforming Darkness Through the Heart" "Beyond Family" "Passing Thoughts" "Unmasking" "Rhtythm and Joy"

@Hellspeed Very interesting. Makes total sense why I can't always resonate with what you say, it also has to do with the backgrounds and how one is introduced to all this stuff. For me it was highly intellectual for a long time. It's amazing to have all these different perspectives come together. Thanks again for taking the time. Namaste

That sounds beautiful Thanks for the info, just asking once more regarding the chakra thing in your signature. Did you also find all that out by yourself / by attending to the breath or did/do you use a specific technique to go about this?

Interesting. Does "patient" imply that you are healing people yourself as a profession or as a hobby? If so, did you learn that through training? Or are we talking self-taught and practiced in private? Just asking since I'm heading into healing (life-purpose wise) myself and I'm not sure yet which direction to go and how to approach it.

@Hellspeed I'm watching your posts for a while now and I can't deny I'm highly sceptical most of the time. But I'm really interested in your point of view. What is your practice essentially? If I'm not wrong, you put a high priority on the breath. Does that mean that you do breath concentration meditation? Or do you practice kriyas? Both? Anything else? Does that imply any specific practice or any emphasis of your everyday consciousness?

You're right. I'm sorry if I bent anything you said. Still have to work on myself regarding clear communication and the need to be right - yes I'm guilty. Let's just leave it where it is Have a beautiful day <3

@Shin Definitely a step up from 30 minutes, great Take it slow, be gentle to yourself

@Anna1 I agree to disagree my friend I can always be wrong, I don't state I have full understanding. But from my current understanding what you say is simply not true. In the end, I don't really care to be honest. It's a word game in the end. Just interesting to note that all teachers point to something beyond the mind/beyond the intellect or whatever you call it. Realization happens in the mind AFTER the unmanifested realizes itself. I'm not saying to trust external sources, it's just a pointer. Anyway, this discussion has no meaning, feels like you just want to show you're right. Maybe you are. Maybe not. Always stay open and don't come to conclusions too soon (saying this to myself as well). Namaste

@Shin Great! Don't forget, it's not about torturing yourself. As @Strikr said, find a solution that works for YOU. Like i found the lying down working for me. Nevertheless, enjoy the session and report back