Aquarius

It sounds like you're having guilt trips. Forget about the "wrong" and the "right", if opportunity ever arises, you will know what to do. I reassure you that.

I remember my experience back in November. Succumbing into nothingness has never felt so blissful.

@Arhattobe Oh, how the tables have turned. @Lacru Stay calm and observe the person.

Careful observation? Cyclicity? I am unable to believe anything that lacks these two components.

I had friends like that. They're completely nuts, yet teach so much. I don't think I'd be where I am without them.

Your authentic self knows what to do and how.

First you say: And then immediately you say: You contradict yourself. Inner turmoil?

@emind But also note that his videos are better quality. I think it's worth the wait.

If you want to learn, you will.

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[Break day. Sunday, 10th of February 2019] Today is a break day for me! Every bone and muscle in my body is hurting! Ouchy! I think I'll spend the rest of the day meditating and making art. My muscles are building very nicely. The muscles in my neck/back are forming according to the plan, I'm seriously glad. It's all pure pain and it's amazing! Sigh, what a life. I just have to take care of my posture and sleeping position.

@Valach You'll figure it out eventually. Good luck!

You're so harsh with yourself... Don't worry about your thoughts. Remember why you're doing all of this. Just open the book and read it. Even if you cannot concentrate at first. Practice makes perfect.

You can do many things with a diploma. Or more diplomas.

You're not attracting those men, you are allowing them into your life by yourself. Ask yourself why are you sexually attracted to insecure men.

Sounds intriguing. What would the deficit of love look like from your perspective?

Yes! It's amazing, isn't it? But you are not your mind.

Start with the Solfeggio frequencies. This is good for a start. If you ever feel overwhelmed, feel free to stop anytime and to continue later if you like. Not sure if it's binaural, but it feels really good.

These stories they tell about gods and goddesses are symbolic, and are meant to be contemplated. That's not to say they are not real! You just have to "get" what it points to, on an experiential level. And just because someone is trying to help you with the best method they currently know, it doesn't mean they "try to convert" you. Maybe the guy really meant to teach you wisdom, but didn't have the right vocabulary or simply didn't connect with you. You never know. I've had people from actual sects that tried to literally convert me, and I told them on a completely calm tone and a warm smile on my face, "Thank you, I appreciate that you thought of me but I have my own religion and I hope you respect that.", and I wasn't lying. And they thanked me for giving them that experience of authenticity they never met before. So it's a two-way street. A conversation always will depend on both persons. Better not label people with value systems. It's not people that are blue, yellow, turquoise, etc., but it's the things they value. Even so, better not demonize blue, most people are really nice with you if you respect them.

Whatever you do, don't try to sound like a spiritual teacher. Or worse, like a like a spiritual leader... That scares people off. Find a level of authenticity and of and humbleness that is right. Use subtle humor. And practice a lot in front of a camera or something.

Depends what you mean by depression. But either way, even if you get enlightened you need time to actualize your knowledge in daily, "real" life. Enlightenment can make you.. or break you.

@Lacru Shout back this: "si eu te iubesc!!". (tr. - I love you too!)

Wow amazing post! Thank you!

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