Aquarius

Your authentic self knows what to do and how.

First you say: And then immediately you say: You contradict yourself. Inner turmoil?

@emind But also note that his videos are better quality. I think it's worth the wait.

If you want to learn, you will.

Food: sausage, cheese, tomatoes Drink: water

[Break day. Sunday, 10th of February 2019] Today is a break day for me! Every bone and muscle in my body is hurting! Ouchy! I think I'll spend the rest of the day meditating and making art. My muscles are building very nicely. The muscles in my neck/back are forming according to the plan, I'm seriously glad. It's all pure pain and it's amazing! Sigh, what a life. I just have to take care of my posture and sleeping position.

@Valach You'll figure it out eventually. Good luck!

You're so harsh with yourself... Don't worry about your thoughts. Remember why you're doing all of this. Just open the book and read it. Even if you cannot concentrate at first. Practice makes perfect.

You can do many things with a diploma. Or more diplomas.

You're not attracting those men, you are allowing them into your life by yourself. Ask yourself why are you sexually attracted to insecure men.

Sounds intriguing. What would the deficit of love look like from your perspective?

Yes! It's amazing, isn't it? But you are not your mind.

Start with the Solfeggio frequencies. This is good for a start. If you ever feel overwhelmed, feel free to stop anytime and to continue later if you like. Not sure if it's binaural, but it feels really good.

These stories they tell about gods and goddesses are symbolic, and are meant to be contemplated. That's not to say they are not real! You just have to "get" what it points to, on an experiential level. And just because someone is trying to help you with the best method they currently know, it doesn't mean they "try to convert" you. Maybe the guy really meant to teach you wisdom, but didn't have the right vocabulary or simply didn't connect with you. You never know. I've had people from actual sects that tried to literally convert me, and I told them on a completely calm tone and a warm smile on my face, "Thank you, I appreciate that you thought of me but I have my own religion and I hope you respect that.", and I wasn't lying. And they thanked me for giving them that experience of authenticity they never met before. So it's a two-way street. A conversation always will depend on both persons. Better not label people with value systems. It's not people that are blue, yellow, turquoise, etc., but it's the things they value. Even so, better not demonize blue, most people are really nice with you if you respect them.

Whatever you do, don't try to sound like a spiritual teacher. Or worse, like a like a spiritual leader... That scares people off. Find a level of authenticity and of and humbleness that is right. Use subtle humor. And practice a lot in front of a camera or something.

Depends what you mean by depression. But either way, even if you get enlightened you need time to actualize your knowledge in daily, "real" life. Enlightenment can make you.. or break you.

@Lacru Shout back this: "si eu te iubesc!!". (tr. - I love you too!)

Food: green peas, apples Drink: Water

Food: peanuts, dark chocolate Drink: water

Food: salami, cheese, fried eggs Drink: milk Weight: 82.3kg

What the workout was about: General workout, nothing special this time. I jotted down a list of what I wanted to do, and I think it kinda ruined the whole workout experience for me instead of helping. What a shame. I will have to take a mental note of what I want to do instead. Type of exercises: stretching, jumping jacks, whole body muscles building, some spine correction. Satisfaction level: I will give this session a weak 5. Mainly because I wished to do more than half an hour of exercise. I seriously should consider going to the gym in the future, but I don't feel like it momentarily. Music: Worked out for 35 minutes to this gem right here. It's honestly perfect for workout. Too bad it has so many ads hm.. It's disturbing my flow lol. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WlCbmuZY7lQ ***Notes to self: open window to get fresh air before the workout buy a large water container find psytrance YouTube channel that doesn't have ads COMMENTS ARE WELCOME!!!

Food: mashed potatoes, chicken sausage (is this what it's called???), salami, oranges, tomatoes Drink: water

I am no one.

First of all, stop labeling them as depressed in your mind. Stop seeing them as something broken that needs to be fixed. This includes how you see yourself as well, just in case. The trick lies in the intention. Maybe your friends don't want help, at least not in that form. You yourself also have to be in a very stable state of mind if you are planning to help them. It's hard enough for someone to help oneself, let alone others. It takes work and time. Don't ever mention meditation again if they don't want to hear about it. Show respect for their needs. Stick to your values and let your actions speak louder than words. A person that is going through emotional difficulties doesn't want to hear that they need help. Mainly because sadness, anger and frustration in certain cases is natural, you never know what someone is going through. You only assume you know everything about them. What they might actually hear is "Hey, I can help you help yourself you just need to do this and this and this and this and that and that." and that doesn't feel right from a friend. It's preachy and unattractive. It's something you'd expect from a coach or a psychologist or a spiritual teacher. Not a friend. You get what I'm saying? A friend needs support in whatever helps them feel a bit better. Crack a joke, actively listen to their problems, have a coffee with them and talk about their interests. And basically, be a decent human being. Meditation and self-development are YOUR goals, not theirs. Respect their lives. Find common ground. Your intention is good though. Helping someone is the best thing you can do, just do it the corresponding way.

@Seed Yes, gossip is such a tricky thing. Some people make up fake stories about people in vulnerable positions, for personal gain or with ill intent. But sometimes it's a misunderstanding, or even a delusion. You pointed this out very well. @Seed Change will happen when needed. She is perfect the way she is, exactly like everyone else. Change is inevitable anyway.