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It's not wrong to do it, if you want to do it. You're free to do it if you want to, because everyone is. You know.. most people speak from experience and a personal point of view that has nothing to do about you. Maybe those people misunderstood you and tried to offer help, the way they thought it would help. I know I went through that before, but different situations, not relating to sexuality. And I had the same reaction as you in this case. Masturbation can be a great tool for self-exploration and that's the truth. It can also be good for relaxing, getting the stress out, good for insomnia, and many other things, including emotional healing. If you want it to be that, of course. It can be anything.

Yes that's what I meant. You have a great point there. I agree.

I asked her if she heard about positive psychology, and she said she's not using that approach. She went on and on saying who brought that approach into the country. She's a hypnotherapist. She's very observant and caring and loving, but the whole approach is yellow af. I noticed she is able to feel the energy from my healing semi-precious stones. But that's about it. Today she noticed I don't feel anything physically without me telling her! What the hell... Relating to my enlightenment process and spiritual practices.

We all are learning and growing here. It's so good to have this community. I think you were very fatherly and caring. That's so nice from a man. I really appreciated to see what you wrote throughout this whole thread. Cheers!

Lol nah, you seem pretty smart. And don't worry, I don't know anything either, I'm still learning. People think I'm pretty smart too.. That is humbleness.

Wow I'm sorry about that I went through the exact same thing, I hope you are ok. I think you are doing a great job. I suffer so much sometimes. I know your experience is real. I can feel it.

@Zakee hinnant I bet he watched it. He's a moderator, after all.

You can get haters in whatever area of life you're pursuing.

Oh the trouble breathing... I get that often. Didn't know it was part of the process. Thanks for letting me know!

@Serotoninluv I'm in the phase where people attack me and try to bring me back. "You are this, you are that, do you feel this, do you feel that, are you doing this? are you doing that?" I thought I simply imagined it. People ask for explanations. My psychologist triggers insecurities in me and "boxes in" my art. Should I keep showing her the art to build resistance, or should I keep the art to myself? She keeps saying "I see this, I see that." and it feels bad, because nobody really sees my art for what it is. She sees me in my art. She keeps asking what it is, when I believe art should be enjoyed. I don't like to call myself artist, but she sees me as an artist. Positive labeling is still labeling. I want to be who I really am. Me. I got asked about one abstract painting "is that you?" and I was like "are you a psychologist or what because I cannot tell?" pointing to the fact that she sees the world through the lens of psychology. And no it wasn't irony it was a very innocent question in an innocent tone. Thing is, I see her for what she is, but she sees projections in me. She said I was different today, more structured, more mature. I dared not to mention my spiritual practices because maybe she has no experience with that then I am forced to explain something that cannot be spoken. Last time I brought it up she kept asking questions and assuming, but I simply wanted to communicate it to her without words. But I keep being forced to talk from stage yellow paradigm. Thoughts?

@Serotoninluv I think it's unusual for him. It will pass, @Zakee hinnant . Simply enjoy.

Ooops. Mine stuffs me with nootropics.

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Thanks.

Breakfast: cheese, cherry-tomatoes

Don't allow him to make you feel bad. Guys like a honest girl. Tell him that you're not interested anymore. Be as blunt and simple as possible and give no explanations. You're getting manipulated into this relationship and you know it, and you have your fair share in this issue by giving him false hopes. If you're not interested in him particularly, go find another (healthy) man.

Sexual life is very personal. You cannot really teach that, you have to go and find out. And usually you find out anyway by yourself and with time. Why not read a book? There are so many great books on sex. Just don't get too obsessive about it. I think what you're talking about is social interaction, teaching kids how to socialize. But that's usually the parents' duty, not the school's. Is it bad?

Nobody stops you in doing that, you know.. Go have sex and be a king.

@Charlotte @clouffy Sorry for my lousy reply, I was in the midst of an enlightenment experience and lacked the concentration to type anything. My problem with the psychologist is that she doesn't believe in God and doesn't know anything about spirituality, and all my problems are spiritual in nature and I'm not sure if I should visit a psychologist or a different practitioner for that?

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Lunch: vegetable soup, pasta Snack: peanuts

@Zigzag Idiot Thank you! I admit, that article I posted did feel a bit off. I didn't do my workout today because I haven't slept much, just had a pretty cool enlightenment experience yesterday and spent the whole night enjoying it until I fell asleep. It's interesting how many people I attract when I'm enlightened, while in the same time I feel am nothing. Maybe it's time to actually read some self-dev books again as in the good old times (say, 3 months ago??? haha) and do more mathematics that I love, to reconnect with the joy of living in the beautiful mystery we call reality. My psychiatrist prescribed me a nootropic and it has been doing its job in the last month or so. I'm also taking plant-based liver supplement to repair the horrible damage I suffered these 8 years or so of medication. I think I'm becoming a human... Just kidding haha. I've been contemplating raw vegan diet for a while but it requires so much research... Will see what I can do. I'm pretty busy busy these days. I appreciate your help, lots.

This seems like a good article, maybe I can try doing something about my mood disorder. " Observational evidence shows a connection between the presence of psychotic disorders and poorer quality dietary patterns, higher intake of refined carbohydrates and total fat, and lower intake or levels of fibre, ω-3 and ω-6 fatty acids, vegetables, fruit, and certain vitamins and minerals (vitamin B12 and B6, folate, vitamin C, zinc, and selenium). Evidence illustrates a role of food allergy and sensitivity as well as microbiome composition and specific phytonutrients (such as L-theanine, sulforaphane, and resveratrol). Experimental studies have demonstrated benefit using healthy diet patterns and specific vitamins and minerals (vitamin B12 and B6, folate, and zinc) and amino acids (serine, lysine, glycine, and tryptophan)." Source: https://www.karger.com/Article/FullText/493399 Time to shop vitamins you guys. [grocery list] - beans, lentils - pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds, brazil nuts, walnuts - salmon, herring, sardines - orange, lime, apple, tomato - chicken, eggs

If anyone wonders why I eat so much protein, it's because I've been starving myself accidentally back in December when my Kundalini awakened. Need to regain balance, take better care of what I do. I'm satisfied with the fact that I don't eat bread anymore. That is something. People were asking me if I'm 18 yet, I think that's a good sign that I'm healthy..?

Dinner: salami, 2 chicken breast steaks, sardines Before-bed Snack: chicken breast steak, tomato Breakfast: 2 fried eggs, yogurt