Carl-Richard

This is what helped for me (in order of significance). Your goal is to reinstate a suitable level of contracted energy in all of your daily behaviors: Perpetually tighten the left side of your abdomen (even when falling asleep). Learn to adopt slightly sub-optimal postures, e.g. walking or sitting hunched-over. Constantly distract yourself, e.g. with your phone or with thinking. When sleeping, sleep on your stomach and switch sides if your mind becomes too quiet. Masturbate regularly, minimum once a week if you're in your 20s or 30s. Eat large meals with nutritious foods (proper ratio of carbs, fats, proteins, fiber); try to overeat. Avoid strong daylight when possible. Challenge yourself, do difficult things, adopt responsibilities, set goals. Go to the gym.

Welp 🥲 I hope MyHeritage won't get hacked for real sometime (allegedly no DNA information was leaked in 2018).

But then I'll ask you too: is there anything in particular you're concerned about related to the privacy of DNA (not just privacy in general)?

I've thought about what bad things could happen if somebody got a hold of my DNA, but short of biochemical weapons targeting Scandinavian people and other science fiction scenarios, my mind turns up blank. Is the idea simply "better safe than sorry" or do you have any specific concerns related to DNA?

I don't know anything about the legal situation you're asking about, but other than that, I think I have some useful information: When I researched for my DNA test, I found out that if you're purely interested in finding your ancestry, MyHeritage is the best for people who live in Europe and expect to have mostly European ancestry. They also don't provide health investigations as far as I remember. By the way, I'm from Norway and I found out I'm 97.3% Scandinavian, 1.8% Finnish and 0.9% Greek/South-Italian, all of which didn't actually come as a surprise. I think ancestry and ethnicity is a fascinating subject 🙂

Non-psychedelic ego death also comes and goes. It's rare that it stays for a long time.

@Sugarcoat I feel like recommending Gabor Maté to you. The things he talks about can help you connect to yourself:

In my unprofessional opinion, you need a good therapist to help dive deeply into yourself.

I mean like talk therapy. Are they giving you that?

Have you tried therapy?

"Possible psychosis prodrome, but not sure due to drug use".

There are other ways than social media. If you want to reliably create highly conscious people, ideally you would target them before they even know what social media is, e.g. in schools. That might seem far off, but it's possible to contribute to steering it in that direction.

Ok, ChatGPT.

No.

The power that some girls have Literally incapacitated. But I feel you. I think this happens to all guys at least once. I think you could get used to it over time and it won't bother you as much. If you stare long enough at the sun, it will burn a hole in your eyes and you'll stop squinting as much (that's a metaphor, don't try it ).

Wrong in virtually all cases.

If your memories are represented as a visual field, weed is like looking through a keyhole. You can see something, but you see very little at a time. It's also a keyhole into a magical and illusive alternate reality, because you somehow see more of what you want to see and less of what you don't want to see (if only temporarily).

In the stream he linked, he read the last blog post you made (somewhere around the 1:20:00 mark)

Can I ask how often you smoke?

Reacting to the death of yourself with unperturbed peace vs. inconsolable terror is a level of palpable change that could qualify as material. I thought you liked flowery language . Here is the drier version which I tried to find but which my mind didn't let me: "lack of emotional reaction". You can experience yourself peeling back the layers of "material reality" and have the intuition that whatever sits behind all of it (the Void) indeed is the source of material reality and comes prior to it, which is good enough for me to conclude that consciousness comes prior to material things. But I concede that it's based on an intuition and that it's possible that, no, in fact there is a hidden material world generating that entire experience (which is ironically also based on an intuition), but it seems highly unparsimonious and backwards. Does it seem logical at all, that you can go from being an embodied human and step-by-step strip away the components of that experience; having a butt, having a torso, arms and legs, having a head, having thoughts and emotions, being located in space and time; a process which leaves you with essentially nothing but pure experience; but somehow it's the things that you've experienced and thought out while being an embodied human that truly informs you about the primal ground of reality? Meh. I've integrated that shadow red flag. I know how unappealing it sounds but I know no better word for it.

@Keryo Koffa

If there is a thought that enters your mind and you can say "I'm fine without this thing" or "whatever happens is OK" and you exist in the same unmoving sense of tranquility, then you're likely not attached to that thing. Of course, the real test is to actually experience being without that thing. Now, the problem is that some attachments are particularly sticky, and some might not even be consciously available to you, like some attachments around traumatic experiences, repressed desires and insecurities. So those can require some work to identify and work through. But honestly, the process of letting go is quite simple. It's just that, again, some attachments are stickier than others. Some of the big ones are the sense of being in control of your bodily movements, thoughts and decisions, or being a sane individual who can operate in the world, or being alive rather than dead. These are attachments you will have to face when enlightenment knocks on the door.

Countless which I've forgotten about. If they had an obvious meaning to them, I probably wouldn't have forgotten them that easily.