molosku

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    A hermit was meditating by a river when a young man interrupted him.

    “Master, I wish to become your disciple,” said the man.

    “Why?” replied the hermit.

    The young man thought for a moment.

    “Because I want to find God.”

    The master jumped up, grabbed him by the scruff of his neck, dragged him into the river, and plunged his head under water.

    After holding him there for a minute, with him kicking and struggling to free himself, the master finally pulled him up out of the river. The young man coughed up water and gasped to get his breath. When he eventually quieted down, the master spoke.

    “Tell me, what did you want most of all when you were under water.”

    “Air!” answered the man.

    “Very well,” said the master.

    “Go home and come back to me when you want God as much as you just wanted air.”

  2. Posted

    the world is not to blame for your addictions to stuff, it's always within you. Smartphones are supposed to make your life easier and they do if you know how to use them responsibly and consciously. I would advice to install a usage-app, so you get to see how much of your life is actually draining away staring at it. You are living in "the real world" even with a smartphone in your pocket. Who knows if you suddenly get lost in the real world and begin to miss google maps :P

  4. Posted

    40 minutes ago, Znib94 said:

    - The more you "fail" at inquiry, the better

    Feeling stuck? GREAT! That means your mind is hard at work trying to do the impossible. Realize that thats the purpose of inquiry. Do it anyway.

    - This part is interesting to me. Just 3 days ago a small insight came to me while I was doing inquiry. I felt a bit of anxiety and started to question it like "to whom does these feelings go to? Who really feels this way?" And as usual I've came to the conclusion that these feelings belong to no-one. No person inside of this body is actually suffering, there are just these feelings all alone. Suddenly a thought came into my mind  "well if nobody suffers, why does it matter that these feelings are appearing? Wouldn't that just make them impersonal?" That changed a lot and for the past 3 days I've been witnessing these thoughts, feelings, stories, fear in an objective and impersonal way. They were just arising in my awareness but they didn't really belong to anyone. 

    Yet today I woke up and a strong sense of "me" returned. It's like my anxiety and feelings have become very personal once again. Like I'm really that somebody who is suffering from these feelings and stories once again. Inside of me everything is just too cloudy. I feel totally stuck with inquiry, it's like my mind couldn't accept or figure out what was going on - that there was a loss of identification with it, so the stories and feelings are becoming very "strong" once again. It kind of feels like I'm back at square one once again. 

     

     

    All i can say is: never give up.  If you get it the last day of your life,  it will be worth it still. 

  8. Posted · Edited by molosku

    Well that happened for me a couple of days ago, and needless to say it was reeeeally something. These tips are written sort of like notes for myself, so don't read these as commands you must follow. This thread is not a "tell us how you did it" thread, because the truth is, there is no method so what's the point. If you really really wanna know it happened trough (in order of importance):

    • Pure, cosmic dumb luck
    • I was on mushrooms (quite mild trip, could have had a normal convo although it would have not been pleasant at the time)
    • Prolonged daily meditation practise (30-120min per day)
    • Mindfulness (I consider myself a beginner)
    • Self-inquiry (gonna do ALOT more of this in the future)

    At the time when it happened, I had been meditating and self-inquiring for about 50minutes. Then: BAM! But here are the insights:

     

    Forget enlightenment, instead go straight for TRUTH

    Leo (among many others) has mentioned this multiple times but I'll mention it again because its CRITICAL. Enlightenment is not true for you (or me atm, I was not awakened permanently) until you have it, until then, forget enlightenment and set you course for truth. Consider enlightenment as another bullshit story until you get it personally. Stop thinkin "Im awareness, Im awareness, Im everything...." This trap is a big one and I was In it for quite some time. Truth and enlightenment are NOT the same thing in this sense. I strongly feel one big reason my awakening happened because I really really really forgot everyhting I had heard and read about enlightenment and the truth of no-self moments before it happened. Thats why it blew me away so hard: THE SELF DOES NOT EXIST! The deeper you forget enlightenment, the better. It helps if you:

    Stop consuming enlightenment theory (so much at least)

    All this is doing is filling your head with bunch of ideas, and you don't want that. It's just another distraction from doing the actual work. Your mind knows this. it's really safe and sound when you are concentrating on ANYTHING other than it.

    When you inquire, its CRITICAL to REALLY mean what you are asking

    You must really be interested to the bone what you are, you must crave the truth with every inch of your being. Robotically repeating the questions will get you nowhere. I encourage you to think about other things as well before/during inquiry to really get your interest and love for life going, like the universe, life, death etc.

    Also, when you inquire, do it with a big dumb smile in your heart and face. LOVE the question, LOVE the fact that silence is your answer EVERYTIME you ask a question. LOVE that you feel frustrated, because:

    The more you "fail" at inquiry, the better

    Feeling stuck? GREAT! That means your mind is hard at work trying to do the impossible. Realize that thats the purpose of inquiry. Do it anyway.

    Become really aware between the distintion between a memory and a truth

    Cross your hands and look at them. There they are. Now close your eyes. They now have zero reality to them physically, now you only have a memory of them. Memory is just a mental image and NOT true. You only have the sensation of your hands, and you percieve them in your consciousness. Also, the room you think you are in, does not exist, nor does your head, body, the world or ANYTHING other than the stuff that is in your direct experience. When you close your eyes, the world literally disappears. You must be diligent to give absolutely ZERO reality to anything other than your experience.

    Spiritual ego exists only so you can give it away

    Don't try to become really "spiritual" person, thats nonsense. You already are the spirit, there is nothing that could build it more. Don't mistake spiritual ego to be some better and kinder version of your regular ego. It's a hot potato your ego latches onto, it possibly makes you feel happier and more positive, but it blinds you from the truth. The general feeling I got was, that when I just handed everything I was holding onto away, my beliefs, self-image, assumptions and especially spiritual ego, I was so naked that the truth could finally reveal itself to me. It felt like I was talking so loudly my whole life without a stop that the truth simply did not get a say. When I finally shut up for just a second, it said:

     

     

     

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    I have heard so much stuff about them, but I cant decide what to think. They seem to be such a big deal, but my inner scientific sceptic can't swallow something like this without a throughout chewing, but Im also sceptic about my sceptisism. Im not a doctor, but I'm pretty sure that we can't pinpoint any chakras from the physical body, just like that. 

    There is also an issue of the new-age slippery slope that can start to snowball pretty quickly when one starts to accept spiritual concepts and theories that we have no hard science with cool math and graphs and research of. Science is starting to have increasingly worse rep here by the day, and by now the limits of science have been pointed out multiple times, but I don't think it deserves to be put into the trash so harshly, especially when we are talking about the human body. It's a pretty solid research subject.

     

    This is the "problem" with all spiritual non-science based theories, pick one. Lets use the example of chakras:

    You don't believe in them, you don't practice them, they will probably never show themselves to you.

    You don't believe in them, but you try anyway, the above will probably happen because your hart was not in it really.

    You do believe in them, but REALLY they do not exist, you can imagine they work (placebo), and in a twisted way they are now part of your reality and do exist.

    You do believe in them, they do really exist really, it works, win.

     

    I can accept that mainstream science will NEVER fund research into chakras and I will never get the proof I thirst for. In my direct experience I don't feel any specific energy points in my body EXCEPT when I'm on mushrooms, then I feel a nice mellowing warm fuzzy nice feeling in my stomach area (that would be the root chakra?), but I also have many other physical sensations because well, Im on mushrooms. Also acid feels a lot like it's in my crown chakra, if you want to call it that.

     

    Being radically open minded and practicing critical thinking is a tough balancing board to master. Help me and other like me out here, all you wannabe hindu monkeys :P

    Some further reading:

     

    http://powerthoughtsmeditationclub.com/the-chakras/

    http://www.chakra-anatomy.com/chakra-science.html

    (the issue is present on the links above, it's easy to bootstrap quantum mechanics to prove and mean all kinds of stuff, even though the best scientist of the field admit the basics of it boggles them really hard)

  16. Posted · Edited by molosku

    On 2017-12-24 at 10:57 AM, Shin said:

    I really want to pee, like super hard.

    Also my little john is 7 days full after its last wet dream, it's screaming for pussy, like a child .

    The present moment is pretty "hard" right now ...

    I dont know you shin but i love you <3 ((((Im a guy, no homo))))

    Im feeling great! I feel happier and more mindful almost every passing month.

  22. Posted

    1 hour ago, Joseph Maynor said:

    You really need to learn how to detach from the Mind and from thoughts when on LSD.  Just let go of thoughts when they get sticky.

    Easier said than done matey, especially on that high of a dose. Have any tips for that? I find that the more i try to let go, the more everything amplifies. I love acid though. I guess that makes me a junkie. Imagine my shame lol :P

  25. Posted

    1 hour ago, Edvard said:

    Any concept or word becomes false in the ultimate sense, which we are indeed talking about, being it "material" or "immaterial".

    Well said my friend. I juuuuust commented about this to another person, ill just copy paste it below. And yes, any scientist that is not married to the paradigm of science knows this: science is the investigation of the properties of the seeming reality we exist in, and it will never (and it never was supposed to) touch the "what" of things. But yeah here is the copypasta:

    The evidence that a materialist claims to be evidence of matter, is first and foremost actually evidence of existence of perceptions. It still leaves the discussion of reality of matter open, because it does not objectively falsify the notion of matter, just the evidence for it.

    I don't know man, all this confuses the hell out of me, to be honest. In unsure times like these, meditation as a being feels nice and simple my small brain does not compute the challenges of western philosophy. My current feeling about the metaphysics of matter is, that it simultaneously exists, and does not exist. I heard one weird skinny bald guy calling that a strangeloop, but I don't know about that fuzz. Could be a scam to sell something, I don't know.