Vipassana

So it all... again...boils down to: Either I am conscious of it... or I am not. Nothing inbetween. No consolation ;-;

@Leo Gura will you be reconciling the notions of Karma & reincarnation with your awakenings in a video? I am open minded to hear absolutely anything. You've been shattering the spiritual status quo and I find it exhilarating & extremely scary.

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Bay Area, California

Its all God

@Danioover9000 I mean it in very practical terms. For example, your girlfriend is out and she is not answering her phone. You can speculate that shes busy or that she might be away from the phone or you can speculate that shes fucking some other guy and shes never coming back. Notice that this instance is something you surrender to. You surrender to the fact that you don't know. No amount of speculation can give relief to the fact that you do don't know. All speculation is existential and spiritual because speculating is you asserting your desire to know when you don't know. It is solely up to you to contemplate upon what is worth speculating and what is not. <- maybe this is worth speculating When it comes to business then yes, speculating is relatively good but relatively. Like you said, If you find that your speculation is becoming unproductive then you let it go.

In my case, speculating had a negative influence on me when I was speculating upon something I had to surrender to. If your speculation is a defense mechanism then yes it is bad. You have to acknowledge the relativity of such questions. This is where practices like contemplating using a journal & asking powerful questions come in handy.

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thank you for sharing brother

and God said, let there be light... Awareness illuminates.

it is harmful for his survival as a YouTube yogi to admit that he doesn't know an answer to ANY question. Therefore he improvises using his self biases.

Honey honey honey honey honeeeeyyyyyyyy https://youtu.be/wDOvmhqvIA8

@Leo Gura fellow honey lover, I would recommend you try Neem Honey & Manuka Honey. They are amazing. Might even want to go to Nepal and try the Psychedelic Honey (Im assuming you have watched the vice documentary) Also I had this amazing experience with honey and wanted to share! I don't know if it applies to all. Do you guys ever get cold while tripping on mushrooms? Its a common theme on my trips. I often find myself craving sunlight, I also think that mushrooms are considered to generate a cooling effect on the body according to ayurveda. Anyways, a few weeks ago, I had turned on the heater and was ready to trip in my room however although my room was at a decent temperature, I felt very cold. Then I remembered that honey is considered to generate heat in the body & I confirmed it within my own experience!! I literally took half a teaspoon of honey (i usually mindlessly consume a large tablespoon to get a dose of sweetness but because I was tripping, I realized my abusive behavior towards honey) and my body immediately felt warm. It was one of the greatest worldly sensations Ive experienced. So pro tip: take honey when cold.

Music to my ears

I greatly apologize if this is against the forum rules but do any of you psychonauts know if these mushrooms are good to consume? I've had some aesthetically questionable mushrooms before but not to this degree.

@Fishy would the mold be the orange spots? Or the discolorations?

My awareness is thicc. I feel like a poet without the poetic abilities. How can I possibly share the intimacy between I & I. Most of my trips these days just bring me back to one thing.... Awareness. Its the only answer I receive which doesn't answer much. I am becoming more and more thirstier its like I've 'outgrown' low to moderate doses of mushrooms. My 'grip' on the trip is so firm that I am left un-perplexed. At least half a dozen of my previous trips have been.... unappetizing.... Not a lot I can digest & internalize. No more juicy insights, no more utter mindfuckery, no more paradigm shifts Just a serene presence & a firm knowing With all the meditation I do, My sense of self keeps becoming stronger & stronger. I cannot seem to surrender totally but I've never had this much awareness & presence. I am intuiting that I need a change of substance.

Wow! Quiet a predicament you are facing. You are living in a place where people are very confused about personal development. What you refer to as a life coach, Hindus refer to as a Guru. Modern Personal development is confused with orthodox spiritual schools. Quiet frankly, You won't be able to thrive as a life coach in India unless you offer something very unique. Everyone in the east enjoys telling other people what to do without doing it themselves. However, You have to realize that there is A LOT of potential if you begin to do something unique. My vision for you is to put yourself out on social media & teach personal development to Hindi Speaking audience. A deep study of spiral dynamics & the Indian culture will help tremendously. Also, teach teachings that integrate eastern philosophy with western science. There needs to be a process of you "proving yourself" to the Indian audience before you are able to work 1 on 1 with clients. I don't think a certificate will help you that much in the initial stages of building an audience but once you find your niche & build remarkable skills, there are a lot of stage orange people in India that want to step it up a notch.

Of course, The people who are making the most remarkable changes in the world currently, you have no clue who they are. Its the devils that most people know. The course isn't orientated towards fame, prestige or even money. Its about what you value & how you can align your life to live out your highest values.

You will be able to finish the whole course in a month yielding decent results but after having gone through the course almost 3 times (didn't finish the first two times), I personally think that the more hours you spend pondering & taking it slow, the better results you will get in the end. Even though I finished the course & I have a good sense of my purpose, I see great value in revisiting the exercises & re-do it without a sense of urgency. I wanted to finish the course quickly so I spent around 2 hours everyday for a month which prevented me from really visioning.

I didn't enjoy the read. It seems too frivolous. 'No soul' in your writings. From what I've read, I don't think you're giving yourself enough time and responsibility really integrate these trips. Its important to contemplate what you learn from your trips & how your behavior will change.

it will take you a few mystical experiences to realize the Truth about this phenomena. It is good that you're ambivalent, most people buy into this without having the direct experience to prevent themselves from becoming ideological. Contemplate why you have this attitude. It is the materialist paradigm you buy into that makes distinctions between the universe & 'specific' human beings which is also generating the skepticism. If you realized & understood that the universe is your creation & you are the universe then you would begin to realize that the universe unconditionally loves every single 'human being' and that everything that happens is pure magic.

Great work! Good dose for tripping alone for the first time! Next trip, you might want to up the dose & set a clear intention.