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this is when I lost every faith I had in science and society lol, I go to the doc to see how society help. she just tell me how you're adhd, take a pill it cure it ! then I asked how, etc.. I talked meta to the psych, she didn't get it :laugh: I asked more, I get more EASY. I even had to make her lower on the dosage or I couldn't take it. ( the pills are so fat I cutted them in half because of the dose I get ) ( I tryed to sold it in the street for weed, my real cure, problem was, no one in my country know about stimulant drug, they just know coke, fucking "ignorant douchbag" > /joke * lol ! ) I go for the pills to enlight things, I wanted COKAINE free at this time. ( really it was my idea ) and I got exactly it. I wasn't going to the psych 2 years ago to cure, only to have the free cokaïne ( ritaline ) ( I know I corresponded to "adhd" model ) completely stoped it, for obvious reason. side effect was overpowering the "good effect", I reduced my drug intake at 10% ( only a tiny joint or two per day, good diet, full water, break time ( "méditation" ) ) I m musician not a monk :> ! ... work for me, no side effect besides the price

I use them like cokaïne ( ritalin pills )for big music event, they hit hard as coke to me. especially if you don't do any stimulant like me for months. ( really rare a coffee or thea ) I still have 20 of them. It's my rare drug when weed isn't enough ( depend ) as I don't drink alcohol at all ( I drinked 1 year in my life 4 years ago ) if I need to keep awake until 7 AM and met people it's really nice to have this drug, but there is a crash and a comedown, and I believe it stay in the mind for several days. so it's really a stupid tool, mindfulness is over this shit, but sometimes you need to be as stupid as everyone and enjoy like a mindless zomby. ( some will not agree, but to me life is about BALANCE ) but I treat it exactly like you would take MDMA, 1 every 3 months. ( and like 20 mg, the psych wanted me on 70mg per day LOL ) ( things I don't take anymore ) ritalin is "poison" but a controled one that I know how it affect my mind. it's not super funny alone, but with weed, it's really alright. better don't do drug at all if you can, but me I love mindless music. Life is meaningless, I know what I love and what I want to do, creates ENERGY and share it uploading it directly into your mind and body !

you do not perceive word/modele in a "conscious". you perceive the sense that you linked about those concept, anchored by the word/modele himself. when I was a child I could laugh about slave and hitler and feel really good inside. And I still don't cringe when I use the word Hitler. But I wasn't aware that my jokes about Hitler triggered people a bad feeling. Because word =/= the meaning energy people give to them.

ego back slash leo, leoooooooooo you should do again a psychedelic trip. I find your non duality a bit missing those days, probably the all losted people who defy you on the forum. Trump is maybe the one who will create goodness and peace in the whole world ( I SUPPOSE NOT, but who the hell I m to believe my eyes ? ) I watched a manga when kids, the story still resonate for instance : the hero become king/god of the entire planet ( in a steampunk kind of world ), then he behave like a real mother fucker and treat unfairly the whole planet, everyone hated on him for being so sellfish and stupid, he used himself as a symbol of hate, and when everyone had his eyes turned on him as the ennemy he decide to ask "his best friend" who was seen as "good" by the planet people. He ask this friend to take his life in front of the people at a big event and take with him all the hates he created only to makes the world a better place. He choose to become the symbol of hate for everyone, and kill himself to restaure "peace" in the world. without any glory. He ask his friend ( who was against him in fact the whole story ) to create a world of peace for many years ok it's a manga story, but .. lot of meaning to me. who is evil really in the story, the Trump ? the friend who kill him for create peace in the world ? the people who did nothing but being apathic to become aware of their own evil reflecting on their leader ? it's not that easy. I mean this is a story, but what you don't know, you fucking don't know, it's yourself who teached me this notion. So I stoped judging things for how they appear to me. unless it serv a sellfish goal ( comparing song in music, to grow, I need to divide and group ) so I started STOP to judge things on their color, but judge only the shape I can see in my mind. Shades and light in a draw, are exactly like good and bad, a point of view, only the subject shape can be at his best seen by a mind. And the meaning is still what you see in the lines. There is no lines, we create the concept of lines. maybe there is better stage to see reality, but I didn't find it. if you believe there is evil leo, I m really asking my self who am I learning from

thanks for this review @Leo Gura , I think you're right, do you recommand some lecture to get out of my negative orange part ? I think he is the deepest reflection of my dark side, can I convince it to surrender ? with the intellectual part ? with books ? more meditation ? I think my ego is avoiding any attempt to meditate very very very hard. Maybe different than you I've been a pure ego being as long as I remember what was your own path that convince you to really reflect that orange/green part is still limiting ? is it only DMT ? I can't put my hand on that for probably a while, and I m not willing to do so, my ego doesn't want it. LSD realisation still burning my ego flesh, he is trying to take me back very hard to old ways.

Good point LSD showed me that my mind and thought creates my focus and the lens IS over everything. Every thought is pure in your cognition . Your eyes and mouth create the distorsion based upon feeling. I clearly love you and hate you leo for the knowledge. Your meta model helped me so much to grow. I m still having this ego Backslash But that's my diet' smoking.. ( few but that's too much ) and this little tinnitus don't help meditate. The inner work is so vast. I can sée now. See that we are all 'blind' Still work to do

watch leo video blog on meta understanding, you'll get more from all his video after this one. ( if you get this one ) to me it was genius. ho I feel you, this is why I anchored myself again into reality, it's hard. you talked about everyone looking like a zomby, be aware that's a egocentric feeling, you're not less a zomby than them, everyone is doing his best in life, even if the best sound silly to yourself or the path you're on currently. remember the world is unfair ( and fair ), but for the purpose of the understanding, don't see the world as good/bad it limits you. ( but reflect that your energy will mirror into reality, how you watch at things, and feel them ) how you surround yourself is a reflection of what you are or need. no one noticed than life is a perpetual cycle of birth and die ? ( in the meta sense ) when you're kid, you feel safe, then you start having fear, then you fight for social and makes sense, then you have sense, but you need to fight to be loved ( or to get attention ) then you get attention, you understand that this thing will not fullfil you, then you start reflecting what will help me ? then you detach from people that are late in their journey because you're one your own path ( or who stay stuck in a "stage" ) every knowledge acquired change your pov on life but be aware all I m sayin is a meta feeling of my self, nothing true / wrong it's just is what I reflect now, and everything is made from a human mind like yours, with darkness, with lightness, every behavior you have is in every human being, but in a form or another, everyone have some Hitler and some Gandhi in himself. I do not believe in human being bad, or good, they just do their thing, do not judge them to be stupid or lacking smartness. You don't know what you don't know, when you judge, it's preparing yourself for a backslash, and then discover that you was still the zomby even when you was judging other to be zomby. ( or a bad feeling that is entering your soul/body/brain ) I m not sayin you're this of that, everything is a perpetual movement toward evolution, problem > fixing : problem > fixing etc.. ( part of how I see things )

from what I get from leo, no one is real, so animals are not real at all. the paradox of the vegan. stop eating meat, eat a bunch of chimic manufactured pills. I m not judging anything, just putting a perspective

ho man I was a pure atheist, nihilist, now I believe in the intelligent design, not in the budha. want to see intelligent design ? LSD or mushroom, better than EVERY fucking word I could put in this topic. if you don't call it psychic phenomena, it's just a matter of "value x word"

nailed it every big star isn't alone. They are the symbol people hang around. Every great leader is owned by the people who reflect in him and use it as the receptacle of their own conviction/idea.

when someone told me this, I say : world is unfair take your best cards, fuck the jealous one, remember rule one : world is unfair I have a friend who own a place for playing big music, YES he has the luck to have parents who own the place, but he would have been stupid having stupid morality as : hoo poor little guys, they do not own the place, hence I should be play "fair" remember, world is unfair. Not playing your best card, is just being a complete idiot. If you're rich, you don't give monney to charity to start fair. ( unless that's your goal to help people for a while. This would be idiot. ( I m talking in the current world ) What if I want to be god/king in the whole world ? what if I rape and enrage people to get respect and hence apply this agenda of fairness when I m fully having the power ? does this idea makes me bad ? save humanity by being a jerk ? Take all the card you can from life, just remember, there is a cons/pro for every situation. There is no bad/good situation. You reflect your own mindset on life, and life answer to your mind. I didn't ask for lived here at first, hence I do not own anything to anyone, just take my life if that's what you want, get it. When someone told me, hey you live with your mum. Yes and ? we live right together, why society would push people to live on their own anyway ? why isolate ? isn't family a good thing ? Maybe more valued in my culture than in US ( French ) I m sucking society ? taking over the monney of my mum ? let me LAUGH, What if I m his futur ? what if she just believe in me and my work ? it's unfair to have a supportive parent, hence I should start a war with my family to play fairly ? "poor people" ( not in monney ) invent everything to readjust their morality, morality is a blinder into possibility I wouldn't even have the right to be born if that's wasn't to be a slave and be perfect in the agenda of master ( master that I don't have any hate for ) so Who is sucking whom, who is creating parasitic slave in the first place. nothing can be judge in this world, everything is an illusion of the first mind ( your pov ). Maybe Donald trump is a very very smart guy with an agenda to save the world, ( I suppose not, but who am I to judge, I do not own the data to suppose ) When I m taking, it's like creating magic spell, it's converting, or converging. I do not try to change people goal. I have my goal, and nothing can stop me but my thought Nietzshe says, every great nature is anchored to never be understand by ordinary man. Hence great man shouldn't bother AT ALL with the talk of the sheep. leo video are not to take as a first degree idea, they are mostly trigger # They are just maps to meta understanding, everything is relative

what if Hitler would have bring peace on earth for 10 000 years, with his son, starting smoking weed and denying the nazi regim of dad. Hitler washing corruption to humanity, then decide to makes humanity grow again after he control everything, Hitler then try LSD, contemplate his own life, change perspective, trying to makes the world even better than ghandhi because he transcended red for yellow. Then he cure cancer, and bring peace to the whole race for many decades. "Reality" : Hitler was a little bit green, he found that animals was equal to humans. ( germany still have animals right created by hitler who protect them ) no one knows. so it's all bullshit you know, your scale of judging things is always bullshit, even if it drives you @YaMayka -> Yes !

@ajasatya difference between dream and reality

erverything is pointless choose what you consume, as an Artist I don't even play video games, it's about mindfulness while acting, not about the "game". What you observe and reflect. you can play video games smart, watch a stupid show smartly, but the problem is the reflection you can create while watching it. it all depend of the mind and your goal. unless you want to be a budhist monk, nothing is irrelevant cause nothing is revelant Ego doesn't exist for instance, it's a concept for talking about a way of discipline your mind, there is no solid such thing as "no ego" but sure there is different way of seeing things, it's call'd wisdom

you'll have learned skill most people will never have. your odds of success increase every time you get knowledge you can apply that people can't. no. you didn't get it, your mindset and life change while you work. You can't create a goal on 5 years, world will change, and so you'll. it's hard to answer, you are really at the beggining of this work ( on creatity ) my life changed 40 times since I started music, many things happen. strive everyday for the best TODAY creativity, never focus on the futur, the futur will happen because of the present.

everything pass with time, every realisation is like having to create yourself again, it's frightening and everything, and we need to fix the mind, but don't be worry, the mind will fix, and sometimes the story we have are not the reality, they are just the feeling we reflect on things, currently not a good one, but this feeling will pass and so the ideas relating to this inner feeling try to not focus too much on those bad idea, listen to music, try to relax if you can and just do something who do not require to think. Meditation, drawing.. ( I like drawing when I feel myself overthinking, it's kind of an active meditation )

https://youtu.be/ycPr5-27vSI?t=2h10m24s ( smoking ) https://youtu.be/ycPr5-27vSI?t=2h25m27s ( talking love as the answer ) and leo call'd me a very orange rat in a cage. I always feel him more like a yellow with a bit of green, and using orange system to make it, ( until he see by himself how limited it is ) a green in a orange cage, yes. His dream could only be in a orange business. Now he start to feel his dream go away from his hand because "human global focus is not going to mars" this is not what "tesla actionnaire" wants, they have an other agenda.

@Preetom I deny death, It's an illusion, after this I m god, no matter what, this is my belief. there was nothing before me, so why there would nothing after ? human thought life is the middle of nowhere if infinity = us born conscious infinity x 2 = you again it's just a matter of time for you to come back, but if you do not feel time in billion, it will be instant if this made you : infinity time = you conscious infinity time again ( billions of billiards of stars colliding on a infinity scale of time ) so you come back again, if not, why not ?

All Understanding Is Metaphoric on the blog @Leo Gura it's real gold here, a solid island of shit thanks for this one

@Leo Gura legit

@Leo Gura America so you buy plastic bottle. I did, but only to drink tap water this is the one of my city. ( it's french translated by me ) solidity 26°F30°F5°F kalsium 85 mg/l78 mg/l11,5 mg/l kalium 3 mg/l1 mg/l6,2 mg/l Sodium 30 mg/l5 mg/l11,6 mg/l Magnésium 12 mg/l24 mg/l8 mg/l water composition : Fluor 0,096 mg/l0,12 mg/l0,22 mg/l bikarbonate 247 mg/l357 mg/l71 mg Nitrates 11 mg/l3,8 mg/l6,3 mg/l Sulfates 41 mg/l10 mg/l8,1 mg/l chlorides 47 mg/l does it takes my soul or can I keep drinking it ?

got my own answers, finaly

I want to know your answer, the deep one the flat one and the very flat one :> I m sure you can get more from being sober and in the good mindset.( the good mindset is better than "drug" ) but what about being in the [best mindset you want], admitting full enlightement lived and believing in being a part of the ultimate mind, what happen if you produce music and weed ? will it be corrupted ? why weed with a better ground not being enhancing as a psychedelic ? since psychedelic, weed never been the same for me. ( and many psychonaut talk about it on internet ) why ? non duality doesn't apply to weed ?

well

is the key to understanding the whole art domain ?, things like even playing/writting music or written a fiction. Practice everyday, but how can you practice everyday the least to have the most ? do you know what I mean, is grindind endlessly all there is to be the best ? can you makes the grind efficient ? ( in my case as the identity of a writter of electronic music ( I know it's a identity case, musician, artist, human, choose it ) do you think that harass the mind with repetition / memory muscle on pattern is the best way to improve ? work everyday until you failed so much that know you're better than the one who doesn't fail enough ? You should watch this video to get maybe what I m talking about and even as a non artist ( and maybe even more if you're not an artist ) we all are ? is all there is to each type of learning art domain ? can you learn more fast, more efficient, but in such a way that you overcome billions hours of grinding ? to me the best way was learning about full awareness and full attention, and no distraction to learn and muscle memory, messing with things until I get how it interact, just toying around, but with mindfulness ( I kind of fighted a lot to understand the state, so I m still currently improving those area, hence this topic ) but is there way to improve this to a higher higher higher lvl like picking this god insight but being in flow with it ( instead of being in flow with the external object of our focus ? ) If there was a "higher lvl" to my maze, to connect with the wholeness of a domain and makes the mind only be in a permenant flow states. Is OVERUNDERSTANDING every concept of the art, on every perspective, every alternated states, in every trying, in every manner, in every metaphysical experience you can have, " the only way ? " ( try to not be deep on the "only way" ) is "work/acting on/pushing through", all there is ? I work on the foundation of how I work, having a solid ground before building big building on sand. Is there only sand ? can I have a solid boat on the desert of sand ?