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@Martin123 well nvm this topic is as fruitful as milking a table. i guess ill have to see for myself

@Martin123 what i meant was is there supposed to be purpose at all? cant it just exist? is it beneficial to the realization in any way to hear that that's the "purpose"?

does enlightenment affect one's "presentness"? they usually go hand in hand but is that case necessary?

I think getting a glimpse of what you can be like would be beneficial. if natural curiosity doesnt arise you can experiment with psychedelics and see for yourself what a tiny bit of it's like.

@Wes Thoughts When I took LSA not long ago (first psychedelic i ever did) I felt my consciousness rising, meaning i notice every thought that comes into my mind and its really easy to listen to your "hidden" thoughts. I felt like a fucking genius, ideas were popping into my head so effortlessly I didnt have to do anything, thats intuition. I think it comes automatically with meditation, since it naturally raises your consciousness in other words you're on a natural psychedelic.

@Wes Thoughts notice what he says in that lesson, that you might not understand. That is good! dont hold anything as belief until you experience it yourself, you dont have to agree, some stuff was just thrown in there in the introduction course that would just plant a seed and that's all.

decisions are everyday "normal" activities which you make using thoughts, no other way is possible to make them because a decision is a thought. you should continue your life like usual, the only difference is you dont try to "disidentify" from your thoughts, but just look at them, by looking at them you disidentify automatically. be wary that there might be thoughts so "deep" that you might not notice, like "oh, I dis-identified from that thought!" but that's another thought and you identify with it, just something to be aware of. now, dont be anxious about having to look at the thoughts, just do your daily meditation and try to get a habit of looking at the thoughts, you cant just start forcing yourself to be mindful, it comes with practice and a lot of time naturally. what you're describing is a pretty advanced stage where you just go about your life but you're in the moment 100% of the time, in other words looking at your thoughts all the time. this is automatic with practice and you shouldnt try to do it, it will only lead to frustration. as I said, just remind yourself here and there to be in the moment if you really want that. I think you're pretty confused about it all because in leo's vids there's no solid structure as by which to abide, it's more a bunch of information and "use it as you please" kinda setting. i recommend you to do https://www.trinfinityacademy.com/ courses because it's very nicely structured and you will have less chaos in your head. also, you're thinking about using intuition, which cant be done manually because it's automatic, no free will.

dont misunderstand, I do A LOT of stuff in a bunch of different subjects that range from playing instruments to studying physics, but i have never done a SINGLE thing in my life that brought me true joy. yeah, i enjoy physics sometimes. i enjoy discovering new stuff sometimes(that's why i slightly like tv and video games for example), but nothing of these i REALLY enjoyed, all the things i ever did were average to me, its like i dont give a shit about anything i do, i have never felt truly passionate in my entire life i think. the only vision i have that brings me joy is spirituality.

@Erlend K that's kinda what im doing right now, thanks

i am planning to buy the course in the future because i see a lot of people having great successes with it, but currently i simply dont have the physical money to buy it. how do i generally find my life purpose, for the meantime?

@Real Eyes wouldnt it be less risky to find a life purpose and do that while practicing and doing retreats occasionally?

@Nahm i am also currently doing trifinity academy enlightenment courses and that's much more important to me, and i also soon to start a university semester so that combined wont leave me much time at all to work or to complete the course, which is why i plan to do it in the future.

i see at a lot of retreat posts that one of the main rules is to not interrupt/respect/dont raise hand to ask questions etc. why is that so? i mean, i understand why it would be mandatory for normal people, who would get annoyed, disfocused. but why is it so with people with great emotional mastery? when I read the rules of retreats, I feel like people come there to praise the egos of the masters, like - "they're giving their own time to teach you for free so you should respect them", why would the masters care if i respect them or not? traditionally, respect is for people to feel good about themselves, I simply dont get that point. why is it that i can ask my professor questions during the lecture but cant ask an "egoless" master a question during his talk?

@cetus56 i kinda got to it, but it faded back and forth and i wasnt really sure and needed clarification, thanks for your answer!

ok, so as i thought i guess its for the other people that listen, thank you

@Martin123 wew, thank you man, your previous comment triggered thought that made me break through something i've been stuck on for a while

@Martin123 yes, what i meant was mindfulness. what do you mean by realizing the distinction between sensory and mental worlds? arent they all the same in the field of awareness?

obsessing about this stuff is alright as long as you apply the concepts in everyday practice. I was also "addicted" but as sage_alias said, it goes away with time. I would suggest to stay away from stuff that involves beliefs, because that's what our work here tries to undermine, so the best i can say is to think for yourself using the concepts you gained from your obsession.

i dont know if i have adhd, but sometimes i find myself reading something and i have to read it a lot of times before i understand the meaning of a sentence, that's why i generally dont read books for fun. I also sometimes cant understand what people are saying while in conversation though this is more rare. but most importantly, i started trifinity academy courses not long ago and it seems i sometimes cant do the exercises they present. it's like im relaxing my thoughts for example to be present and i just disconnect, i dont feel present, i just feel nothing at all, and then thought comes back. does concentration/meditation help with this? im really struggling. i feel like a trifinity lesson that could take 15 minutes to read, takes me about an hour or more just to understand the text because i have to reread sentences always and see what its pointing to.

ive had a few breakthroughs recently (if you can call them that) and im pretty confident im not the body nor the person thats sitting inside my head, so a problem arose- how do i continue from there? i still think i exist, because im aware of stuff, but not as a person (or i just think im not). i've beaten the "im not my thoughts" dog to death, when i ask "who is aware?, who is feeling?, who am i?" i just dont get responses because i auto decline already what i thought about a shitton of times. i still feel the sense of self (i guess even enlightened people sense it if they want to[maybe]) but im aware its just a facet of presence.

in america i feel people feel scared of black people or muslims because they see what "these people" can do. to them its just more likely to get stabbed by a black man than by a white woman, because thats what they see around them. when people will see other stuff they will perceive in a different way. so how do we solve it? I dunno, however it seems to me like it will go away with time as different races just mix together and it will just become the norm.

@Shiva check out this topic of mine and the answers i got

of course, that's not what i meant, what i meant was seeing what you DO have in terms of knowledge and embodying it

@Shiva so to sum it up, basically "comfort" is what you're talking about, right? "im living good enough so i dont have to take it too seriously". i think that's the ignorance and embodying knowledge part. if you would know really how good it would be, constantly, you would take it seriously. what do you think about that? do you think it's more or less it?

@Privet true, we are ignorant, but what i meant is that there is a minimal "good enough" level of non-ignorance that is required to do the work with less force. sure, the less ignorance the better, but we gotta get there somehow still, i think its more about embodying that minimal non-ignorance level and from there the ignorance is going to decrease exponentially.